Hello

[lostmyself22]

Hi there,

Not really sure where to start as I am new to anxiety. I think I have been suffering with anxiety a number of years without knowing...... (not even sure this is possible)

my realisation all started about 18 months ago when after starting a new relationship with my soul mate, things started to go desperately wrong.

I have a constant fear? panic? that I am going to lose him. and the more I seek for reassurance the worse I think it gets?? its a viscous circle :(

my anxiety presents itself in other aspects of my life too. I have 2 beautiful boys who are 3 and 6. my 6 year old has been diagnosed with Autistic spectrum disorder. I am constantly worried and panic about them and "normal things" children do.

I am at a loss and feel like I have lost myself. I was refered to a coucilor and saw him for a a while, until we just about covered everything bad that has happened to me in my past. he then discharged me? (me thinking I was mended)
this past week has been the worst. this morning being the turning point which made me realise this isn't getting any better. My sister asked me what dates I was free to go on a night out and to stay in a hotel (which I have done before). I went into panic mode!!!!! took 30 mins to eventually calm down and don't really know how I managed it. just the thought of being away from my boyfriend for the night caused a panic attack and left me feeling sick and stupid :( I NEED HELP!!

I have booked myself an appointment with the doctors today at 4.30 to see what they suggest.

any suggestions would be gratefully received

thanks in advance

[nelliemiller]

I understand this completely. I get more anxious when my boyfriend isn't home. I can't sleep without him in the same room and i just feel a general uneasiness when he's gone. I hope you find comfort here!

[lostmyself22]

wow! im not alone :)

thank u so much for your reply nelliemiller. how long have u felt like this? is there anything that helps how u feel?

Im so worried that all of this will push him away too :( I wish I could control it somehow, I know he will never say it, but its got to make him feel trapped.

[nelliemiller]

My anxiety began when i was in my early 20s. Its gotton worse in the past few years after the loss of a pregnancy. I've been really stressed out lately and my blood pressure is high which causes me to worry. Though reading through people's stories have helped me more then i thought! I can tell you i think taking vitamin d has helped a lot. Though, i know I'll never be cured i want to try and manage it without drugs. Just need lots of support which i hope we can both find here! Keep in touch.