Hello all!

[jason123]

My name Is Jason i'm 19, i'm not sure where to start so i'll just go for it. I'm going to a Psychiatrist in a few weeks because I feel like i'm losing my mind,everything feels like a dream and my thoughts are so disorganized and foggy. I used to smoke a lot of weed but ever since this started happening I stopped my biggest fear in life is schizophrenia even if someone says that word I get very scared and go in to a very scary place mentally. I hear voices in my head but not audible voices it's more like an intrusive thought that I can't get out and it's just a weird voice saying my name. I also have this fear that what if people aren't real this feeling comes from the fact that I feel like i'm in a dream all the time. Last year was not a very good one ever since I've looked up symptoms of schizophrenia and I saw that this dream like state is a symptom I've been scared ever since. The funny thing is when I forgot about schizophrenia and started worrying about heart failure all of the (schizo) symptoms left and I felt heart failure symptoms and when I started worrying about stroke symptoms the heart failure symptoms went away and now that i'm back to (schizo) I no longer worry about strokes. What is wrong with me does anyone else have similar symptoms as me or am I alone in this world because that's what it's starting to feel like. Please someone :((

[em1]

Hello Jason :) I can understand how your feeling
This sounds to me like intrusive thoughs which are to do with anxitey,I've had them in the last 9 months I know how scary they are but please relax as your not going mad or crazy as a person who is does not think they are

[jason123]

The life i'm living is not a very good one, I fear everything and paranoid of everything for the last 2 days I've been stuck in this anxiety mood where the second I wake up to the second I go to sleep i'm having anxiety attacks. I feel like crying and then i'm angry so basically I just lye in bed all day, my appetite is gone as well as my drive in life I feel like my life is over. My thoughts are killing me.


P.s Thank you for your reply

[jason123]

Thank you,

The thing is I do have unusual thoughts like what if the government is trying to kill me but it's just a thought I have never thought full hearted that they're trying to kill me. So when that thought comes I start believing that I'm schizophrenic and pretty much for the rest of the week I have anxiety attacks if not longer. What I'm trying to say is that the only delusion I have is when I think I have an illness whether it be physical or mental and when this happens I obsess over it for awhile until finally it goes away. It's not really that I think I have an illness but rather it's what if I have the illness,if that makes any sense.

[jjh333]

welcome to the forum :)

It looks like you've already been given some good schizophrenia versus ocd/anxiety advice. I think you are going in the right direction going to talk to someone about your feelings, if you become concerned about what to say, you could print off what you've said in this thread.