JLK
01-06-2014, 11:06 AM
Hello all! I guess I'm looking for some general advice here. Here's a bit of my story...
I've had anxiety since I was 18, but about a year ago, it just exploded (due to a few events) and I became pretty agoraphobic. I quit my job and really struggled for a few months. Since I had all kinds of time then, I did everything I could find to help. I went to a counselor (super hard to do for the agoraphobe), I did meditation, relaxation. Someone gave me the Lucinda Bassett cd program and I went through that. So, a year later, I have two jobs! And I can go places on my own. I exercise regularly and try to eat well. (I do take medication also)
My problem now is that I lived in that bubble and burned so many bridges that now that I know going places and doing things would help me feel better, I have no where to go. I have a very few friends left and really no resources to make new? When the anxiety comes on me now, I hate the idea of going back to meditation and such because it reminds me of how bad off I was before...
I'm afraid that I've hit a plateau and I'll never get better than this where I can do things, but it's very hard. I can drive, but I get very panicky. I can go places, but only under certain conditions. Does any of this make sense? lol. I guess I'm just looking for advice on how to continue the recovery... and if that's possible from here.
I've had anxiety since I was 18, but about a year ago, it just exploded (due to a few events) and I became pretty agoraphobic. I quit my job and really struggled for a few months. Since I had all kinds of time then, I did everything I could find to help. I went to a counselor (super hard to do for the agoraphobe), I did meditation, relaxation. Someone gave me the Lucinda Bassett cd program and I went through that. So, a year later, I have two jobs! And I can go places on my own. I exercise regularly and try to eat well. (I do take medication also)
My problem now is that I lived in that bubble and burned so many bridges that now that I know going places and doing things would help me feel better, I have no where to go. I have a very few friends left and really no resources to make new? When the anxiety comes on me now, I hate the idea of going back to meditation and such because it reminds me of how bad off I was before...
I'm afraid that I've hit a plateau and I'll never get better than this where I can do things, but it's very hard. I can drive, but I get very panicky. I can go places, but only under certain conditions. Does any of this make sense? lol. I guess I'm just looking for advice on how to continue the recovery... and if that's possible from here.