Isabelleva
01-16-2014, 03:12 PM
Just signed up...still wondering why though. I get nervous and anxious a lot, but not sure if I just make it all far worse than it is and so am wondering why I joined when perhaps just overreaction to life I guess. I think I'm rambling, it's a bit of a bad habit. And perhaps a nervous one too, it often happens when I start getting nervous and apprehensive.
I just seem to get myself in a bit of a worked up state sometimes you know? And I don't know why I do, it's just in my mind I play it all up and start panicking inside. I do try to keep it inside and not let others see the panic arising, as often seems that people don't understand? For example, couple of health 'issues' well I wouldn't say issues, more so concerns perhaps. Anyway to the point, I geared myself up and went to the GP for her to advise that blood test needed. Which at that point my heart triple leapt and I felt my palms sweating up. You see, we don't do needles...something I attempt to stay well away from. So that conversation took place two months ago...and I have not yet booked the test. I feel the panic rise at the thought. I just can't bring myself to do it, even though I know I need to. I just try and ignore it or kid myself that I will arrange it when I have time when realistically I know that's not going to happen.
Another scenario I am struggling with (quickly to brief you, I am a horse rider and have been doing it for 15+ years...but am slowly turning into a nervous rider) so a couple months ago I started loaning a horse, she's great and really helping the confidence. But recently agreed to going to my first horse show...that's this Sunday. I am bricking it, totally petrified I am going to fail and muck it up. That it's all going to go wrong. I don't even know if I will be able to do it on the day as wi be so sick with nerves. But no one seems to quite understand...they just say I will be fine, or not to worry and stress etc! Those responses are always the same and never help?! :(
Feeling a little lost I guess although, I have rambled far too much to get to that conclusion :/ sigh. Sorry all in advance for the length message.
I just seem to get myself in a bit of a worked up state sometimes you know? And I don't know why I do, it's just in my mind I play it all up and start panicking inside. I do try to keep it inside and not let others see the panic arising, as often seems that people don't understand? For example, couple of health 'issues' well I wouldn't say issues, more so concerns perhaps. Anyway to the point, I geared myself up and went to the GP for her to advise that blood test needed. Which at that point my heart triple leapt and I felt my palms sweating up. You see, we don't do needles...something I attempt to stay well away from. So that conversation took place two months ago...and I have not yet booked the test. I feel the panic rise at the thought. I just can't bring myself to do it, even though I know I need to. I just try and ignore it or kid myself that I will arrange it when I have time when realistically I know that's not going to happen.
Another scenario I am struggling with (quickly to brief you, I am a horse rider and have been doing it for 15+ years...but am slowly turning into a nervous rider) so a couple months ago I started loaning a horse, she's great and really helping the confidence. But recently agreed to going to my first horse show...that's this Sunday. I am bricking it, totally petrified I am going to fail and muck it up. That it's all going to go wrong. I don't even know if I will be able to do it on the day as wi be so sick with nerves. But no one seems to quite understand...they just say I will be fine, or not to worry and stress etc! Those responses are always the same and never help?! :(
Feeling a little lost I guess although, I have rambled far too much to get to that conclusion :/ sigh. Sorry all in advance for the length message.