manz82
02-13-2014, 09:33 AM
So today I was pottering around the house and doing the chores when I got a phone call from my sister and she was crying hysterically. I couldn't understand what she was saying because she was crying so much and all I heard were the words, 'D died, dead, dead.'
The first thought that came to my head was my Dad. He's not in the best of health but he's only 58! And so I started shouting down the phone, "Is it Dad!? What's happened to Dad?!"
She took a breath and said, "No, my dog's just died.'
Well, it was already too late - my legs were shaking and almost gave way, my head was light, heart racing, I was shaking like a leaf.
I really seriously thought my Dad had died and right there and then I felt my whole world tip on its axis. I am extremely close to my mum and dad and can't begin to imagine the day when I have to say goodbye to either one of them. When I thought today was the day I quite literally nearly collapsed with fear..
Now, a couple of questions -
Is it a normal reaction to have such intense feelings when hearing something so bad (even though it turned out to be a dog, thank God)
And if I reacted like that today, how in the world will I cope when the real thing happens?
I'm scared I won't cope and it will kill me.
Also, doesn't anxiety make us very selfish? Always thinking of how we feel and what we can cope with! There are other people on this planet, it's not always about us!
The first thought that came to my head was my Dad. He's not in the best of health but he's only 58! And so I started shouting down the phone, "Is it Dad!? What's happened to Dad?!"
She took a breath and said, "No, my dog's just died.'
Well, it was already too late - my legs were shaking and almost gave way, my head was light, heart racing, I was shaking like a leaf.
I really seriously thought my Dad had died and right there and then I felt my whole world tip on its axis. I am extremely close to my mum and dad and can't begin to imagine the day when I have to say goodbye to either one of them. When I thought today was the day I quite literally nearly collapsed with fear..
Now, a couple of questions -
Is it a normal reaction to have such intense feelings when hearing something so bad (even though it turned out to be a dog, thank God)
And if I reacted like that today, how in the world will I cope when the real thing happens?
I'm scared I won't cope and it will kill me.
Also, doesn't anxiety make us very selfish? Always thinking of how we feel and what we can cope with! There are other people on this planet, it's not always about us!