Johnnn
03-02-2014, 02:05 AM
This time last year i woke up feeling extremely nauseous and anxious, till this day i have still have no idea what the root cause of my anxiety is and why it randomly had to hit me one night. Everything was perfect, doing well at school, had a girlfriend, was fit, happy, healthy and confident. It's as if my brain decided that things were too good and said "LOL nope" and gave me severe anxiety which still effects me to this day. Basically before my anxiety i would barely ever feel nervous and if i did it wouldnt be that bad. Now if i feel even the smallest amount of nervousness or stress i will immediately become nauseas and feel light headed. My anxiety is really weird. I will feel extremely anxious on Mondays during school then the anxiety will feel better every single day and by Friday i barely feel anxious at all and then the cycle repeats again. It's as if my brain completely forgets that school in not a dangerous place and i have to re-adapt every single week. I will admit my anxiety had gotten better and i have taken no medication for it at all (don't plan to). although taking pills feels very tempting, it feels like the easy way out and doesnt really fix the problem. So why am i writing this? i don't even know i guess im feeling upset knowing that if anxiety has been with me for a year then it can be with me for 10 years or potentially the rest of my life. I really dont want to feel this way all my life. My brain just doesnt seem to adapt, I can do something 100 times and still feel anxious doing it, while a normal person will just adapt and it stops bothering them. Will i ever get better? Could this be just a puberty thing? If it is a puberty thing would it really last a whole year?