kateb
01-24-2014, 03:32 PM
Hello,
I'm new here so I just wanted to introduce myself.
I've previously had issues with anxiety, starting with panic attacks when I was a teenager, and compulsive lip-biting/movements when I'm under a lot of stress.
I was alright for a few years, having the occasional panic attack if placed in a difficult situation or after a build up of stress, but generally feeling ok. Then I partially completed a teaching course a couple of years ago, and found it too much - I went back to compulsive picking, panic attacks, and became depressed to the point of wishing I could just have an accident and be in hospital instead of going into school.
After removing myself from that situation, I found things gradually improved. It has taken a long time, but I finally got to a point where I felt healthy and happy again in a job totally unrelated to teaching, with very little anxious symptoms.
Then I found out I was being made redundant. I'm really struggling now - can't stop biting my lip again, every muscle in my body feels constantly tense - I'm sleeping very lightly - having not much to do at work any more doesn't help with that. I've become really distant from my boyfriend, even though he only proposed a few weeks ago (oddly enough, on exactly the same day I found out about my job). I started spending more time in the gym and eating better in January, because I was feeling worried about my health and weight, and running gives me something to do to express my excess nerves and energy - but although I tend to feel good immediately afterwards, leave it a few hours and I feel frozen with nerves again, and unable to settle to do anything at home. Sex hasn't happened since I found out, and every time the subject is broached I feel awful, my heart just starts pounding and I tense up - for some reason a lot of anxiety has been displaced onto this topic, which has never happened to me before so it is quite frustrating and worrying for me.
I'm starting to feel really low - I've applied for a couple of other jobs but haven't heard anything back yet. I'm worried about money, about losing the connection to my boyfriend and just really concerned about how tense I feel right now - just like I used to when I was teaching. I'm struggling not to be teary and defeatist.
Although I totally realise that many other people have much worse anxiety than me and greater problems, I just wanted to come to a place where I felt people would understand, and maybe be able to give me some tips on maintaining my relationship and optimism in such a difficult time.
I hope to get to know some of the people on here better and that we can help each other out a bit.
Kate x
I'm new here so I just wanted to introduce myself.
I've previously had issues with anxiety, starting with panic attacks when I was a teenager, and compulsive lip-biting/movements when I'm under a lot of stress.
I was alright for a few years, having the occasional panic attack if placed in a difficult situation or after a build up of stress, but generally feeling ok. Then I partially completed a teaching course a couple of years ago, and found it too much - I went back to compulsive picking, panic attacks, and became depressed to the point of wishing I could just have an accident and be in hospital instead of going into school.
After removing myself from that situation, I found things gradually improved. It has taken a long time, but I finally got to a point where I felt healthy and happy again in a job totally unrelated to teaching, with very little anxious symptoms.
Then I found out I was being made redundant. I'm really struggling now - can't stop biting my lip again, every muscle in my body feels constantly tense - I'm sleeping very lightly - having not much to do at work any more doesn't help with that. I've become really distant from my boyfriend, even though he only proposed a few weeks ago (oddly enough, on exactly the same day I found out about my job). I started spending more time in the gym and eating better in January, because I was feeling worried about my health and weight, and running gives me something to do to express my excess nerves and energy - but although I tend to feel good immediately afterwards, leave it a few hours and I feel frozen with nerves again, and unable to settle to do anything at home. Sex hasn't happened since I found out, and every time the subject is broached I feel awful, my heart just starts pounding and I tense up - for some reason a lot of anxiety has been displaced onto this topic, which has never happened to me before so it is quite frustrating and worrying for me.
I'm starting to feel really low - I've applied for a couple of other jobs but haven't heard anything back yet. I'm worried about money, about losing the connection to my boyfriend and just really concerned about how tense I feel right now - just like I used to when I was teaching. I'm struggling not to be teary and defeatist.
Although I totally realise that many other people have much worse anxiety than me and greater problems, I just wanted to come to a place where I felt people would understand, and maybe be able to give me some tips on maintaining my relationship and optimism in such a difficult time.
I hope to get to know some of the people on here better and that we can help each other out a bit.
Kate x