I'm totally new to this..

[ashly1221]

I have anxiety, I have since I was about 18. I went to therapy for it and it helped a lot. Events in the last 6 months have caused it to start back up again in full swing like it never got better in the first place. I go to therapy and talk to my fiancé about how I feel, but it's hard to explain it to someone who has never had anxiety and when I can barely explain it myself. I worry a lot. A lot more than I should. I feel somedays I am going to drive myself crazy, this is a fear of mine as my grandma kinda lost it when she got older... I think I am just working myself up. My therapist says I'm fine, that I just need to work through this and do some soul searching and learn to love myself. It's just hard, so I came here. Not sure what else to say. I could write a novel on here I bet...

[anxietycat]

hi ashly- welcome. i just joined yesterday and this forum helps.

[anxietycat]

are you on any medications? i worry too- every single day. i'm always anxious and can easily work myself up over nothing.

[John_Mark]

Hello!

Most of us are totally new to this. I am too! Good luck.

[ste32]

Hi Ashly, I'm Steve. I joined this forum an hour or so ago.

Can I ask what recent events brought your anxiety back? I have recently lost my Dad he was only 64, quite a shock really. Anyway anxiety back with vengeance and happening in different places to before, after feeling relatively normal for a year it's really disappointing..

[fisher]

Hiya everyone,i suffer anxiety and mine went and its back again,u dont realise how many people suffer with anxiety:(

[ashly1221]

I don't take any medication. I did when I had problems with anxiety and depression when I was about 18/19 years old. I used to take Celexa daily and Clonazepam as needed for panic attacks. Anxiety went away for years after that and now it's back in full force. I go to therapy again and just kinda try to work through it naturally.

[ashly1221]

Sorry to hear about your dad Steve. It helps to talk about it, it helped me when I lost my dad. He was 43. Shortly after that is when I initially got anxiety but I got treatment for that right away and was fine and now, well, it's back. ... I got laid off my long time job at the end of August. Good paying job, Monday to Friday sort of thing. I loved it but the company went tits up so that sucked. Then about a week after I got laid off I broke my knee from wiping out really hard wakeboarding. So then I was jobless and couldn't really do much, not even walk my dog. I got one surgery to do then my knee will be back to normal (I hope) I had months of physio and massage therapy on it to see if we could fix it without surgery but it didn't help much. I did manage to start walking again without my forest gump knee brace and crutches. I used to run when I was upset or stressed and I've been told straight up by many doctors that I can't run no more and I probably won't be able to for a while. Then we moved (my boyfriend and I) further into the country just outside a small town which doesn't have anything for work, at all. So I applied for college, nows as good of time as any to do it right? That's what I thought anyways. I got accepted, school got cancelled, so I applied again for the next semester and that course got full before my application was finished being processed so that's kinda where everything went to shit somewhere in all of that.... Somewhere between the breaking of my knee and the moving is when it all went south. I started going back to therapy, I see a cognitive behavioral therapist, and she is great. I went in on Monday last week and found out that I'm starting to show signs of depression again so I really want to get this all under control before it gets to a point where I need to take medication. I basically worry too much about myself worrying if that makes sense. I really should have no reason to be stressed if I think about it because I don't work, I hang out with my dog all day til my man gets home then we hang out and go out. Money isn't really much of an issue in our home so I really don't need to work, I'm going to be starting school soon and get a career started for myself. From the outside looking in it looks great ya know? It's just how I feel, always tense like my chest is heavy all the time and I just don't feel like myself anymore and I can't figure out how to get back to the old me. It's really frustrating.

[ashly1221]

Here's some good news. I got into college! I start on Monday. If you read the post above this one you will know why this is so awesome. They called me last Friday and told me a student dropped out so a seat opened up for the Feb 3 start date! I was running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to get all my ducks in a row. Got my tuition paid for, all I got left is my books and parking at the school. Just waiting to hear back from the bank (should be today) to see if my student line of credit went through, and if it doesn't, well the books are only $800 so my man will help pay for it til the line of credit comes through so there is literally nothing to worry about with that, which is so awesome and a huge relief. I think this is kinda what I really needed right now, to move forward and get out of the house too. Feeling pretty positive, pretty excited and pretty nervous (never been to college before) but I'm sure that's all just the way it is supposed to be. Surprisingly, I haven't had a lot of anxiety the last few days, I've been too busy sorting everything out for school to have time to be stuck in my own head. It's nice. I'm feeling good. Just thought I would share because I feel like I am going to burst with excitement. I feel like an 8 year old girl at her own birthday party right now :)

[ste32]

That's awesome news Ashley! Best of luck to you!

[nde]

Good evening to all,

I am new here. I suffer for two years from anxiety I have weird sensations in my head and neck sometimes leg and arm it really sucks my energy. Does any one have those weird sensations?
Thanks

[ashly1221]

That's awesome news Ashley! Best of luck to you!

Thanks Steve!!

[ashly1221]

Good evening to all,

I am new here. I suffer for two years from anxiety I have weird sensations in my head and neck sometimes leg and arm it really sucks my energy. Does any one have those weird sensations?
Thanks

Anxiety can cause all kinds of weird feelings in the body. I'm no doctor but my guess would be just a stressed body, when you're tired so are your muscles and your nerves. I've had my fingertips tingle before, and have had weird what I call 'twinges' of pain throughout different parts of my body, usually when I am tired or having an anxiety episode. I would like to think it was just my body telling me to relax or something. Like when you're about to fall asleep in bed and a limb or finger or toe kinda jolts, I think it's kind of the same thing, just a tired body and we all know anxiety can be VERY exhausting. Maybe try getting a massage or something? My sister is a massage therapist and is always telling me how tight my neck and shoulders are and she tells me its from anxiety. That's where I get most of my tension and that causes a lot of pain and definitely affects the nerves! So that might help or be something to look into :) plus, it's super relaxing and you will feel like a million dollars after! Always get at least a 60 minute massage if you really want to get the fuller benefit of it :) And about the feelings in your arm, I have had my arms (not both at the same time, but different occasions) go numb and the pins and needles feeling, and it was just knots in my neck and shoulder muscles pinching my nerves... massage fixed that in less than an hour. Best of luck :)

[nde]

Thank u so much! I will definitely schedule a massage.

[TaliaJo]

Welcome from one newbie to another.

[ashly1221]

Thank u so much! I will definitely schedule a massage.

Awesome! Let me know how it goes. If you can afford to go more often than not, then do it! You'd be amazed at what regular massages can do for your body. If you can't go lots, do stretches throughout the day! People with anxiety tend to slouch and let their shoulders fall forward and that causes all the muscles to hyperextend in the back and the shoulders and makes the muscles in your neck and chest/pecks get shorter - in turn causing pains in the chest (it's just the muscles being too tight) and headaches! My sister tells me that you're supposed to actually try to keep your shoulders back like you're pushing your chest out kinda like when girls push their boobs out lol but that's proper posture and can be a stretch all on it's own for some people!

[ashly1221]

Welcome from one newbie to another.

Thanks! You too :)