Ashley Holley
02-20-2014, 05:23 PM
So, this is my first ever post. My name is Ash I'm 22 and from the UK and It's nice to meet you all!:)
I've always known I was different and always felt alienated from other people. When I was growing up, I was bullied every day as far as I can remember, being pushed and spat at when In school, and name calling etc this lasted for around 8-9 years, when I left school I thought I got over everything and life would be okay.. But I feel like I'm a totally different person now and have lost who I truly am. I don't know who Ashley is anymore sometimes. It's hard to put what I feel into words but I sometimes feel weird, awkward, constantly fiddling with items and always adjusting my clothes and sometimes I sweat for no reason only slightly though, It's almost a self-conscious feeling constantly when I'm outside the house like someone is looking at me, the feeling never seems to go. I've never seen anybody professionally about the way I feel, but It's starting to impact my way of life. I'm not as free-willed and confident as I used to be.. When I did leave school I went on to college and did so much different stuff which I'm proud of, but I feel a huge detachment of the person I was.. I work in health care and I just know It's an anxiety of some kind. I think It's time to look for answers..
Maybe seeing a GP would be on my list? /Rant over lol:)
I've always known I was different and always felt alienated from other people. When I was growing up, I was bullied every day as far as I can remember, being pushed and spat at when In school, and name calling etc this lasted for around 8-9 years, when I left school I thought I got over everything and life would be okay.. But I feel like I'm a totally different person now and have lost who I truly am. I don't know who Ashley is anymore sometimes. It's hard to put what I feel into words but I sometimes feel weird, awkward, constantly fiddling with items and always adjusting my clothes and sometimes I sweat for no reason only slightly though, It's almost a self-conscious feeling constantly when I'm outside the house like someone is looking at me, the feeling never seems to go. I've never seen anybody professionally about the way I feel, but It's starting to impact my way of life. I'm not as free-willed and confident as I used to be.. When I did leave school I went on to college and did so much different stuff which I'm proud of, but I feel a huge detachment of the person I was.. I work in health care and I just know It's an anxiety of some kind. I think It's time to look for answers..
Maybe seeing a GP would be on my list? /Rant over lol:)