blueeyedwaters
12-14-2013, 01:08 PM
Hey there! My name is April. I'm 27, soon to be 28. I have been married for 8 years, together for almost 10. My husband and I have 5 year old boy/girl twins and a two and a half year old son as well.
I have always had issues with vomit. I didn't know it was anxiety. My anxiety goes crazy just from someone saying their stomach doesn't feel well, even if it is someone I won't necessarily be around (on FB or over the phone, etc.) Anytime anyone has been sick around me I have broken down into tears, I want to run away from the situation, I am "messed up" for days, I won't have an appetite for a few days. Luckily my children haven't been too sick in their short 5 years, until recently. But the first couple times they had gotten sick I would be paralyzed and not be able to be the mom I should be for them. I started going to Therapy because I do not like the idea of taking medicine. After several months, I told my therapist it was time for me to try some sort of medicine. I talked to my doctor and we agreed on Sertraline. I was on that for 16 months and the one time one of my children got sick, I was able to handle it (better than I would have without it and the fact that my mother in law was there to help I think eased me). I wanted to come off of the Sertraline because it made me soooo tired, my libido went down to absolutely nothing which was tearing up my marriage, and it made me gain some weight. I felt I was at a point I could come off of it. I was completely off of it this past July. By October I had talked to my doctor again. He wanted me to try Wellbutrin. I didn't get it right away. I got it a week ago and I have been miserable ever since being on it. I talked to a lot of people who had been on it and they all hated it as well. I think it had a part in me hitting this depressed state that I'm fighting for the last couple days. I am having thoughts of how I don't want to be a mother or wife any more. I really feel that if I left my husband and children I could walk away and never look back. That is how I know something is not right. I have had a lot on me the last few weeks between two of my children passing a stomach bug, one had strep, one had an ear infection, stress of the holidays, my husband and I were almost to a point of splitting a few weeks back (not related to my anxiety issues). So I think I just had let every thing snowball and I can't handle it anymore. Therefore I started the Wellbutrin a week ago and now I'm off of it already per my doctor. My doctor wants me to get back on Sertraline, which I'm not opposed but I have set up an appointment with a rehabilitation office to talk with a psychiatrist to get a better medical evaluation rather than my OBGYN.
My family is finally realizing after the last couple days that my state is serious and I'm not just being stubborn. My husband has been great and is my rock. He doesn't understand but he is here to support me.
I have always had issues with vomit. I didn't know it was anxiety. My anxiety goes crazy just from someone saying their stomach doesn't feel well, even if it is someone I won't necessarily be around (on FB or over the phone, etc.) Anytime anyone has been sick around me I have broken down into tears, I want to run away from the situation, I am "messed up" for days, I won't have an appetite for a few days. Luckily my children haven't been too sick in their short 5 years, until recently. But the first couple times they had gotten sick I would be paralyzed and not be able to be the mom I should be for them. I started going to Therapy because I do not like the idea of taking medicine. After several months, I told my therapist it was time for me to try some sort of medicine. I talked to my doctor and we agreed on Sertraline. I was on that for 16 months and the one time one of my children got sick, I was able to handle it (better than I would have without it and the fact that my mother in law was there to help I think eased me). I wanted to come off of the Sertraline because it made me soooo tired, my libido went down to absolutely nothing which was tearing up my marriage, and it made me gain some weight. I felt I was at a point I could come off of it. I was completely off of it this past July. By October I had talked to my doctor again. He wanted me to try Wellbutrin. I didn't get it right away. I got it a week ago and I have been miserable ever since being on it. I talked to a lot of people who had been on it and they all hated it as well. I think it had a part in me hitting this depressed state that I'm fighting for the last couple days. I am having thoughts of how I don't want to be a mother or wife any more. I really feel that if I left my husband and children I could walk away and never look back. That is how I know something is not right. I have had a lot on me the last few weeks between two of my children passing a stomach bug, one had strep, one had an ear infection, stress of the holidays, my husband and I were almost to a point of splitting a few weeks back (not related to my anxiety issues). So I think I just had let every thing snowball and I can't handle it anymore. Therefore I started the Wellbutrin a week ago and now I'm off of it already per my doctor. My doctor wants me to get back on Sertraline, which I'm not opposed but I have set up an appointment with a rehabilitation office to talk with a psychiatrist to get a better medical evaluation rather than my OBGYN.
My family is finally realizing after the last couple days that my state is serious and I'm not just being stubborn. My husband has been great and is my rock. He doesn't understand but he is here to support me.