Anxiety, depression and fear of being alone.

[kaye]

I have a couple days this week where i have absolutely nothing to do, my few friends are either away or busy, i usually spend most of my time with my boyfriend but i won't see him for a week or so either as he's busy too. Sounds ridiculous but it's really getting to me, i had a panic attack this morning because i knew i'd be spending all weekend and most of next week alone in the house. I've taken my propranolol and that seems to have helped slightly but i still have this horrible feeling of dread. This has always been a problem for me, i can't stand it i feel so useless and alone. It doesn't help that i'm unemployed atm either. i'm starting my driving lessons but that doesn't take up a lot of time, i'm doing whatever i can to keep myself busy or force myself into sleeping a lot but time just drags when i'm alone. I'm miserable. I shouldn't have panic attacks just because i'm bored, it seems so pathetic when people have real problems. i'm starting to actually fear being alone, and that's not normal.

If i had a hobby or something like that i don't think it would be as bad but i'm not good at anything and i have zero motivation to try. I feel useless like i may as well not be here, if this is what my life is going to be like. i'm no use to anyone, absolutely worthless. I'm constantly anxious and worried anyway but right now its so much worse.

I'd just like someone to talk to, if anyone can stand my miserableness haha.

[acetone]

I am also unemployed at the moment (actually have been for 5+ years). I also battle anxiety and depression coz of this. There is absolutely nothing to do so I sleep my days away. Hit me a pm if you wish to talk.

[NoLifeInMe00]

I've had the fear of being alone for years now. I have panic attacks every day for the past couple weeks and im not sure what the exact trigger was. Its hard and stresses me out even more. Being 35 and living with my parents doesnt help either but this is all bc I feel alone and helpless. Ill be alone next weekend bc my parents are going to see my brother in Virginia so for 4 days im going to going crazy bc I tend to get stuck inside my own head and shut down. My escape lately has been going to the gym abd working off my stress. Remember you're not alone because people here want to help. You can PM me any time.

[petrified]

I have a couple days this week where i have absolutely nothing to do, my few friends are either away or busy, i usually spend most of my time with my boyfriend but i won't see him for a week or so either as he's busy too. Sounds ridiculous but it's really getting to me, i had a panic attack this morning because i knew i'd be spending all weekend and most of next week alone in the house. I've taken my propranolol and that seems to have helped slightly but i still have this horrible feeling of dread. This has always been a problem for me, i can't stand it i feel so useless and alone. It doesn't help that i'm unemployed atm either. i'm starting my driving lessons but that doesn't take up a lot of time, i'm doing whatever i can to keep myself busy or force myself into sleeping a lot but time just drags when i'm alone. I'm miserable. I shouldn't have panic attacks just because i'm bored, it seems so pathetic when people have real problems. i'm starting to actually fear being alone, and that's not normal.

If i had a hobby or something like that i don't think it would be as bad but i'm not good at anything and i have zero motivation to try. I feel useless like i may as well not be here, if this is what my life is going to be like. i'm no use to anyone, absolutely worthless. I'm constantly anxious and worried anyway but right now its so much worse.

I'd just like someone to talk to, if anyone can stand my miserableness haha.

Hi Kaye
Sorry you are having such a tough time lately!
I used to be terrified of being alone my poor hubby had no life. The mere thought of being alone would send me into a panic.
Your problems and fears are very real to you and are in no way pathetic!
I'm not working either and understand how tedious that can be, there is only so much housework and things you can do!
Learning how to drive is great and it will give you a lot more freedom when you pass your test.
When I'm feeling lonely now I ring or visit my family or friends I find listening to other people's problems and worries takes my mind off mine for a while!
Plus you have always got us on here to talk too and you will never be alone one here!
If you ever need to talk just pm me :-)
Hope you are feeling a little better :-)

[kaye]

I've had the fear of being alone for years now. I have panic attacks every day for the past couple weeks and im not sure what the exact trigger was. Its hard and stresses me out even more. Being 35 and living with my parents doesnt help either but this is all bc I feel alone and helpless. Ill be alone next weekend bc my parents are going to see my brother in Virginia so for 4 days im going to going crazy bc I tend to get stuck inside my own head and shut down. My escape lately has been going to the gym abd working off my stress. Remember you're not alone because people here want to help. You can PM me any time.

