New and not sure what I,m doing

[Cullingford]

Hi there everyone, this is my first post ever on a forum so I hope this works,
I have had problems with anxiety and depression all my adult life. Anyway I have this reasonably under control with meds and trying not to do anything really stupid. But I did do something stupid, I ran out of my meds and didnt bother to pick them for nearly a week later. When I started taking them again they made me feel awful I cant concentrate, and Im just sitting here grinding my teeth and am very anxious about not being at work. Im such an idiot.

[jkb]

Hi there. It's important that you don't be so hard on yourself about it, I totally know the feeling you have right now, but what's done is done and it's time to clear your head and now just look forward. I definitely recommend looking up some self hypnosis or meditation techniques that just allow you to spend 10 minutes calming your mind, sat there letting anxious feelings build up is going to make this transition back into the meds more difficult, so it will serve you better to be doing calming techniques and positive reinforcement.

You're not an idiot. You my friend are one of us unfortunate ones who suffer from this condition, don't beat yourself up about it, keep looking forward.

[Cullingford]

Thankyou so much for your caring reply, I do feel such a fool I was doing so well for months then i did this. I am going to have make up some excuse for this monday at work. I am so glad I joined this forum it will nice to get some support and also try and support others. I wil definately try some meditation thanks.

[jkb]

Thankyou so much for your caring reply, I do feel such a fool I was doing so well for months then i did this. I am going to have make up some excuse for this monday at work. I am so glad I joined this forum it will nice to get some support and also try and support others. I wil definately try some meditation thanks.

Many of us understand that feeling! I'm currently also out of work, I hate it, but I need time to recoup. Instead of worrying about making an excuse, could you not take this as an opportunity to explain that you are having difficulty undergoing a transition between medication? Anxiety is not something you need to cover up, the more aware you make of the people round you about the anxiety the better you will likely feel, be open about it and explain why it is so damaging. Whilst informing people you are also helping yourself by talking through it.

[Enduronman]

Welcome!! ......

[Cullingford]

I would love to be able to talk about this with my boss about this but it wouldnt be possible, he would not be understanding at all about this and would tell the other employees they would find this a great laugh.

[Cullingford]

Thanks Enduronman

[jkb]

I would love to be able to talk about this with my boss about this but it wouldnt be possible, he would not be understanding at all about this and would tell the other employees they would find this a great laugh.

That does not sound great. Get through the next couple weeks getting back into your medication.

Do you think possibly you could be suited better somewhere where your colleagues at least try to understand your condition, which is not at all to be taken lightly, and is in fact a form of depression, a genuine mental illness.

[Cullingford]

Luckily I only have to get through next week and then im off for a couple of weeks, which is going to be heaven, yes you are right its not a great enviroment to be in.

[Cullingford]

Well its back to work in the morning,
I feel so much better after having a 4 day break, I have settled back down on my meds which just goes to show me how much I rely on it. As my wife keeps telling me all the crap that I obsess about never comes true, but as I have told her many times, when its got hold of you those thoughts just go on and on and and completely exhaust you. ( but she,s right always)
I would also like to wish the best to you all, especially those facing the anxiety of work after time off Im sure its not going to be as bad as we think.

[jkb]

Glad you're feeling better :)

[Cullingford]

Cheers mate thanks for all your kindness.

[JamieByatt]

I would love to be able to talk about this with my boss about this but it wouldnt be possible, he would not be understanding at all about this and would tell the other employees they would find this a great laugh. you would be pleasantly surprised! Mental health awareness is growing and I'm sure your boss or his senior will understand and support you thru your issues. I have been advised to take a few weeks off work by my doc and spoke with my manager and director and both were extremely supportive offering help and a personal and professional level