Srry Guys - PHD students doing the rounds - I'm out of here.

[Ponder]

I decided instead of PMing - I just make it plain:

The whole thing with PHD and questioners -

No longer a place a call home.

http://anxietyforum.net/forum/showthread.php?24264-New-study-investigating-the-relationship-between-anxiety-and-schizotypy

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On that note - sure I will come back, when settled and on track. I've been really messed up with the system, and to see it come into places like this -> puts me off. Nothing too major - but still the same, for many of us older ones that are the classic cases of such text book studies - lets just say it's very uncomfy to be intruded like so, in a place otherwise advertised as a home.

I don't't expect many young one would understand - however I have learned much from those young ones that have taken the time to listen and share with me. I need to go back to practicing the stuff that works for me - much the opposite of PHD questions - those can be very threatening!

I go to a place called Mindfulness forum - my user name there is in fact Ponder - I think? Wow it is :) here is my last post in there

http://www.everyday-mindfulness.org/forum/viewtopic.php?f=24&t=3654

Your welcome to come - Don't get me wrong - not at all comparing these places - not at all - If pHD comes in that one - I will most likely leave that place too! I'm too tired to be chased in this world and I have done some pretty decent posts in here and tried my best not to step on toes. It's been really great meeting so many wise souls young and old. I really really needed to get some stuff out, and that prison one was probably the best and first really disclosure of such pain for me - I talked some of my homelessness too, among other things. I have tried very hard to let go of resentments and I know I am blinded with seeing many things.

Now it's time I go talk in a language made for mindfulness and start my practice there as well. Once again - I am very sorry for triggering people, yet accept the well and kind words of others like Jesse and Dahila that assure me, that I at least try to be a little aware in my Talkings.
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Once I have some awesome inspiring shots of the Ocean and my new routine, I will share and you will see the change in me -

You guys are really special. We all have our own little triggers :) Just keep loving each other as your doing. ...and keep being forgiving too.

I have had some good tears fall in this forum - that is healthy stuff. I'd just like to say as for Troll - Trolls do not take pride in what they do. I know they hurt - but they need help too. Don't't get me wrong as I am not trying to rob people of their reactions or mean to judge them, I am just saying in a world with so many of us Trolling - that we need to understand them too.

Again - I not mean to rehash - I just want us all to get along as best we can.

You guys have shown me that compassion still is to be had -

Take care - None of us are perfect - I love you guys - no matter what!!
Dave.

http://farm8.staticflickr.com/7041/6953965043_c5430262b7_o.jpg (http://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/6953965043/)
morning (http://www.flickr.com/photos/71988794@N08/6953965043/) by L_Plate_Dave (http://www.flickr.com/people/71988794@N08/), on Flickr

[jessed03]

Dear oh dear ponder do I envy you! Wow that pic is so serene. I'll try and take one of my local park where I hang out and slow down. Nothing compared to that though. The greenery, the colours. That place looks made for the soul.

It's January now, which means the PHD students have gotten their new assignments etc etc. I saw this last year. It should die down in a couple of months.

Like Frankie said. We know you know what's right for you.

Do come back though! Even if it's just to post some new pics!

I've enjoyed reading what you've written, not always because it was positive, or beautiful, but because it was very thoughtful and every post had effort put into it. Well, except when you replied 'indeed' earlier today, but we can't always be perfect ;)

This site takes up a lot of my time, and as spring rolls around, I usually try and get off the internet altogether. I will however take a look at that other hang out spot you visit, even if I don't end up signing up.

I wrote a response to you on your other thread, you don't have to answer it. I saw it before this thread.

Take care! Hope to see you back soon. Hope you keep working through the stuff that brings negativity into your life.

Jesse.

[MiST]

:( Come back soon Ponder..your a valued member of the community.

[NeverToo...Fear]

Thanks for explaining your reason for leaving. Your absence would've been noticed! It's important you put your well being first, but hopefully you will come back soon.. we will all be here reading your words when you do! ... :)

And I wanted to say that is a lovely pic you put up there. It inspires me to try and take some nice, serene photos. Be well, Ponder

[Dahila]

I am going to check the other site too. I wonder, maybe we should get in touch with admin? He is pretty good with keeping the place clean.....it requires a lot of work...

[jessed03]

I have enough posts to become mod. I turned down before, maybe I should do it now, and can just delete bad things instead of reporting :confused:

[NixonRulz]

Yeah. That's what we need....you steering the ship!!! ; )

[NeverToo...Fear]

Can anyone become a mod with only a certain number of posts, or is it something you have to be asked to do?

I do think you should be a mod though, you could always not be one if you don't like it, right?

[NixonRulz]

I elect James to the position of moderator.

He has no choice

To be sure he does a fine job, I elect myself to the Director of Lunch

[jessed03]

Can anyone become a mod with only a certain number of posts, or is it something you have to be asked to do?

I do think you should be a mod though, you could always not be one if you don't like it, right?

Yeah you can just email up and say you wanna be a mod and see what they say. It's an easy enough forum to manage really, people are usually nice, there isn't any politics, it doesn't get spammed very often, there are few trolls. I think once you got to a fair number of posts they'd probably let you. I think you'd have to be longer than 6 months though.

[Dahila]

Jessed you would be an awesome moderator, with your ethics and intelligence. Please think about it...

[NixonRulz]

As great of a moderator as James would be, I do have a concern.

The selfishness in me believes he may have to become more responsible

More responsible Jesse = less fun for me

And really folks, it's all about me.

[Dahila]

yeah I know it is more work, but this forum is pretty clean in my opinion. Yeh I love his posts though, I would not like to lose opportunity to read Jessed:)

[NixonRulz]

yeah I know it is more work, but this forum is pretty clean in my opinion. Yeh I love his posts though, I would not like to lose opportunity to read Jessed:)

You have a better chance of getting struck by lightning than Jesse leaving us

[Dahila]

Oh boy, I hope he don't see that as a challenge!
so do I..................

[jessed03]

If I do leave, I am taking Dahila with me :)

[Cullingford]

I hope you come back soon Dave, I really enjoy your posts its such a shame. :(

[backdoc]

Im new to the forum, can someone please explain to me the OPs statement on PHDs?, thanks

[alankay]

Let'ssssssss moderate! :). Alankay

[jessed03]

Im new to the forum, can someone please explain to me the OPs statement on PHDs?, thanks

Sometimes on this forum you get people doing their studies in psychology and the like. They come to the forum asking questions for their dissertations. Ponder felt uncomfortable with that, preferred it to be more of a place for sufferers to vent.

[Dahila]

You have a better chance of getting struck by lightning than Jesse leaving us

Nixon you cracking me up hehehhhhhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeee

[backdoc]

Thanks Jess, thought about that possibility after i posted........grad students using the forum as a petri dish if you will, not cool