I totally understand you feeling anxious about your parents going away. I always feel the same when mine leave. I'm glad you have a hobby though, i would like to go to the gym but i get paranoid around people :( thankyou, i really appreciate that, same to you, i'm always free to talk :)



Hannah,
I am the same with my boyfriend, he's all i have really bar my parents. I've never told anyone this before but when he's not with me i'm always terrified of something awful happening to him, or that he's going to leave me. I am so ridiculous.
Thankyou so much Hannah, i feel better after reading your reply, you always offer great advice :)

[petrified]

I totally understand you feeling anxious about your parents going away. I always feel the same when mine leave. I'm glad you have a hobby though, i would like to go to the gym but i get paranoid around people :( thankyou, i really appreciate that, same to you, i'm always free to talk :)

Hannah,
I am the same with my boyfriend, he's all i have really bar my parents. I've never told anyone this before but when he's not with me i'm always terrified of something awful happening to him, or that he's going to leave me. I am so ridiculous.
Thankyou so much Hannah, i feel better after reading your reply, you always offer great advice :)

That's a perfectly normal thing to worry about when we have anxiety I suppose it just we all tend to have big hearts and care too much. I partly blame that for my anxiety.
I think we do find a lot out about ourselves on here as its easier to write our feelings down than to say them out loud. It will get easier to be alone once your anxiety subsides a little.
I'm still working on mine and my depression. But reading back on some of my old posts on here it's amazing to see how much I have changed and overcome!
No probs Kaye it's nice to be able to help and it helps me too giving advice!
Pm if you ever need to chat :-)

[Smokewater]

I am also unemployed at the moment (actually have been for 5+ years). I also battle anxiety and depression coz of this. There is absolutely nothing to do so I sleep my days away. Hit me a pm if you wish to talk.

You have no idea how much this lightens my mood up. I've been unemployed and sedentary for the past 6 years. I know that's no way to live, and I also know that it's my own fault for losing my chance at a high school diploma. I feel like my lifestyle is killing me. I'm an occasional smoker/drinker, I've never done hard drugs or anything. My eating habits aren't the best. I eat food that can be prepared in a microwave, and do so at erratic times during the day and night. It's tough when you live in the middle of the desert and there's nothing to do. My life would be much different if I lived in a major city like I used to.

Enough I's for one post. It's good/bad to know someone else is dealing with this. Good because I know that maybe I'm not dying and I'm just depressed. Bad because you're going through it and the feelings are all mutual. I'm sorry you gotta battle it, man. Least we can do for ourselves is be happy that we're aware of the problem, that we're experiencing the same thing, and that it can and will be fixed.

[acetone]

You have no idea how much this lightens my mood up. I've been unemployed and sedentary for the past 6 years. I know that's no way to live, and I also know that it's my own fault for losing my chance at a high school diploma. I feel like my lifestyle is killing me. I'm an occasional smoker/drinker, I've never done hard drugs or anything. My eating habits aren't the best. I eat food that can be prepared in a microwave, and do so at erratic times during the day and night. It's tough when you live in the middle of the desert and there's nothing to do. My life would be much different if I lived in a major city like I used to.

Enough I's for one post. It's good/bad to know someone else is dealing with this. Good because I know that maybe I'm not dying and I'm just depressed. Bad because you're going through it and the feelings are all mutual. I'm sorry you gotta battle it, man. Least we can do for ourselves is be happy that we're aware of the problem, that we're experiencing the same thing, and that it can and will be fixed.
Glad I could be of any help. I also live in a village where there are no employment opportunities.

[Darkcloud]

I know how you feel about being left alone. I go into a panic attack the moment I'm left alone. I also have a hard time going out in public. It can be very crippling. My husband has no life and my mom is getting frustrated. I'm sorry your going through this, I know how you feel.

[kaye]

I know how you feel about being left alone. I go into a panic attack the moment I'm left alone. I also have a hard time going out in public. It can be very crippling. My husband has no life and my mom is getting frustrated. I'm sorry your going through this, I know how you feel.

