Cimi
01-18-2014, 06:31 AM
It all started with a night wake up and feeling dizzy and lightheaded and blurred vision. I went do the doctor did a blood test and all that and they told me that i have a minor spondylosis. My neck did hurt and my spine also. After the wake up i couldnt feel my head as regular and i went crazy thinking i lost my mind and stories like that. Panic attack lost breath etc. Then i started some l carnitine and some anti immflamatories for my pain and started gym and swimming. all went away and i felt better again. suddenly i started waking up at night for no reason then i made the stupid mistake and gave myself a reason that i woke up to see myself. then i started thinking about sleep and being unconscious and i was afraid of sleeping and left myself without sleep for a day or two. i had another panic attack. went to a shrink but he told me the get to know you stuff and nothing else. i was in panic all day. took some anxiety pills librium and valerian and they did help somehow, but i would wake up at night. i used to see strange dreams and waking and sleeping became normal and then i started doubting weather things are real or am i dreaming. i have to emphasize that my energy, focusing, sight, concentration were all messed up and i felt myself getting dissconected from the environment. then i read about DP AND DR and started to find myself in that. i was terrified all the time as i couldnt feel myself.i went to the shrink and i didnt feel good this time. i then took the decision of going to a psychiatrist and told her everything i felt. she said it were the games of serotonin and put me on lexapro. the mornings were too bad as i would stand in bed not doing anything.i have been taking it for 2 weeks and each day was different. now it seems that it works for me as i feel much better, but still not myself.i find it difficult to concentrate and sometimes i have blurred vision. i used to think negative things but now im not. please guys help me with this. anyone has same feeling. sometimes low mood sometimes normal, sometimes i wonder if it is all real or what as i cannot feel myself.