QueenElsa
01-26-2014, 01:48 AM
Hello!
I'm kind of nervous about posting since my anxiety and depression problems are something that I rarely open up about. I figure that maybe I can at least find some support here with getting through.
A little about myself and my anxiety/depression (I'll try to give the summarized version, I'm so sorry if this is too long)
I've experienced anxiety since I was 11 years old. I can remember being depressed since I was 13. They're issues I both struggled with frequently. My doctors say that I have major depressive disorder, panic disorder, and mild agoraphobia. I saw my first therapist at 12 and hated the experience. I was 12, didn't want to admit I had a problem, and told my mother that "I'd deal with it on my own".
I hid much of my depression and anxiety thought my teen years. I never wanted to admit to being depressed. There signs were all there though. I just thought I was a sad person. I was so incredibly wrong. My anxiety became a serious problem when I set off for college. Being in a new environment with no friends caused me to never leave my dorm room and completely isolate myself aside from going to classes. It got to the point where walking to classes caused panic attacks and I could barely sit thought a class without having to leave. Needless to say, my grades went down the drain. I finally admitted to myself I had a problem when I became suicidal and went to my campus' counseling center and they had me admitted to the hospital.
Untreated mental illness? Yeah, not a good thing.
The hospital was really an eye-opening experience. Never in my life have I been able to relate to so many people. For the first time I didn't feel alone about my problem. I met people who felt the same way as me. It was incredible. And for the first time in my life, I was able to admit to myself that I had a problem and I needed help.
And so leads up to now. I'm 21 years old and am only two semesters away from graduating. I've retaken the classes I've failed and brought my grades up considerably (3.3 gpa now, working to graduate with a 3.5 or better, fingers crossed!). My panic disorder, anxiety, and depression has been really hard to cope with though. I've been on multiple medications, Zoloft, Lexapro, Klonopin, Viibryd, each with their own issues. :( I'm having a hard time finding medicine that works for me.
I hope that I'll be able to find some sources that'll help me with my anxiety/depression and meet people who can help me out a bit as well.
p.s. I love Frozen and Elsa. Hence the username. :) The character has some serious anxiety issues I connected with.
I'm kind of nervous about posting since my anxiety and depression problems are something that I rarely open up about. I figure that maybe I can at least find some support here with getting through.
A little about myself and my anxiety/depression (I'll try to give the summarized version, I'm so sorry if this is too long)
I've experienced anxiety since I was 11 years old. I can remember being depressed since I was 13. They're issues I both struggled with frequently. My doctors say that I have major depressive disorder, panic disorder, and mild agoraphobia. I saw my first therapist at 12 and hated the experience. I was 12, didn't want to admit I had a problem, and told my mother that "I'd deal with it on my own".
I hid much of my depression and anxiety thought my teen years. I never wanted to admit to being depressed. There signs were all there though. I just thought I was a sad person. I was so incredibly wrong. My anxiety became a serious problem when I set off for college. Being in a new environment with no friends caused me to never leave my dorm room and completely isolate myself aside from going to classes. It got to the point where walking to classes caused panic attacks and I could barely sit thought a class without having to leave. Needless to say, my grades went down the drain. I finally admitted to myself I had a problem when I became suicidal and went to my campus' counseling center and they had me admitted to the hospital.
Untreated mental illness? Yeah, not a good thing.
The hospital was really an eye-opening experience. Never in my life have I been able to relate to so many people. For the first time I didn't feel alone about my problem. I met people who felt the same way as me. It was incredible. And for the first time in my life, I was able to admit to myself that I had a problem and I needed help.
And so leads up to now. I'm 21 years old and am only two semesters away from graduating. I've retaken the classes I've failed and brought my grades up considerably (3.3 gpa now, working to graduate with a 3.5 or better, fingers crossed!). My panic disorder, anxiety, and depression has been really hard to cope with though. I've been on multiple medications, Zoloft, Lexapro, Klonopin, Viibryd, each with their own issues. :( I'm having a hard time finding medicine that works for me.
I hope that I'll be able to find some sources that'll help me with my anxiety/depression and meet people who can help me out a bit as well.
p.s. I love Frozen and Elsa. Hence the username. :) The character has some serious anxiety issues I connected with.