Really depressed

[kketchupp]

Hi everyone. So these past 6 years I've been struggling with social anxiety, panic attacks and depression. There have been points in my life when I've been all ALONE with no friends and sometimes parts when I've been really, really sad but also moments of joy.

These few past months have been horrible though. I don't feel happy at all, I feel empty and exhausted 99% of the time. There been days that I've fallen asleep during the day, but I can't sleep at nights. I feel stressed out because of school and most of my friends are really selfish and some have bullied me.

All of these events have really made me hit the low point. Right now I'm suicidal and been having strong thoughts about killing myself. I'm not good at anything, my friends don't care and the only one who cares is mom. And I push her away, I feel angry and I don't want her to think I'm mad at her. But I can't tell her how I feel, she is also depressed and I don't want her to feel that it's her fault because its not.
So I don't know what to do, I really want to kill myself because I can't do this anymore.

[Enduronman]

KK,

If your Mom is what you've got now, reach out, let down the walls for abit..you need her support ASAP.

1. You've gotta reach out to a school councelor asap. (easy)
2. Then get into therapy asap. (easy)
3. Then make an app to see an MD ASAP. (IDK how easy but this is a must do)
4. You need medications, and you must take them to help get you out of this disasterous feeling AND EASE this inner grief and tension.

E-Man..

[jkb]

You have your mom, you already know she will be there for you. You just have to reach out to her Ketchup, be honest and leave nothing out. This is your chance to get the support you need, trust us it will change everything for you!

[stocktona]

Don't let your friends bully you they should the ones there for you. You need your mom. It sucks letting family in on your problems sometimes but your mom has your back. Talk to her and tell her everything and anything! This is just a phase. A low point just like you said. Pull through! And be confident in that what you might be feeling right now you won't be feeling in a few days. Just let it out and talk. Prayers for you :)