New here from Ontario Canada

[mom23]

Found this APP the other day and thought it would be nice to chat with others with the same feelings. My anxiety has been crazy for about the last week. Sometimes I feel I will never feel "normal" again. I wake up all night. Sweaty forehead but still feel cold. Don't get much sleep. Then go to work in the morning and have this awful feeling all day. I also suffer from depression. I developed my depression after I had my do in 2001. It would come and go. In 2007 my then 16 month old daughter was diagnosed with Leukemia. That's when the anxiety was added to the depression. I currently take Celexa for my depression. I am happy to say my daughter will soon be 8 and has been in remission for 4 years. Just wish it were easy to shake this feeling I have. I just want to be my happy normal self again.

[jessed03]

Hey Mom!

It's a helpful app to find, for sure!

Sounds like you still have problems with panic attacks. Add in the depression and you must feel pretty crappy.

I would be wanting more from my celexa if I were in your shoes. Have you been taking it long?

That's really good news about daughter. That's one nasty condition! 4years and counting, hopefully many healthy years to come too!

Welcome to the site :)

[jessed03]

The user Dahila is from Ontario too. She'll come and greet a fellow city-liver soon too, I'm sure!

[Cullingford]

Hi Mom 23 welcome and its very nice to meet you. There are loads of us here going through similar stuff and its a great place for information and support.

[em1]

Hello there and welcome to the page,wow from one mother to another that must of been so hard for you so no wonder you felt like that,amazing news that your daughter has been well
For four years :) you have come to the right place so a warm welcome to you :)

[mom23]

Thank you. Yes I have been taking Celexa off and on since 2001. Doctor told me I'll be on it permanently now. I had been feeling really good. Would just have a short attack. Was nothing major wouldn't last long. When my daughter was diagnosed I quit my full time job that I loved. Worked there 13 years. That being said a few years later I started working part time. Got laid off because they just couldn't afford to have me there. This October I started a full time job. Big change as it has been years since I worked full time. Things were going good. I'm lucky to have my mom at home to be with my 3 kids and she is awesome. Anyway my boss started being a bit rude. Demanding. Making me feel like any small mistake I made was the end of the world. Friday I talked to him. Because this had been really getting the anxiety going. After our talk I felt awesome. Was pretty good all weekend until Sunday mid afternoon when the thoughts of going to work brought the anxiety on again. I have had a great day at work. But still have this awful feeling. Like something is sitting on my chest and I keep taking deep breaths. I find myself a little shaky. Ugh!!!!!!!

[Dahila]

hi Mom, welcome to the forum, I am from Ontario too, I am happy about your daughter, and her return to good health.
Work, work, unfortunately Canadians have most of the stress because of work.... some bosses are simply abusers, it happens everywhere where is not union. Right now the situation on work market is so bad, that bosses do whatever they want with us. I have been there, I know what I am taking about. Somehow you need to overcome the stress.... Having three children you probably do not have other option than work.
Hopefully he will get off your back. Keep us posted :)

[mom23]

My boss was actually so much better after I discussed my concerns. He isn't horrible. I don't think he realized and well I know he is under stress too. No excuse. But he has been better. I was glad to get it off my chest. It's awesome to be able to talk and not be judged. You guys all understand the feelings and how anxiety can affect day to day life. Something my husband and other family members don't understand. I wasn't talking to anyone about it and was holding it all inside. I would walk around in my own sad confused works and try to out in a happy face for everyone.

[Dahila]

It is strange, that the closed peaple to us, the ones they suppose to support us, they have no idea what is going on. I am happy your day was ok, it is evening and you are probably relaxing :)) good. Tomorrow is going to be better.
You found us and you are able to get some advice and understanding:)

[NixonRulz]

And better yet, you are now the "Mom" of the forum

[Enduronman]

And better yet, you are now the "Mom" of the forum

Hi Mom!!!!

Welcome!....:)

[mom23]

Ugh!!!! Woke up with it again this morning. Every morning I feel so much anxiety I start gagging and puking. Ok. Maybe tmi but it's just phlegm and dry heaves mostly. I'm out and at work now. Sitting at my desk taking deep breaths just wishing I could feel normal.

[Dahila]

Some kind of virus is going around, maybe you just got it, I hope the day will get better :)

[mom23]

Nooo I always get this way from my anxiety. It sucks. Sometimes I wish it were a virus. Then I know it would eventually go away.

[mom23]

Phew. Another work day done. The anxiety pretty much went away for the afternoon. No more throwing up. I feel good right now. It's crazy because when I'm having the anxiety I think I'll never feel good again. Now here I am. Tired but good. :)
I'm wondering how I will sleep tonight. I seem to get night sweats and toss and turn all night. Pleaseeeee let me have a good night