masonmoore0824
01-17-2014, 03:16 PM
Ok, so after having yet another panic attack about the class I was taking, I decided I am just not in the right place, mentally, to do it. I withdrew today and felt better then later on had another panic attack thinking I had made a big mistake. I found out I get to start a new job Monday! Very happy news for me, so I think it's best I try not to do both anyway. Too much too fast overwhelms me and sends me straight into panic and into a downward spiral to depression.
I can't help but wonder...is this as good as it's going to get for me? To manage my anxiety, panic and depression while trying to navigate life? I've been doing it my whole life and every year that goes by I hope that it gets easier. Some days it does, but many days it does not. I make decisions based on my emotions ALL THE TIME which often is not what is best for me. *Sigh*
I can't help but wonder...is this as good as it's going to get for me? To manage my anxiety, panic and depression while trying to navigate life? I've been doing it my whole life and every year that goes by I hope that it gets easier. Some days it does, but many days it does not. I make decisions based on my emotions ALL THE TIME which often is not what is best for me. *Sigh*