basst1
02-05-2014, 05:27 PM
Hello. Can you please share this anonymously
I am doing better with my anxiety. I have learned to control the physical symptoms and not be afraid of them. But my only issue now is the thoughts. I always fear something bad is going to happen. I always feel like a premonition type feeling that something bad will happen. It wakes me up at night and I feel it all throughout my body and I get afraid of how it makes me feel. It makes me feel so terrorized and fearful. Then the racing thoughts come. Also I find myself connecting back with the world and getting excited about things I used to be excited about but when I am relaxing or find myself getting excited it's like my mind 2nd guesses it and those thoughts come in like I shouldn't be this way...the anxious state I am in safer and better. Then I'll have thoughts amd fearful feeling like I need to stay in this worry state because the world is boring n unsafe and scary and then became of those thoughts I start getting depressed and scared of life. I also feel as if the thoughts are just lingering and won't let up. I am almost back up to surface but it's like my mind want to keep me where I am at in the worrying and suffering cycle. I feel like maybe I was so traumatized by the first panic attack that I need to deal with that because it left a lasting effect on me. Maybe my mind Is so adjusted to the anxious state that the transition to the normal state is scary for it? I feel as if I am getting me back, my old brain back and I feel as if my anxious brain is fighting tooth and nail to stay. I am also still hyper aware of my consciousness and existence being inside my body and having existential thoughts. But this has lessened quite a bit. It's mainly the fight against my own mind. Any suggestions? Thank you
I am doing better with my anxiety. I have learned to control the physical symptoms and not be afraid of them. But my only issue now is the thoughts. I always fear something bad is going to happen. I always feel like a premonition type feeling that something bad will happen. It wakes me up at night and I feel it all throughout my body and I get afraid of how it makes me feel. It makes me feel so terrorized and fearful. Then the racing thoughts come. Also I find myself connecting back with the world and getting excited about things I used to be excited about but when I am relaxing or find myself getting excited it's like my mind 2nd guesses it and those thoughts come in like I shouldn't be this way...the anxious state I am in safer and better. Then I'll have thoughts amd fearful feeling like I need to stay in this worry state because the world is boring n unsafe and scary and then became of those thoughts I start getting depressed and scared of life. I also feel as if the thoughts are just lingering and won't let up. I am almost back up to surface but it's like my mind want to keep me where I am at in the worrying and suffering cycle. I feel like maybe I was so traumatized by the first panic attack that I need to deal with that because it left a lasting effect on me. Maybe my mind Is so adjusted to the anxious state that the transition to the normal state is scary for it? I feel as if I am getting me back, my old brain back and I feel as if my anxious brain is fighting tooth and nail to stay. I am also still hyper aware of my consciousness and existence being inside my body and having existential thoughts. But this has lessened quite a bit. It's mainly the fight against my own mind. Any suggestions? Thank you