Support group after shock

[Scdg17]

I went to a suicide survivor support group last night for the first time. I'm not sure if it helped or hurt. I cried through the whole thing, even during other people's stories that I couldn't even relate to. I feel it's good to "let it out" but honestly I've never held anything back. I've been crying and grieving for months. I feel like this group stirred me up a bit to where it feels fresh again. I don't even know what I really think anymore. I'm overly cautious and suspicious of all my emotions and decisions. Like I don't know right from wrong anymore.

[mr.blanks1981]

what do you mean by that last line?

[Scdg17]

I mean that it's difficult to make even the simplest of decisions because when I think something will make me feel better, it more often makes me feel worse.