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anxietycat
01-25-2014, 11:29 AM
Hey Friends-

I think I've hit rock bottom. I am going on 3 weeks of not sleeping well/anxiety/depression that just came out of nowhere after a culmination of stress from work, anxiety, and GAD. I feel like I used to be somewhat normal/could cope with it well and then all the sudden one night I stayed up all night and it's been downhill from there.

I got Ambien and it's not working, in fact, I think it's making things worse. I generally feel more anxious/depressed the next day after taking it and I don't sleep well on it. Maybe 4 broken hours max. I have negative depressing thoughts all day and it's like a roller coaster of emotions.

I've also lost about 10 lbs as I have no appetite. I dread going to work.

I also got lunesta but I am absolutely terrified it won't work. I was this close to taking it last night and I chickened out and took an Ambien and of course didn't sleep well. Now I'm upset that it's ruined my weekend and that I have to go back to work on Monday. I feel like this is a never ending cycle.

I cried this morning for an hour and tried to go for a walk to help my mood. I feel like it's never going to get better. I also feel like I need to go to some sort of rehab spa or something to get myself together. I just don't know what to do. I feel like I should take an ativan, but I don't want to have to cope with medications forever. I feel so crazy.

Thanks for listening.