My Apology

[MiST]

I want to apologize for my behavior last night! I don't know what happened to me and my head is still reeling thinking about what could have happened had i stayed out there much longer.
I completely zoned out and i completely lost control of my emotions and senses and i'm so embarassed right now.
I'm so sorry, i was totally out of order last night and i should never have posted such dark content on a forum of this nature and i hope my behaviour does not reflect negatively on your opinion of me.

I can only think that because i tend to bottle my feelings away inside that something must have snapped and i just vented years of emotion into a single night. I have not opened myself up like this before and i clearly wasn't mentally prepared for the depth of emotion it brought back.

Reading the comments you all left touched me beyond words. I have never really had people talk to me in such a loving and caring manner and it really shows the depth of kindness and integrity present in this community.

Some things happened last night that made me evaluate the world and my place in it, and i have realized that some things are outside of my control and that i need to let go.

I have carried so much with me, never letting go or finding closure but your words were the spark i needed to relight the fire inside me.

I am so sorry for the negativity i created last night and for causing panic, it was extremely selfish of me.

You are all truly wonderful human beings and i feel humbled being in your company.

I promise that i will never again act the way i did last night and that i will conduct myself in a manner worthy of your beautiful words.

Sorry again.

Kindest regards, Wayne.

[jessed03]

Goddam you *Kicks mists ass* that's for the worry ;)

No I am so stoked your ok man! Really stoked.

Get ready to feel some love from the girls.

And ponder ;)

And Eman!

[jessed03]

*Kicks Mists ass once more*

Sorry, sorry. Too much worry.

We cool now, we cool :)

[NeverToo...Fear]

MiST !!!! :D


I'm SO glad you are still alive !!

You really don't have to apologize. Jess already beat you up so I won't ;) But yeah, you scared the crap out of us, but we all have those down days.

You have more fight left in you friend.. :)

Much love from one of the girls ;)

[Enduronman]

http://www.pic4ever.com/images/999.gifand....there you are, I see you're still prepared for the next rounds friend, just as you always had been..and will be.

Glad to have your thoughts and word appear here today bruh!

E-Man (Chris).... :)

[Dahila]

Do not apologize Mist, I am going to kick your arse, before the PG tea. I am stoked (I love the word; just found out what it means;) ) I am so happy you are allright. shoot I am happy to see you my friend. We all love you, and you should open up. Do u need my email address to keep in touch, no problem. Just say it. You never are alone, you got us :))))

Jessed, thank you :)

[Cullingford]

Hey really glad you are back and ok.

[Ponder]

Nothing to be srry for. whilst we were here, remember that you are the one that pulled yourself through. Don't let it be a case of added layers MiST - I still beleive it was a lvl that needed to be reached. That's what I am telling myself.

Just so glad to see your post. :)

[reneek]

Oh Mist! Hugs! So glad to see you are okay!!!!! I'm really glad you were able to take the words that were written to you and be able to decipher all of it to the good. No matter with what you think, you are worthy and we all love you! To use the word of the day, I'm "stoked" to see you are here. Hugs hugs and more hugs!

And don't apologize. We all know you did not mean to get everyone in a panic. You were at a very low point and you were reaching out for help. I'm so happy we were all here to help you. And, you are so right; some things you just cannot control and you just have to let go. Good for you!

[GeneAllen]

Thank you Mist. Thank you Bro. So thankful for your sharing, and so glad you're well. Peace

[Kyle Morgan]

Hope you are ok and everything's fine