Nervous newbie

[Addidon]

Hello! I'll try to make a long story short. I just graduated early from high school in December and since that day I haven't left my house. When I was 7 or 8 I started developing OCD. My anxiety started when I was 11-12, I couldn't explain it well so I was severely misdiagnosed with a blood pressure problem. Only within the past year have I realized what my problems are and in my mind I feel it's a bit late to fix them. My fears are completely irrational, always have been, and they make is so much worse to even look outside. I want to go outside and live my life. I've gotten to the point where I'm begging to whatever/whoever will help me. When I say how I feel it sounds menial and stupid to me and I feel like no one will believe me because of it. But it's so awful. I just want to go to college, have friends, be a normal teenager. The worst of all, at the moment, the actual graduation is in May and I want to be there and get my diploma with everyone else to show how much I've accomplished, but I just sit here afraid constantly.
Thanks for taking time to read this, it means a lot. If you have any suggestions or comments I'd love to hear them.

[jjh333]

welcome to the forum! you will definitely find people full of support and advice who have had the same problems. you've made the first step of reaching out... have you talked to a doctor at all? or even your parents for initial advice?

[Enduronman]

Welcome newbie!!!! YAY!!! :)

Enduronman...