gothicteddybear
02-23-2014, 03:06 PM
I really don't know where else to turn to I need yo know that im not the only one who has been at this point any advice would mean so much. So I started having panic attacks a couple of months ago 3 to be exact, they came out of the blue so it seems I had started a new job but I love my job its the career I have always wanted so I don't think it is that. The panic attacks started off quite mild palpitations heart pain dizziness light headed feeling likr I was having a stroke or a heart attack they would only last maybe ten minutes are so but now they are getting longer and so much worse. They can last an hour and I never fully recover. I have suffeted with severe depression in the last I was on citalopram for around a year and a half but came off the tablets a year or sp ago as I felt my life was great and I was dealing with things ok. I have always been a big drinker when I was depressed I was drinking a bottle of wine a night however that cut down to four nights then 3/2 nights a week. However I have noticed the panic attacks are so much after alcohol the day after, does anyone else find this? So the past week I thought I have been ok I have had time off work but drank alcohol a few nights in a row which I haven't done in a while I think to keep myself happy as I have been feeling down. However this weekend has been hell, yesterday I had the worse panic attack I have ever had. I genuinely was frightened to ever close my eyes for a second I couldn't stand up straight incoherent thoughts I was screaming in hysterics at my partner that I was going to die all the while feeling completely detached from myself dizzy sweating but freezing my muscles were tensed and sore sorry to say bjt my stomach was terriblr I was on the toilet every few seconds. In all it took me 3 hours to calm down but I never felt fully recovered I couldn't concentrate on anything I felt physically ill for the rest of the day I tried to be normal but still felt detached from everything later in the evening I suddenly threw up and decided to go to bed as I felt exhausted. It took me four hours to go to sleep and I slept on and off for 5 hours. Today I have not yet had a panic attack but all day felt the same detached feeling of yeaterday I cant seem to feel any happiness ive cried on and off felt dizzy I havent moved off the couch as I feel so lethargic and 'out of it' I feel ill and like I am genuinely loosing my mind. Whats happening to me am I loosing my mind? I have had blood tests and only foubd low folate deficiency so its not thyroid I am at my lowest I have ever been. Any advice would be great thanks