New girl

[cara85]

Hi everyone I wanted to introduce myself. I've been looking on the site for a month now. I have found you all totally refreshing and a great support. On my high anxiety times I always come on and read threads that always seem to help me.
Last summer I was full of life and a total fitness chick. I love weight lifting and was about to compete for miss bikini but that seems a whole different life now.
In December I had a huge panic attack and since then my anxiety is running along in my life like a bad smell. I've suffered with it before and it was health based but now it seems to be everything. One fear is that I'm going to loose the plot. Being a single mum to two beautiful girls just increases that. Scared of losing my babies.
I started uni studying child and adolescent mental health due to previous experience with anxiety but right now I'm
Thinking of pulling out.

That's me so far. Hope everyone is fighting on xx

[Enduronman]

Welcome again!

I too was a weightlifting fitness guy, that changed last May...I will get back to it though, at least I have hope.

Great to have a new member!!..

First panic attack ever in December?...and the trigger???...

E-Man., :)

[cara85]

Yeah I hope I will too. I loved it. Made me feel great. Just finding it hard to push self back there.
I had my first in about age 18. I was unsure of but I was watching a horror at the time. Then it spiralled. I got back to grips. The. It kicked back in after my first daughter seven years ago. Slight postnatal depression with it too. That's when I started to take citalophram. 20 mg.
last summer I was missing lots of tablets. Used one box of about 21 over two to three months. Simply because i felt good and it slipped my mind, So they worked out my system. Went to doc he said build them back up again. So started daily again. Then he swapped me to stertraline. On the eighth day I had the horrid attack. Felt like I needed to escape from my body. Scared the living day lights out of me. Doc took me off those now bck on citalophram and diazepam
2mg.

Sorry long winded :-/ x

[Enduronman]

Shoot you think that was long winded, wait till you see some of my own!

This is best to unload it, that's the quickest ways to recovery,...exposing it friend..then everyone can help..:)

Say whatever you need to here, no word limits...

E-Man..:Dhttp://www.pic4ever.com/images/290.gif or goofiness limits either. YAY!!!

[cara85]

Cheers e man :) xx

[MiST]

Welcome aboard the crazy train Cara!

http://www.freesmileys.org/custom/image/grey%5E_%5Earial%5E_%5E0%5E_%5E0%5E_%5EWELCOME CARA85%5E_%5E.gif

[Enduronman]

LMAO ^^^^^^^ YAY!!!! Mist, yer fuggggin hilarious! I like you!......:)

[cara85]

Thank you Mist. It's been good jumping on :-) x

[Enduronman]

May has well go ahead and tell us your height, location, dreams, aspirations, expectations, diet, choice of beverages,...because when Jesse wakes up he's going to be ALLLLLLLLLLL over you....Plus, he's funny too! http://www.pic4ever.com/images/th_running1.gif

[chardae]

Welcome cara :)

[cara85]

In time I may reveal all lol. X

[cara85]

Hi Chardae and thank you cx

[MiST]

In time I may reveal all lol. X

Now your talking..http://i48.tinypic.com/rtzynp.jpg

[Enduronman]

BHAHAHAAAA!!! ^^^^^^^^....that's Wayne, he's corny like well,...we all are!!! WHOO HOOO!!! :)

[alankay]

Fret not Cara. Anxious folks never lose the plot they just ................get anxious and worry way more than we should. It ain't fun but welcome nonetheless. Alankay

[lexiii]

do you find being on meds work? i am new to anxiety attacks.. i have them when you'd least expect it. nothing triggers mine per say.. they happen randomly in the middle of normal conversations with people. its so strange... first time i had an attack i actually thought i was dying, ive always been a worrier but never to the point of attacks and now they are non stop. i just started cipralex about 5 weeks ago and i am still not feeling anxiety free i need some hope and some advice if anyone has any!

[cara85]

Thank you Alankay. I guess in time I may realise this myself and if will aid my recovery :-) cx

[cara85]

When I first had them Lexii I was so worried about meds but fit me they helped massively. It is a personal choice but it really worked for me. It was a positive. At the moment I'm trying not to fight the feelings I get when I have them. I almost let it wash over my body. Feel all the sensations. I find it makes it move on quicker xx

[jessed03]

Hey cara, nice to meet you :)

How did you get a bigger pic than all of us!

[MiST]

She is pweety female! The universe bends to her will..

[jessed03]

Just reading through this thread, I like your style Cara. I think you're gonna be making some good progress fairly soon, you have a good way of coping with things from what I can tell. Letting it wash over you and becoming comfortable with that, is one of the best ways to reduce panic symptoms. Afterall, kinda hard to panic over something you aren't scared of, right!


Now your talking..http://i48.tinypic.com/rtzynp.jpg

This post made me LOL. Caught me off guard.

