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[krystalangelz]

Hi I am new to this forum. I have been suffering from health anxiety/panic attacks since I can remember. I remember having my first panic attacks when I was around 10 yrs old. I don't know what triggered them. Then, I don't remember having another one until I started college. I went to the er because I had palpitations. Had a complete blood test and ekg everything normal. They said it was anxiety related and told me to cut my soda intake which was a bottle or 2 every day. After that maybe once every year I had a health scare usually it was my heart or other pain in my stomach. I was convinced I had some type of cancer or heart condition. I had a fear of dying. When I was 25 my mom and 8 yr old sister were killed in a horrible car accident just blocks from their house. I was in my senior year of college and living on my own. I was a psychology major and had therapy for that because I felt I was in denial I couldnt really cry unless I was with my boyfriend. Everybody was surprised at how well I took it even myself. Having a history of anxiety I thought I was going to break down but I didn't. Forgot to mention that having a huge extended family, I have many relatives with mental conditions bipolar, clinical depression. So I was scared I was going to be the next one. However, it alleviated my fear of dying because I knew that they were going to be waiting in the other side. I was fine. Two years after they died I was married and pregnant. Life was great. When my daughter was born my anxiety returned with a vengeance! Now my fear was to leave my daughter like my mom left me when she died. Usually once a year I go to the er thinking I am dying of something cancer or having a heart attack. Now I am 30 and after having my daughter I gained 50lbs she is 4 now. Everytime I go for a check up my blood pressure is high but my doctor says it's my anxiety. He told me to buy a home blood pressure monitor but still when I am about to check it I get scared in anticipation and my heart pounds like crazy. He advised to lose weight (185 lbs) after I had a anxiety attack and when to the er because I thought I was having a stroke. My left side of my head and face was feeling numb and had a headache. When I got there I had a pannic attack right when they were taking my vitals and my blood pressure was 171/90. They did an ekg which was normal then 20 min later my pressure went down to 115/75 without any meds so they said it was just anxiety related. Sent me home with diazepam. It has been 3 weeks since then stopped drinking soda cold turkey which gave me headaches because of the caffeine withdrawal and lost 10 lbs. I am eating healthier and I had 2 panic attacks where I felt I was going to pass out. I am still afraid of being alone thinking that my daughter could be with me when something bad happens. My insurance kicks in on March 1 so I am waiting to get a complete check up and some theraphy because my anxiety is really affecting me in my daily life. Whenever I feel a pain I cant stopped myself from Googling the symptoms and of course its always some kind of disease. I am a complete hypochondriac. After reading some symptoms I dont even have I start noticing them hours later. I feel better after reading some of the threads here that I am not alone and that a lot of people go through the same thing and have gotten their lives back and I need to keep this under control because my daughter needs me in her life.

[victor817]

Sounds like you are having a rough time dealing with anxiety right. It sounds like you have panic disorder which is a little more severe than anxiety. I have that and it is a battle everyday. I have had chest xrays, ekg, blood test, urine test, ct scans on my head. All came back normal and I didn't understand what was wrong with me. I had my first therapy session today and found it could stem from my bad childhood. It has just gotten worse with more age and stress. Hang in there. Exercise, eat right, meditate, and breathe. Get better soon.

[nelliemiller]

I can relate to this post 100%. A lot of my anxiety started after i lost my first daughter when i was 7months pregnant. I now have a beautiful 1year old but have such a fear of losing her or dying myself and leaving her without a mom. It is taking over my life. I constantly obsess about my blood pressure. I am at a loss of what to do. Anyways, if you ever need anyone to relate to shoot me a message. I hope that you begin to feel better. Your not alone. ☺

[krystalangelz]

I can relate to this post 100%. A lot of my anxiety started after i lost my first daughter when i was 7months pregnant. I now have a beautiful 1year old but have such a fear of losing her or dying myself and leaving her without a mom. It is taking over my life. I constantly obsess about my blood pressure. I am at a loss of what to do. Anyways, if you ever need anyone to relate to shoot me a message. I hope that you begin to feel better. Your not alone. ☺

Thanks for your reply nelliemiller I feel we have things in common being mothers we not only have to worry about ourselves but about our child. I remember when she was born I didnt sleep for 2 days in a row watching her breathe in fear of SIDS sudden infant death syndrome. I need to get better for her because she needs me thats what my husband keeps telling me but its not like you can shut this stupid anxiety off.

