kcladyz
02-03-2014, 02:39 PM
I always had severe "work related" anxiety where I was paranoid that I would fail or get fired and would "push" my performance and excelling was never good enough for I would always obsessively worry about the "what if's". I would completely excel in my annual reviews yet I still felt if i slack just a tad I could get fired. If I had a bad month I would flip out and worry. I mean I would over hear coworkers talking about me because of my odd behavior. Then my anxiety finally stretched out of my work place and into my personal life then for some reason I would have anxiety attacks on dates ( embarrassing). My boyfriend broke up with me after 3 weeks of dating and I think its because my anxiety problem made him uncomfortable and he just made up an excuse to end it just to be nice. To be honest I am nervous on dating again for I do not want to have another embarrassing anxiety attack. I have no clue why this started all of the sudden. never had dating anxiety before...
I been on medicine since Jan 3 and feel better. I had a bad reaction to Celexa and Mirtzipine made me ill ( can only tolerate 1/4 tablet). Now I am on Amitriptyline and Buspar and I notice my panics are less severe and I feel more positive. I also notice I do not worry obsessively on negative things and my mind does not "race" all night. If I have a bad day I can shrug it off instead of toiling over it for days on end. I tend to have night panic attacks where I will wake up and just fly out of bed and pace my apartment for no logical reason. I no longer do that. I sometimes wake up with some sort of distressful thought but I am able to just roll over and go back to sleep instead of freaking out. Even better I go to bed with a peaceful mind. I still feel anxious at my job and worry about failing ( especially since I am going thru a big responsibility change) and I still get treated with disrespect by coworkers. Some make it obvious that they look down on me but it no longer "controls" me. I accept the fact I am a little weird but I am a good person and I do the best I can. I am still scared to go out on a date but I realize I can not over come my anxiety unless I face it so hopefully I will have the courage to go out again soon and test myself lol
I been on medicine since Jan 3 and feel better. I had a bad reaction to Celexa and Mirtzipine made me ill ( can only tolerate 1/4 tablet). Now I am on Amitriptyline and Buspar and I notice my panics are less severe and I feel more positive. I also notice I do not worry obsessively on negative things and my mind does not "race" all night. If I have a bad day I can shrug it off instead of toiling over it for days on end. I tend to have night panic attacks where I will wake up and just fly out of bed and pace my apartment for no logical reason. I no longer do that. I sometimes wake up with some sort of distressful thought but I am able to just roll over and go back to sleep instead of freaking out. Even better I go to bed with a peaceful mind. I still feel anxious at my job and worry about failing ( especially since I am going thru a big responsibility change) and I still get treated with disrespect by coworkers. Some make it obvious that they look down on me but it no longer "controls" me. I accept the fact I am a little weird but I am a good person and I do the best I can. I am still scared to go out on a date but I realize I can not over come my anxiety unless I face it so hopefully I will have the courage to go out again soon and test myself lol