[cara85]

Hi jesse
Thanks for your comments :-). I have no idea about the pic dude. It appears the same on mine ( just a small thumbnail ).
Glad your feelings positive for me :) x

[cara85]

Sorry jessed x

[cara85]

Hi mist thank you for my pretty comment :). I hope the universe does bend to me well cuz I need some good things this year cx

[MiST]

Hi mist thank you for my pretty comment :). I hope the universe does bend to me well cuz I need some good things this year cx

Don't bend the universe too much! you will create a black hole..:D

[cara85]

I'll try my hardest not too. :)

[jessed03]

Your pic is like 6 times bigger than mine! Jesse is fine btw. The D is my last name initial.

What is miss bikini? Is that what it sounds like? Being Miss Bikini?

[cara85]

Hi Jesse.
It's a nabba competition. Look it up. It's body building but not extreme where women look like men. It's just nice. :).

[jessed03]

Cue Eman....

[Enduronman]

Yes, I know exactly what she's talking about...it's a "Figure, shape, and form" competition not..."OMG, is that scary" competition....It's way more "classical" than the roid using behemoths....Beauty is the plot, not I wanna rip you apart...YAY!!!...

Glad to see you made it here Jesse!!! We've been waiting!!! :)

[Enduronman]

881882 not like this....:)

[cara85]

Bang on Eman :) x

[jessed03]

Do you have like a portfolio? Or any shots? That's kinda interesting

Maybe you don't wanna share, that's ok. Not like bikini or anything! Just arms or something

[Enduronman]

I was a weight banger..5 solid years. Loved it! Addicting..no feeling like having 500 pounds on your back or pulling 500 pounds off of the floor.....no way to recreate that feeling that I have found.

Dieting was 80% of the battle though, I will day that. Lifting was easy compared to eating correctly... :)

[jessed03]

I was a weight banger..5 solid years. Loved it! Addicting..no feeling like having 500 pounds on your back or pulling 500 pounds off of the floor.....no way to recreate that feeling that I have found.

Dieting was 80% of the battle though, I will day that. Lifting was easy compared to eating correctly... :)

Yeah but I've already seem your portfolio bruh. And very impressive it was too!

[Enduronman]

LMAO!!!....yer crazy, I like you.,.but yer crazy...:)

[alankay]

Well she does look swell in that big pic! :) Alankay

[jessed03]

Well she does look swell in that big pic! :) Alankay

Eman got dumped for less than that Alan. Right Eman?

[Enduronman]

You better belie dat!!!! :( grrr......

I do like seeing Alankay offer up some humor though!!! It's worth getting dumped for that....:D

[cara85]

You two make me chuckle. Lol.
Bit of a rubbish day for anxiety but still smiling x

[cara85]

Cheers Alankay. I have no idea why mine is so big. :-/

[Enduronman]

It's our job Cara!!! Even though we have multiple personality disorders (at least Jesse does anyway) we still have to find good in the day!!... :)

[cara85]

Very true e man. :)

[MiST]

Any news on this portfolio yet? http://www.pic4ever.com/images/84.gif

[Enduronman]

http://www.pic4ever.com/images/Just_Cuz_15.gif

[cara85]

I don't have a portfolio I'm
Afraid. Sorry to disappoint lol

[Enduronman]

http://www.pic4ever.com/images/4fvgdaq_th.gif

[MiST]

http://i50.tinypic.com/5vvz2g.jpg

[Enduronman]

Rotflmao^^^^^

[MiST]

I only wanted to see a bit of ankle..http://www.pic4ever.com/images/1304.gif

[Enduronman]

You'd literally have to be rolling on the floor just like little hamster/mouse/spiderpig ^^^^ is.....BAHAHAAHA!!!!

[MiST]

http://www.subeimagenes.com/img/spiderpig-1854.gif

SpiderPig is a ceiling pig and would have a poor view of ankles..he would however have a great view of other body parts..





*Don't hate me, i have a condition..

[Enduronman]

Spiderpig, spiderpig, does whatever a spiderpig does!!... (The Simpsons).. :)

Yes, the view would not be optimal while walking on a ceiling...

I love your condition!!...:)

[MiST]

Yes, the view would not be optimal while walking on a ceiling...

Depends on the target..http://www.pic4ever.com/images/14k8gag.gif

[jessed03]

Mist your comments have been hilarious in this thread xD

Spider pig gif. I just feel 'complete' now.

[MiST]

Now if only there was a way to combine SpiderPig and Business Cat into one single graphics interchange format image, the world would be complete also.

Alas i fear that such a task is too much for mere mortals to attain.

We need SPIDERMAN!

http://www.socomic.gr/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/fat-spiderman-dancing.gif

[NeverToo...Fear]

^ Looks like the Holidays weren't too kind to Spiderman..

oh and btw, I don't believe I've said hi. Hi Cara. Nice to meet you.. Don't you love how off topic we are? :P

[MiST]

Don't you love how off topic we are? :P

Well if she didn't have such a cute avatar we would still be on topic..http://www.pic4ever.com/images/4fvfcja.gif

Only playin, don't mean anything by it..:D

Back on topic.

[Enduronman]

Mentally handicapped people (like me) are sometimes abit of topic,,...hey look at that bird. :)

[cara85]

Just noticed all these comments. Made me laugh. Hi not to fear :)

[cara85]

Sorry never to fear. Your distractions about spider pig still making me giggle mist

[Enduronman]

:)...........