basta
12-22-2013, 07:18 PM
Whatsup Guys.
So I had to make an account cause I feel like im losing it.
Im 22, and for the past 21 years I didnt visit a doctor, NOT ONE, no matter what I had, no matter what was going with me, no matter what pain I had, i just didnt go to the doctor, not because i was scared, but becuase i was the 'Whatever, its gonna go over soon' type. Untill last year, when one of my uncles came in to our house screaming and crying cause one of his brothers died.... I was in my room and when i heard all of that, i kinda got into a shock.. I didnt say anything, I didnt move and everything was just, weird.
But I have a feeling that that moment had a BIG impact on me, and pretty much fucked me up mentally.
2 weeks after all of that, i felt weird, like I had no energy at all, my body was just, numb 24/7 for like 2 weeks, I just didnt feel good, i wasnt sick, i was perfectly fine, but, i had no energy what so ever. And thats when it all really began. I started to think something was wrong with my heart and in like 2 weeks i called the ER 3 times, and visited the doctor day after day, cause i thought i was about to die.... After they checked me a million times (even tho knowing nothing was wrong with me) they told me I was panicking for no reason, and if it really was my heart, i probably was dead a long time ago. I KNEW nothing was wrong with my heart, but still, i couldnt fight the fear.
After a while I kinda stopped thinkin about it, but then something else began, my eyes, cause I was seeing floaters (All because of goddamn stress) I thought i was going blind, and i pretty much visited every eye doctor in my city, they all told me my eyes were perfectly fine, but still, THAT FEAR!!!!!, Im still obsessed about it since i constantly close on eye , then the other one just to check if they 'see' the same, but its getting less and less with the day (the floaters are still there tho)
But now something else has popped up. I THINK im hearing voices, even tho im not, its like IM FORCING myself to hear voices just to convice myself im hearing them, even tho im not, and its fucking driving me crazy. WHY am I having this weird feeling? FOR WHAT??? Why am I constantly trying to to force myself to hear voices?? Im scared that if pay too much atteintion to it, i will start to hear voices, but i have no idea what to do about it. WHAT can i do to stop this guys???
So I had to make an account cause I feel like im losing it.
Im 22, and for the past 21 years I didnt visit a doctor, NOT ONE, no matter what I had, no matter what was going with me, no matter what pain I had, i just didnt go to the doctor, not because i was scared, but becuase i was the 'Whatever, its gonna go over soon' type. Untill last year, when one of my uncles came in to our house screaming and crying cause one of his brothers died.... I was in my room and when i heard all of that, i kinda got into a shock.. I didnt say anything, I didnt move and everything was just, weird.
But I have a feeling that that moment had a BIG impact on me, and pretty much fucked me up mentally.
2 weeks after all of that, i felt weird, like I had no energy at all, my body was just, numb 24/7 for like 2 weeks, I just didnt feel good, i wasnt sick, i was perfectly fine, but, i had no energy what so ever. And thats when it all really began. I started to think something was wrong with my heart and in like 2 weeks i called the ER 3 times, and visited the doctor day after day, cause i thought i was about to die.... After they checked me a million times (even tho knowing nothing was wrong with me) they told me I was panicking for no reason, and if it really was my heart, i probably was dead a long time ago. I KNEW nothing was wrong with my heart, but still, i couldnt fight the fear.
After a while I kinda stopped thinkin about it, but then something else began, my eyes, cause I was seeing floaters (All because of goddamn stress) I thought i was going blind, and i pretty much visited every eye doctor in my city, they all told me my eyes were perfectly fine, but still, THAT FEAR!!!!!, Im still obsessed about it since i constantly close on eye , then the other one just to check if they 'see' the same, but its getting less and less with the day (the floaters are still there tho)
But now something else has popped up. I THINK im hearing voices, even tho im not, its like IM FORCING myself to hear voices just to convice myself im hearing them, even tho im not, and its fucking driving me crazy. WHY am I having this weird feeling? FOR WHAT??? Why am I constantly trying to to force myself to hear voices?? Im scared that if pay too much atteintion to it, i will start to hear voices, but i have no idea what to do about it. WHAT can i do to stop this guys???