Tim213123
02-16-2014, 03:18 AM
Basically I have anxiety over height in terms of a fear I didn't reach my genetic potential.
I just reliased that during my child/teen years that I had 'constitutional growth delay' which means my bone age was delayed in relationship to my birthday. At 18.5 my body was 16 years old for example.
I was extremely short before puberty and before my growth spurt which I went from below the 3rd percentile to the 45-50th percentile. So from over 97% of boys were taller then me to rougly 50% are taller and 50% are shorter then me.
This extreme shortness during my adolesconts gave me very low self estem and lacked any coinfidence and only hightened the social anxiety that I have.
I am very greatful I grew and my shortness was only a normal variation of growth.
As one could expect I am still self concious of my height even though I am happy the height I am as what I have been through.
But only recently is when the anxiety started to kick in. I researched about the effects of cows milk on height and a systematic reivew concluded that a 250ml of milk per day would = 0.4cm of free growth(you wouldn't of had otherwise) per year. And a study showed girls drinking 3+ glasses a day from ages 10-18 grew 1-2's more then girls drinking 0-1 glasses per day.
Im really mad and fustrated that my mum never pushed for me to drink milk daily from a young age. How was I supose to know as a child that milk has long term effects on adult height? She assumed that I could get the goodness from milk, from cheese and yoghurt which doesn't have any effect or only little with yoghurt but not for final adult height, because I most probaly said to her I didn't like the taste of milk and she never forced me to drink it.
Chocolate milk I drunk free willingly because it tasted good every now and then. But if I recall correctly I didn't make a habit of forcing myself to drink it daily. There was a period during my teens that I drunk chocolate milk daily for a while though. Prehaps because I had to think for myself that It 'might' help me with my short stature. I drunk 1 litre a day just before my 19th birthday which was probaly far to late to make new drastic difference since growth had declined.
My life could of been soooo much better if I was 5-7cm taller.
I am getting depressed over it and not doing the things I enjoy. I think of all the people that drunk milk daily and think how lucky they are. Why did I have to have a life where I was already self concious of my height only to be slapped in the face with it again.
Milk isn't the only problem. I think maybe I didn't get enough vitamins and minerals or sunshine and its really doing my head in. I really wish from a young age I knew what to eat and drink to fully reach my max height. I also had to take steroids at 21.5 for medical reason which probaly stopped any further growth even though I am 90% sure I wasn't growing any more then. You may think I am shallow or selfish or whatever to complain of achieving a normal height but that is not the problem remotely. I don't care if I was geneticaly programmed to be short its the fact that I didnt push my genes to their max which is the problem and I don't know how to get out of this mess.
Is it weird to have anxiety over something so specific? Am I making a big deal over nothing? If I saw a university councillor over this would they think im totally nuts?
I just reliased that during my child/teen years that I had 'constitutional growth delay' which means my bone age was delayed in relationship to my birthday. At 18.5 my body was 16 years old for example.
I was extremely short before puberty and before my growth spurt which I went from below the 3rd percentile to the 45-50th percentile. So from over 97% of boys were taller then me to rougly 50% are taller and 50% are shorter then me.
This extreme shortness during my adolesconts gave me very low self estem and lacked any coinfidence and only hightened the social anxiety that I have.
I am very greatful I grew and my shortness was only a normal variation of growth.
As one could expect I am still self concious of my height even though I am happy the height I am as what I have been through.
But only recently is when the anxiety started to kick in. I researched about the effects of cows milk on height and a systematic reivew concluded that a 250ml of milk per day would = 0.4cm of free growth(you wouldn't of had otherwise) per year. And a study showed girls drinking 3+ glasses a day from ages 10-18 grew 1-2's more then girls drinking 0-1 glasses per day.
Im really mad and fustrated that my mum never pushed for me to drink milk daily from a young age. How was I supose to know as a child that milk has long term effects on adult height? She assumed that I could get the goodness from milk, from cheese and yoghurt which doesn't have any effect or only little with yoghurt but not for final adult height, because I most probaly said to her I didn't like the taste of milk and she never forced me to drink it.
Chocolate milk I drunk free willingly because it tasted good every now and then. But if I recall correctly I didn't make a habit of forcing myself to drink it daily. There was a period during my teens that I drunk chocolate milk daily for a while though. Prehaps because I had to think for myself that It 'might' help me with my short stature. I drunk 1 litre a day just before my 19th birthday which was probaly far to late to make new drastic difference since growth had declined.
My life could of been soooo much better if I was 5-7cm taller.
I am getting depressed over it and not doing the things I enjoy. I think of all the people that drunk milk daily and think how lucky they are. Why did I have to have a life where I was already self concious of my height only to be slapped in the face with it again.
Milk isn't the only problem. I think maybe I didn't get enough vitamins and minerals or sunshine and its really doing my head in. I really wish from a young age I knew what to eat and drink to fully reach my max height. I also had to take steroids at 21.5 for medical reason which probaly stopped any further growth even though I am 90% sure I wasn't growing any more then. You may think I am shallow or selfish or whatever to complain of achieving a normal height but that is not the problem remotely. I don't care if I was geneticaly programmed to be short its the fact that I didnt push my genes to their max which is the problem and I don't know how to get out of this mess.
Is it weird to have anxiety over something so specific? Am I making a big deal over nothing? If I saw a university councillor over this would they think im totally nuts?