mint
01-26-2014, 10:13 PM
Hi, I've decided to join this after much thinking. Anxiety likes to take over my life and as much as I think I am a strong person, I can't do it by myself anymore.
I have struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember. Looking back, even as a kid. I was the kid who was always worried about me or others getting hurt. I think that part of it is genetic - my Mom has had panic attacks... And some of it is because I've gone through things in life out of the norm. I don't want to dwell on those memories because they are too private and hurt me too much.
There are times when it feels really bad and times when I feel like it's actually not there. I especially feel it around new people. I always care what others think, so in a way I feel trapped, unable to be my true self. It has caused me to feel really sad and have little self-confidence. On my lowest days (which doesn't happen too often) I have self-harmed. I overall have a good head on my shoulders and try to think ahead into my future.
It has been affecting my relationship with my best friend (& soon-to-be husband). It doesn't help that we have two completely different personalities and perspectives on life, yet at the same time having that does help. I have issues with trust because of what has happened in the past with other people and that makes me anxious and always expecting the worse. It's always better once I get to know someone and realize they're not here to hurt me or take away someone I care about.
I am able to hide my anxiety from practically everyone but my best friend.
I was able to open up to a therapist for a short amount of time. She listened to me and gave me advice. Overall, it hasn't helped me but I'm glad she was there for me.
My doctor got me to try anti-depressants for a short time. It gave me bad side effects, including flat effect, which gave me zero emotions. I didn't like it and stopped immediately.
I believe some foods can make anxiety worse.
I am looking for friends who feel the same. I really do love life and try my best to see the good in everything.
Here goes this post...! :D
<3
I have struggled with anxiety for as long as I can remember. Looking back, even as a kid. I was the kid who was always worried about me or others getting hurt. I think that part of it is genetic - my Mom has had panic attacks... And some of it is because I've gone through things in life out of the norm. I don't want to dwell on those memories because they are too private and hurt me too much.
There are times when it feels really bad and times when I feel like it's actually not there. I especially feel it around new people. I always care what others think, so in a way I feel trapped, unable to be my true self. It has caused me to feel really sad and have little self-confidence. On my lowest days (which doesn't happen too often) I have self-harmed. I overall have a good head on my shoulders and try to think ahead into my future.
It has been affecting my relationship with my best friend (& soon-to-be husband). It doesn't help that we have two completely different personalities and perspectives on life, yet at the same time having that does help. I have issues with trust because of what has happened in the past with other people and that makes me anxious and always expecting the worse. It's always better once I get to know someone and realize they're not here to hurt me or take away someone I care about.
I am able to hide my anxiety from practically everyone but my best friend.
I was able to open up to a therapist for a short amount of time. She listened to me and gave me advice. Overall, it hasn't helped me but I'm glad she was there for me.
My doctor got me to try anti-depressants for a short time. It gave me bad side effects, including flat effect, which gave me zero emotions. I didn't like it and stopped immediately.
I believe some foods can make anxiety worse.
I am looking for friends who feel the same. I really do love life and try my best to see the good in everything.
Here goes this post...! :D
<3