manz82
11-28-2013, 11:22 AM
Hope you're all doing good!
Some of you guys may remember me writing on here a few months ago about my troubled relationship with my sister. You may also remember that I kind of got into the habit of relying on her to go places with me incase I panicked, which sucked big time as, and I'm quite ashamed to admit this, but I don't really like her! I know it sounds harsh, but if you knew her you would understand why.
Soooo, anyway, fast forward a couple of months and I'm doing a lot more on my own now, like driving a little bit further every day alone, going to the supermarket (all normal things but I couldn't do them a couple of months ago) and I was starting to feel as though there might be a light at the and of this very dark tunnel... Until yesterday(
I won't bore you all with the details, but me and my sister ended up having a blazing row and she said some nasty, cruel and spiteful things to me.
She said that I need to get a job and a life (she doesnt work, by the way. I worked my whole life until a couple of years ago when I started with anxiety), she said that she hates me and the whole family as they all put me first (they do not because I never ask them to!)
I asked her why couldn't we just get along, and I also pointed out that if the tables were turned and she was nervously ill I would help her every step of the way because she's my baby sister and that's just what I would do. Her reply was, 'I'm not stopping my life just because you're fucked.'
I haven't cried that much in a long time.
And now I'm simply angry. Ragingly, burning, angry. I cannot even tell you why she blew. I don't even see her that much anymore because I figured out a long time ago that she is basically not a nice person. The only thing I really thought I needed her for was the school run, as our children are in the same school and I really hate the busy playground. As it turns out, I didn't even need her for that, because I did it myself today, and even though I felt extremely nervous and slightly dizzy, I did it and my reward was a big hug from my beautiful boy.
Do any of you guys think I'm a bad person if I cut her out of my life? I really think I need to, but my family is very close-knit and I'm worried I will cause problems by doing this. I just don't want to be around her anymore.
Some of you guys may remember me writing on here a few months ago about my troubled relationship with my sister. You may also remember that I kind of got into the habit of relying on her to go places with me incase I panicked, which sucked big time as, and I'm quite ashamed to admit this, but I don't really like her! I know it sounds harsh, but if you knew her you would understand why.
Soooo, anyway, fast forward a couple of months and I'm doing a lot more on my own now, like driving a little bit further every day alone, going to the supermarket (all normal things but I couldn't do them a couple of months ago) and I was starting to feel as though there might be a light at the and of this very dark tunnel... Until yesterday(
I won't bore you all with the details, but me and my sister ended up having a blazing row and she said some nasty, cruel and spiteful things to me.
She said that I need to get a job and a life (she doesnt work, by the way. I worked my whole life until a couple of years ago when I started with anxiety), she said that she hates me and the whole family as they all put me first (they do not because I never ask them to!)
I asked her why couldn't we just get along, and I also pointed out that if the tables were turned and she was nervously ill I would help her every step of the way because she's my baby sister and that's just what I would do. Her reply was, 'I'm not stopping my life just because you're fucked.'
I haven't cried that much in a long time.
And now I'm simply angry. Ragingly, burning, angry. I cannot even tell you why she blew. I don't even see her that much anymore because I figured out a long time ago that she is basically not a nice person. The only thing I really thought I needed her for was the school run, as our children are in the same school and I really hate the busy playground. As it turns out, I didn't even need her for that, because I did it myself today, and even though I felt extremely nervous and slightly dizzy, I did it and my reward was a big hug from my beautiful boy.
Do any of you guys think I'm a bad person if I cut her out of my life? I really think I need to, but my family is very close-knit and I'm worried I will cause problems by doing this. I just don't want to be around her anymore.