[Enduronman]

Welcome Krystal, Victor, and Nellie!!...

We'll do our best to support whatever path you wish to take friends!!..

Enduronman...:)

[krystalangelz]

I can relate to this post 100%. A lot of my anxiety started after i lost my first daughter when i was 7months pregnant. I now have a beautiful 1year old but have such a fear of losing her or dying myself and leaving her without a mom. It is taking over my life. I constantly obsess about my blood pressure. I am at a loss of what to do. Anyways, if you ever need anyone to relate to shoot me a message. I hope that you begin to feel better. Your not alone. ☺


Sounds like you are having a rough time dealing with anxiety right. It sounds like you have panic disorder which is a little more severe than anxiety. I have that and it is a battle everyday. I have had chest xrays, ekg, blood test, urine test, ct scans on my head. All came back normal and I didn't understand what was wrong with me. I had my first therapy session today and found it could stem from my bad childhood. It has just gotten worse with more age and stress. Hang in there. Exercise, eat right, meditate, and breathe. Get better soon.

Victor817 how was your therapy session? I am waiting for my insurance to start to get my referral to see a therapist. I was a psyc major in college. Ironic huh? I guess I was trying to figure out myself.

[nelliemiller]

Oh yeah i do that too. Im so paranoid about things that are out of my hands. I'm trying to find ways to manage my anxiety. It's hard and I'll have to live with it the rest of my life. But it helps greatly to know others are right there with us and get what we're going thru.

[krystalangelz]

Yes reading some posts makes me feel better knowing that I am not the only one battling this. Like you said Nellie it is nice to have a support system. My husband has been sooooo supportive lately but he tells its in my head but he is not going through this I am. People that dont go through this dont really understand. I keep fearing that he is going to get fed up if I dont learn to manage it. It is great to have friends that are going thru this. If I may call you friend Nellie. Thanks

[victor817]

My therapy session was okay. It was the first one so all I did was talk about this. The therapist believes I've had anxiety since childhood. It could have something to do with an abusive step father. It put me on edge and I was always on alert. I didn't realize that could carry on for years. She gave me a few techniques to control the anxiety. The techniques are breathing, muscle relaxation, and imagery. What steps are you taking to deal with it?

[nelliemiller]

Yeah my boyfriend tells me it's in my head too. He thinks i just need to find a way to destress. I try to tell people this runs in my family and i will always have to deal with this. It's hard to understand unless you are going through it!

[farrah01]

