Lostinthedark91
03-03-2014, 01:14 PM
Hi :)
New to this forum, have been on a few before but the support dwindles out after a while.
A bit about me, I'm 22 years old. I was first diagnosed with depression and anxiety at the age of 13 but had felt it a long time before then I think. I eventually got worse and worse with self harming, attempts on my life and I basically just lost all hope by the time I was 15. When I was 16 I was agoraphobic, I didn't leave my house for 6 months. I started CBT and was put on Fluxoetine. After a year I was starting to function a bit better, I could go out I would socialise but very little my confidence was still low but I was getting out and having a life and that's how I was hoping to get better.
And I did. At 19 I started to feel pretty much "normal" I'd go out with my friends, to pubs, shopping to busy places! Don't get me wrong, I don't think I've ever been completely happy but I was doing really good.
Then last year I had an ear infection which my doctor said the symptoms were anxiety! She then put me on Citalopram which knocked me all the way back. Within 10 days on Citalopram I had gone from having dizzy spells to wanting to end it all. I had a massive breakdown and realised that I didn't need the tablets so I stopped. It then took me 2 weeks to leave the house without having an attack. The tablets had ruined all the work the CBT had done, they had messed with my head and now I couldn't control my anxiety.
Again I got through it sort of I can go to work, I can SOMETIMES leave the house and be ok. But theres always the doubt about being able to do it when I want to go out. The last two weeks have been hard, I've just worked and slept. I got very very down didn't speak to anyone including my boyfriend who I live with!
So now I am on a mission to make myself feel better, to stop doubting myself and to try and relearn everything from the CBT that I forgot when on the meds.
I am trying to see my friends more, go out more and try and forget about the anxiety.
It's always helped me before speaking to people who really know how I feel and what I am going through.
I tried making that brief lol :) will be nice to get to know some of you :)
Chrissie x
New to this forum, have been on a few before but the support dwindles out after a while.
A bit about me, I'm 22 years old. I was first diagnosed with depression and anxiety at the age of 13 but had felt it a long time before then I think. I eventually got worse and worse with self harming, attempts on my life and I basically just lost all hope by the time I was 15. When I was 16 I was agoraphobic, I didn't leave my house for 6 months. I started CBT and was put on Fluxoetine. After a year I was starting to function a bit better, I could go out I would socialise but very little my confidence was still low but I was getting out and having a life and that's how I was hoping to get better.
And I did. At 19 I started to feel pretty much "normal" I'd go out with my friends, to pubs, shopping to busy places! Don't get me wrong, I don't think I've ever been completely happy but I was doing really good.
Then last year I had an ear infection which my doctor said the symptoms were anxiety! She then put me on Citalopram which knocked me all the way back. Within 10 days on Citalopram I had gone from having dizzy spells to wanting to end it all. I had a massive breakdown and realised that I didn't need the tablets so I stopped. It then took me 2 weeks to leave the house without having an attack. The tablets had ruined all the work the CBT had done, they had messed with my head and now I couldn't control my anxiety.
Again I got through it sort of I can go to work, I can SOMETIMES leave the house and be ok. But theres always the doubt about being able to do it when I want to go out. The last two weeks have been hard, I've just worked and slept. I got very very down didn't speak to anyone including my boyfriend who I live with!
So now I am on a mission to make myself feel better, to stop doubting myself and to try and relearn everything from the CBT that I forgot when on the meds.
I am trying to see my friends more, go out more and try and forget about the anxiety.
It's always helped me before speaking to people who really know how I feel and what I am going through.
I tried making that brief lol :) will be nice to get to know some of you :)
Chrissie x