Nervous wreck!!

[irishgirlhendun]

Hi everyone I'm new here and have been suffering on and off with anxiety for about 10 years. I had a pretty good grip on it and understood the condition. But last November my Father passed away suddenly. I was devastated and also developed health anxiety very glad and I can't seem to control it or get a grip on it at all. My biggest fear is leukimia right now it is terrifying me I'm a nervous wreck. My question is does anyone know how long leukemia takes to develop? I am 5 months pregnant and had blood work done about 3 months ago and everything came back perfect and all my vitals are good every month I go. But I'm so worried that this leukemia will come out of no where. I'm so scared. Of course I look up symptoms online to reassure myself but of course they don't work and makes it worst cause I need up have every symptom there. Please and advice for someone that has had health anxiety. Just need some words of comfort I know my family is sick of me. Thanks for listening

[irishgirlhendun]

Thanks so much Frankie! This seems like such a wonderful web site! I appreciate your kind words

[petrified]

Hi everyone I'm new here and have been suffering on and off with anxiety for about 10 years. I had a pretty good grip on it and understood the condition. But last November my Father passed away suddenly. I was devastated and also developed health anxiety very glad and I can't seem to control it or get a grip on it at all. My biggest fear is leukimia right now it is terrifying me I'm a nervous wreck. My question is does anyone know how long leukemia takes to develop? I am 5 months pregnant and had blood work done about 3 months ago and everything came back perfect and all my vitals are good every month I go. But I'm so worried that this leukemia will come out of no where. I'm so scared. Of course I look up symptoms online to reassure myself but of course they don't work and makes it worst cause I need up have every symptom there. Please and advice for someone that has had health anxiety. Just need some words of comfort I know my family is sick of me. Thanks for listening

Hi and welcome, I am really sorry for the loss of your father I no how devastating losing a parent can be.
I am currently trying to get over health anxiety and I really understand how terrifying it can be.
For me I used to fixate on sepis/blood poisoning.
I'm not sure about your question and how long it would take to show. But I've started thinking that I'm sure my body would let me no if I had something really wrong.
If you are really concerned make an appointment with your doctor and explain your fears if only to get your mind put at rest. Also try and stay away from google I used to find myself having every symptom to every major disease going, which made me worse.

[irishgirlhendun]

Yes I know what you mean Google is so horrible. I'm really trying to get over this, it's just so hard to take that leap of faith and I'm sure you know that too. And by my question I meant do you think I'm clear to not worry about leukemia right now since I just got blood work about three months ago and all was great, or does leukemia just come out of nowhere!! You know us we have to turn over every rock haha!!!

[irishgirlhendun]

And also did you get the health anxiety after the loss of your parent??

[petrified]

Yes I know what you mean Google is so horrible. I'm really trying to get over this, it's just so hard to take that leap of faith and I'm sure you know that too. And by my question I meant do you think I'm clear to not worry about leukemia right now since I just got blood work about three months ago and all was great, or does leukemia just come out of nowhere!! You know us we have to turn over every rock haha!!!

I think you should be fine as your blood work was really recent but as I said get it checked again if it will help you worry less.
Yeah I really get what you mean I thought I would be scared forever. Don't get me wrong I'm still terrified of dying I'm just beginning to realise that I'm not dying this second.
My mam died when I was young and I suppose growing up I've always had a fixation about dying and and the slightest thing would have me convinced I wouldn't live to see morning. But it wasn't til a few month ago and I reached the age my mam was when she died that my anxiety really took hold. I've not long finished having CBT which has helped me a great deal.
I would really try not worry about leukaemia I really think it would have showed in your bloods.