Hi I am new to this forum. I have been suffering from health anxiety/panic attacks since I can remember. I remember having my first panic attacks when I was around 10 yrs old. I don't know what triggered them. Then, I don't remember having another one until I started college. I went to the er because I had palpitations. Had a complete blood test and ekg everything normal. They said it was anxiety related and told me to cut my soda intake which was a bottle or 2 every day. After that maybe once every year I had a health scare usually it was my heart or other pain in my stomach. I was convinced I had some type of cancer or heart condition. I had a fear of dying. When I was 25 my mom and 8 yr old sister were killed in a horrible car accident just blocks from their house. I was in my senior year of college and living on my own. I was a psychology major and had therapy for that because I felt I was in denial I couldnt really cry unless I was with my boyfriend. Everybody was surprised at how well I took it even myself. Having a history of anxiety I thought I was going to break down but I didn't. Forgot to mention that having a huge extended family, I have many relatives with mental conditions bipolar, clinical depression. So I was scared I was going to be the next one. However, it alleviated my fear of dying because I knew that they were going to be waiting in the other side. I was fine. Two years after they died I was married and pregnant. Life was great. When my daughter was born my anxiety returned with a vengeance! Now my fear was to leave my daughter like my mom left me when she died. Usually once a year I go to the er thinking I am dying of something cancer or having a heart attack. Now I am 30 and after having my daughter I gained 50lbs she is 4 now. Everytime I go for a check up my blood pressure is high but my doctor says it's my anxiety. He told me to buy a home blood pressure monitor but still when I am about to check it I get scared in anticipation and my heart pounds like crazy. He advised to lose weight (185 lbs) after I had a anxiety attack and when to the er because I thought I was having a stroke. My left side of my head and face was feeling numb and had a headache. When I got there I had a pannic attack right when they were taking my vitals and my blood pressure was 171/90. They did an ekg which was normal then 20 min later my pressure went down to 115/75 without any meds so they said it was just anxiety related. Sent me home with diazepam. It has been 3 weeks since then stopped drinking soda cold turkey which gave me headaches because of the caffeine withdrawal and lost 10 lbs. I am eating healthier and I had 2 panic attacks where I felt I was going to pass out. I am still afraid of being alone thinking that my daughter could be with me when something bad happens. My insurance kicks in on March 1 so I am waiting to get a complete check up and some theraphy because my anxiety is really affecting me in my daily life. Whenever I feel a pain I cant stopped myself from Googling the symptoms and of course its always some kind of disease. I am a complete hypochondriac. After reading some symptoms I dont even have I start noticing them hours later. I feel better after reading some of the threads here that I am not alone and that a lot of people go through the same thing and have gotten their lives back and I need to keep this under control because my daughter needs me in her life.

So many parts of your post sounded like I had written it myself! It's crazy how so many people, from so many walks of life can all be enduring the same problems.

[krystalangelz]

My therapy session was okay. It was the first one so all I did was talk about this. The therapist believes I've had anxiety since childhood. It could have something to do with an abusive step father. It put me on edge and I was always on alert. I didn't realize that could carry on for years. She gave me a few techniques to control the anxiety. The techniques are breathing, muscle relaxation, and imagery. What steps are you taking to deal with it?

I started to go for runs at the beach. I stopped drinking cola or coffee since the caffeine gave me rapid heartbeats. Someone suggested me this tea called Yogi tea for tension and relaxition. I take it at night it helps me fall asleep easier. Also bubble bath and last week I went to the chiropractor for the first time for an alignment and it helped lossen up my neck sore muscles. But I still feel I need to see a therapist because you can only vent too much to your loved ones before they get fed up.

[lostmyself22]

hi,
I can relate to this too. I am now 30 but lost my mum when I was 16, and lost a child while pregnant. I have 2 gorgeous boys and have a great fear that I will not be around to help and support them grow. and also over worry about their health too. im sure my doctors are sick of me, but I just cant help it :(

it helps knowing im not alone and there are people out there that understand me :)

[victor817]

I started to go for runs at the beach. I stopped drinking cola or coffee since the caffeine gave me rapid heartbeats. Someone suggested me this tea called Yogi tea for tension and relaxition. I take it at night it helps me fall asleep easier. Also bubble bath and last week I went to the chiropractor for the first time for an alignment and it helped lossen up my neck sore muscles. But I still feel I need to see a therapist because you can only vent too much to your loved ones before they get fed up.

I never drink caffeine or alcohol. I have noticed a change of mood when I do either. I also build most of my tension in my neck and suffer from back spasms. I know I need to relax more but I feel edgy most of the time. However, since I started exercising and eating better my heart rate is easier to control. I did also notice a drop in blood pressure. I was in the prehypertension stage but the doctors were telling me it's anxiety. I never want to believe I'm healthy and okay. I always worry about my health. I am trying to change my thoughts to I'm okay and I am healthy. Anxiety can really mess with your head if you let it. My therapist has told me I need to go to counseling once a week and it will drop after I feel better. I don't know if you have looked into this. But I have found free support groups in which people with anxiety can meet. I was thinking about doing this in addition to my weekly sessions. I want to tackle this disease head on. Are you taking medication at the moment?