New here and would like some advice :)

[Dther078]

Hello everyone ! A little background. When I was younger I was very quiet and shy. Not really anything major, I was just reserved. I had many friends and was able to communicate well with them all. When I got to 5th grade I started coming out of my shell a bit and started participating in class discussions,but for one reason or another my teacher would always make fun of the way I asked the questions, made fun for asking to many questions and actually made fun of my appearance. So I returned to being my old shy self. Once I got to 6th grade things didn't really change, I had an amazing teacher but she was best friends with my 5th grade one. So even thought I was no longer in her class she would come into ours and poke fun at me the same way she would before. I just held it together and ignored it the most I could. But going into middle school I noticed I had a bit of a nervous/anxious feeling towards any one of my teachers. Not enjoying this feeling I spoke up and went to one of my teacher, who at the time I trusted, and asked for help. Little did I know everything I told her ended up being told to other teacher and even other students and I was ridiculed for being "scared" of teachers. After this I lost trust towards teachers. I went through high school not really having any sort of relationship with my profs cause I didn't really need to. But now that I am in college and in a very small program I noticed that we have to spend a lot of one on one time with our profs. I'm not scared of my profs and I am doing very well in school , but no matter what when I go talk to them I get nervous and mix up what I'm trying to say. I'm not able to convey my questions to them like I would with friends, family or even strangers. I have two semesters left with these same profs, and due to the nature of our business it would be very good for me to form relationships with them. I was thinking about speaking to one of them, whom I believe is way more trustworthy then the last, for some help and guidance. Would this be a good start? Or have any of you experienced the same sort of situation? I feel like this is a very specific situation as I am completely fine with other new individuals I meet. It takes me time to warm up, but I do just fine. I'm a 19 ( soon to be 20) year old female. Thank you for any advice, it is much appreciated :)

[Enduronman]

Hey D,

I'd like to ask a couple questions first, but I've gotta go to appointments (for my daughter, probation, Therapy,etc) so I'll keep it short.
Explain this speech issue as best you can, when young? Obviously you were afraid of something, but what, in your own words?..It "looks" like you do not like to be the center of attention. If so, that's simple (performance anxiety) and can be overcome. (I use beta-blockers for that).
Explain the make fun of your appearance issue? Why would a teacher really do that? (Unless said teacher thought that causing you more embarassment was good therapy, of which it isn't, so she was an idiot)...There was nothing wrong with your appearance, it was a stupid effort from a complete dumba** to try to force you to get upset, and then the plan was to make you mad/stronger...but it backfired. Nothing wrong with you. A failed attempt.
"I'm not scared of my prof's"...No, you're not. You're scared of fumbling your words, then, you do of course.
It is merely (performance anxiety)...and, yes, this can be corrected even though it's bothered you throughout life.
A therapist, councelor, and a small dose of medication to help calm that "momentary" issue.
Hope that helps! Post more please and I'll read it after all this other stuff here is complete....
Nice to meet you.

E-Man. :)