AliasEQ
01-20-2014, 12:47 PM
Hey,
Okey, I'll try to explain this as short as possible. I'm a 18 year old guy who basically "tripped" on marijuana. Here's the story(excuse my English):
I see myself as a “calm” person. I don’t do “bad” things. For example, I don’t smoke marijuana or drink alcohol because I don’t feel like it’s my thing. I’m kind of a hardcore gamer that sits home all day and goes to the gym. BUT, I like to try out different stuff. I want to see what it’s all about. So, I have this cousin who basically started doing all kind of drugs, which destroyed his life. He went to rehab and now the only thing he smokes is marijuana. I and he are very close to each other, it’s like he’s my brother. He always kept telling me to try smoking some pot, because apparently it was the best feeling ever. I tried it out twice, but I didn’t take too much and I didn’t feel a thing. So, he told me to do more and more until I felt it. And honestly, I wanted to feel this feeling that everyone is enjoying. One day, I went to sleep over at his and his gfs apartment. We had been playing football/soccer all day and were so tired. He told me that some pot would be perfect at that moment and that it would help me relax. So he rolled one up and we started smoking…
This time, I took a lot. I smoked as much as he did. After every time I pass it, he asks me if I feel anything. And every time I answer “no”. Until’ we smoked it all up. I started laughing uncontrollably and I really liked that feeling. But then suddenly, when I stood up, it was like I got punched. It felt like I almost fainted. And the panic started. Worst night of my life. Everything went “dark” and my heart started beating hard and fast. It felt like I didn’t have any control of myself. I started screaming and asking when it’s gonna end. He said “calm down-you’re having a psychosis”. And yup, when he said that I just went to sleep, very calm. Of course not, it only made it worse. I couldn’t breathe well and I had this derealization feeling. I started walking around in the apartment because I was so scared. I tried to sit down and watch TV, but I couldn’t because I could hear my heart beat and I was shaking so much. So, in the middle of the night, we went out for a walk. I started hallucinating from the edge of my eye. I thought I was gonna die. However, we got home and I tried to chill down. I did after a while, like after 6 hours. The day after I just felt a little dizzy and everything was fine. (No, the weed wasn’t laced)
Now, as stupid as I am, as dumb as I am, I decided to smoke pot again with my cousin one month later. I thought I had a panic attack because it was my first time and I took too much. But nope, I took 2 blows. And WOOOPS I got another panic attack. Same symptoms, but much milder. The day after, it was still there. I panicked again. That whole day I panicked and decided to go to ER. They said that it was nothing wrong with me.
Now, 2 months after the last time, I’ve had like 3-5 panic attacks and like 5-10 “milder” attacks. I still have derealization feeling and I feel like sh*t. I can’t drink coffe or sodas or anything, because I’m too anxious. Nobody knows about this, that I still get panic attacks. I’m afraid to get another panic attack. Has anyone “tripped” as much as me? Anyone feels the same? Any tips what to do? Am I alone with this damn feeling?
Help is really appreciated!!
Okey, I'll try to explain this as short as possible. I'm a 18 year old guy who basically "tripped" on marijuana. Here's the story(excuse my English):
I see myself as a “calm” person. I don’t do “bad” things. For example, I don’t smoke marijuana or drink alcohol because I don’t feel like it’s my thing. I’m kind of a hardcore gamer that sits home all day and goes to the gym. BUT, I like to try out different stuff. I want to see what it’s all about. So, I have this cousin who basically started doing all kind of drugs, which destroyed his life. He went to rehab and now the only thing he smokes is marijuana. I and he are very close to each other, it’s like he’s my brother. He always kept telling me to try smoking some pot, because apparently it was the best feeling ever. I tried it out twice, but I didn’t take too much and I didn’t feel a thing. So, he told me to do more and more until I felt it. And honestly, I wanted to feel this feeling that everyone is enjoying. One day, I went to sleep over at his and his gfs apartment. We had been playing football/soccer all day and were so tired. He told me that some pot would be perfect at that moment and that it would help me relax. So he rolled one up and we started smoking…
This time, I took a lot. I smoked as much as he did. After every time I pass it, he asks me if I feel anything. And every time I answer “no”. Until’ we smoked it all up. I started laughing uncontrollably and I really liked that feeling. But then suddenly, when I stood up, it was like I got punched. It felt like I almost fainted. And the panic started. Worst night of my life. Everything went “dark” and my heart started beating hard and fast. It felt like I didn’t have any control of myself. I started screaming and asking when it’s gonna end. He said “calm down-you’re having a psychosis”. And yup, when he said that I just went to sleep, very calm. Of course not, it only made it worse. I couldn’t breathe well and I had this derealization feeling. I started walking around in the apartment because I was so scared. I tried to sit down and watch TV, but I couldn’t because I could hear my heart beat and I was shaking so much. So, in the middle of the night, we went out for a walk. I started hallucinating from the edge of my eye. I thought I was gonna die. However, we got home and I tried to chill down. I did after a while, like after 6 hours. The day after I just felt a little dizzy and everything was fine. (No, the weed wasn’t laced)
Now, as stupid as I am, as dumb as I am, I decided to smoke pot again with my cousin one month later. I thought I had a panic attack because it was my first time and I took too much. But nope, I took 2 blows. And WOOOPS I got another panic attack. Same symptoms, but much milder. The day after, it was still there. I panicked again. That whole day I panicked and decided to go to ER. They said that it was nothing wrong with me.
Now, 2 months after the last time, I’ve had like 3-5 panic attacks and like 5-10 “milder” attacks. I still have derealization feeling and I feel like sh*t. I can’t drink coffe or sodas or anything, because I’m too anxious. Nobody knows about this, that I still get panic attacks. I’m afraid to get another panic attack. Has anyone “tripped” as much as me? Anyone feels the same? Any tips what to do? Am I alone with this damn feeling?
Help is really appreciated!!