I'm so sorry you're going through this too, I know how it is. I don't do anything at all, I'm bored of my life, nothing seems to interest me anymore, either because of the anxiety or because I've gave up. Ive been going to therapy but the counsellor is quite harsh and disconnected. I'm just sick tbh :\

[Darkcloud]

I'm so sorry you're going through this too, I know how it is. I don't do anything at all, I'm bored of my life, nothing seems to interest me anymore, either because of the anxiety or because I've gave up. Ive been going to therapy but the counsellor is quite harsh and disconnected. I'm just sick tbh :\

Yea, I go to therapy too and she can be pretty harsh. They just don't understand it. Anxiety can do some pretty crazy things. PM me if you want to talk, I totally get the being bored thing lol

[kaye]

Yea, I go to therapy too and she can be pretty harsh. They just don't understand it. Anxiety can do some pretty crazy things. PM me if you want to talk, I totally get the being bored thing lol

Thank you, same here, talk anytime:)

[Evingthe]

Everybody gets anxious and depressed at times. Its just part of the world we live in. Anxiety can creep up on you over time however and some people are more susceptible than others. You worry about things that are not really worth worrying about. Then you start to worry about worrying. It can really get on top of you and you start to feel useless and unworthy. I got to the stage where I just hated my life and everyone in it. I understand what you are feeling at the moment and I can sympathize because I know how horrible it is. The good news is that you can fix this with the right help. There are a number of good resources on this website that can help. There are a lot of people here who can also give you a shoulder to lean on. The best advice I can give, is to go and see someone. Start with your GP and get a referral to a psychologist or a good counselor. That will at least give you someone to talk to who understands how you are feeling. Once you can understand what is causing your issues, you can learn how to manage it and start to lead a normal life again. I hope this is helpful to you

[kaye]

Everybody gets anxious and depressed at times. Its just part of the world we live in. Anxiety can creep up on you over time however and some people are more susceptible than others. You worry about things that are not really worth worrying about. Then you start to worry about worrying. It can really get on top of you and you start to feel useless and unworthy. I got to the stage where I just hated my life and everyone in it. I understand what you are feeling at the moment and I can sympathize because I know how horrible it is. The good news is that you can fix this with the right help. There are a number of good resources on this website that can help. There are a lot of people here who can also give you a shoulder to lean on. The best advice I can give, is to go and see someone. Start with your GP and get a referral to a psychologist or a good counselor. That will at least give you someone to talk to who understands how you are feeling. Once you can understand what is causing your issues, you can learn how to manage it and start to lead a normal life again. I hope this is helpful to you

Hi, I haven't been on the forum for a while because i think i may be getting slightly better. I have had some stuff to do the last couple of weeks and its calming my anxiety. I do have a CBT counselor at the moment and although she is quite harsh and critical she has basically gave me a kick up the backside and made me start living instead of hiding from everything. I didn't really want to help myself tbh. so i feel a little better and I hope everyone else is too :)

[KIKI74]

I am really happy that you are getting the help. I was 19 when it all started and didn't have all these resources that you now have. I am really think that we all need to tackle it sooner than later. Have u thought of adding ACT to your CBT? Its a good complimentary. I too tend to come less on the forum when feeling better. I find it hard to read some of the posts, i am very sensitive to hardship...

[kaye]

I am really happy that you are getting the help. I was 19 when it all started and didn't have all these resources that you now have. I am really think that we all need to tackle it sooner than later. Have u thought of adding ACT to your CBT? Its a good complimentary. I too tend to come less on the forum when feeling better. I find it hard to read some of the posts, i am very sensitive to hardship...


Hi, I'm sorry you didn't get all the help you needed, I'm really grateful for the therapy I've had, I can't imagine what it must have been like. I haven't, what is ACT? I understand, I read some posts and I feel silly for complaining when people have been through so much trauma and sadness.

[airiss]

I can definitely relate to the social anxiety as well as the fixation on worst case scenarios. The other posts give you really good advice but I also wanted to point out how much looking after your health helps. I found that watching my sugar and caffeine intake helped lessen my anxious feelings and exercise is like a natural medication. Also I think that looking after yourself increases feelings of self worth. Just make sure you congratulate yourself for doing well and don't berate yourself when you eat badly or don't exercise.

[JB478]

Count me in!

I've been battling the fear of being alone for almost of my life. I have a serious anxiety issues to the point that i'm afraid to step my foot outside my house. Sometimes when people look me, i feel like that they judge me in some ways.