Myprecious
02-08-2008, 10:28 PM
Hello, I have to admit it makes me feel a little better knowing that I'm not the only one out there. Well I believe I have anxiety issues, my mom thinks it's just college stress, but I doubt that every college student goes through this.
As a kid I was always shy. Now that I'm in college I started keeping track of my nervousness. First, I get nervous everytime I go somewhere, whether it be my class, a store(i'm mostly nervous when I go by myself), my internship, etc.. I also get panic attacks every time my teacher asks a question that I know the answer to, you see I want to raise my hand and tell the answer but then i become nervous, my hands start to sweat, my whole body begins to shake, my heartbeat speeds up to what feels like 100000 beats per minute, i feel burning in the face and I just loose control. But wait this is just the beginning. I also get nervous when I'm about to talk to people.
I also have intrusive thoughts that run like crazy. I think about one thing this second and the next second I think about something else. My mind is weaving and weaving and i can't control it. I just can't stop thinking about random crap! Like when I'm driving I keep on thinking "what if someone hits me? I won't have a car!"
My b/f who also has anxiety, is on medication and he's more calm. I fear that he's going to get tired of me soon and dump me. And it bothers the heck out of me, I am in love with him but I feel that my mood swings and odd behavior will drive him nuts and eventually he'll say "enough is enough'. I am so scared.
I haven't been to the doctor yet, because I don't have money to pay the doctor's bills. I asked my parents for help, but they just think that I'm stressed out and my mom mostly tells me to "relax" and my favorite: "calm down". If i knew how to relax and calm down i would.
My mom just thinks that I'm over analyzing things(which is true) but she also thinks that I can stop over analyzing things (which I can't). I NEED some serious help. I feel like I'm hitting rock bottom and I can't help, I think I'm becoming depressed.
As a kid I was always shy. Now that I'm in college I started keeping track of my nervousness. First, I get nervous everytime I go somewhere, whether it be my class, a store(i'm mostly nervous when I go by myself), my internship, etc.. I also get panic attacks every time my teacher asks a question that I know the answer to, you see I want to raise my hand and tell the answer but then i become nervous, my hands start to sweat, my whole body begins to shake, my heartbeat speeds up to what feels like 100000 beats per minute, i feel burning in the face and I just loose control. But wait this is just the beginning. I also get nervous when I'm about to talk to people.
I also have intrusive thoughts that run like crazy. I think about one thing this second and the next second I think about something else. My mind is weaving and weaving and i can't control it. I just can't stop thinking about random crap! Like when I'm driving I keep on thinking "what if someone hits me? I won't have a car!"
My b/f who also has anxiety, is on medication and he's more calm. I fear that he's going to get tired of me soon and dump me. And it bothers the heck out of me, I am in love with him but I feel that my mood swings and odd behavior will drive him nuts and eventually he'll say "enough is enough'. I am so scared.
I haven't been to the doctor yet, because I don't have money to pay the doctor's bills. I asked my parents for help, but they just think that I'm stressed out and my mom mostly tells me to "relax" and my favorite: "calm down". If i knew how to relax and calm down i would.
My mom just thinks that I'm over analyzing things(which is true) but she also thinks that I can stop over analyzing things (which I can't). I NEED some serious help. I feel like I'm hitting rock bottom and I can't help, I think I'm becoming depressed.