amielou
01-24-2014, 10:36 AM
I am starting to get quite scared that this anxiety is ruining my life. It's on my mind all the time, it's not getting better and it never leaves me. I feel on edge constantly, and feel like I'm just getting every day out of the way but I'm not sure what for. I am wasting my life worrying about my friends, that they don't like me, that they don't want me around and that they want it to just be them and feel forced to invite me out when they don't really want to. I am OBSESSED with the idea of them doing things without me, that I'm left out and that secretly people hate me. I've really lost it today I feel so spaced out and out of touch with reality, I feel so paranoid and focus solely on things that I think are bad. I'm not looking at any of the good things that friends do for me or say. All I can think of is the bad, which my boyfriend tells me isn't bad it's just what I perceive as bad. I'm constantly looking for hidden meanings, trying to read body language and making huge situations out of something normal and every day. How is this going to get better?!