Hello

[calgarygirl]

Hi. About three years ago my parents split up (I was 22). My dad had an affair, left my family devestated, and moved onto his new life with no apology. Our relationship has been strained. I moved to another city for grad school, spent a ton of money and for the first time in my life had some debt. It scares me everyday. Grad school was a disaster, but I did manage to finish with a good GPA. I met my bf who I wanted to marry, who I relied too much on there. Eventually my anxiety got to bad I left school and decided to finish school at home (my thesis). For the past year I have been mostly at home, but I did manage to finish school. I had a really bad experience with effexor and cipralex, ended up in the ER and then in an outpatient program. There are days I feel like I am going to die and want to give up. There are nights when I wake up so exhausted from the pain. My bf has done his best to be supportive, but the ld has been hard on us. He told me he wanted to marry me, but a couple weeks ago told me I wasn't the one. Now my anxiety is back with a vengence, I also got a new job in a new city about an hour from him, but I just don't know what to do. He basically blames my anxiety for our problems. I can't sleep, I just want things to be good again. I have a great psychiatrist, so I am afraid to lose him if I go to another city.