Huffel
11-24-2013, 12:38 PM
Hey guys,
I don't really know where to start this. I have been dealing with all kinds of andiety since I am 14 (just turned 22)(OCD, Depression, Panic Attacks) and I feel like I actually can't take it anymore.. At the moment I am dealing with constant anxiety and waiting for the next panic attack. The feeling itself is killing me. I am not scared of dieing etc during a panic attack. The strong feeling that sometimes seems dangerous and sometimes appealing is that if I sat an end to this the suffering would finally be over. This feeling is so bad that it actually makes me want to kill myself, how horrible is that?! I just want it to stop. I am taking citalopram and in case of emergency I have ativan but I rearly use it. I am in therapy and working hard with meditation etc but I feel like I hit rock bottom just a bit too often.. The big scary thing for me is pain and my therapist pointed out that I have issues with control (which I need to have all the time)...
Please give me your thoughts and input on what to do..
I don't really know where to start this. I have been dealing with all kinds of andiety since I am 14 (just turned 22)(OCD, Depression, Panic Attacks) and I feel like I actually can't take it anymore.. At the moment I am dealing with constant anxiety and waiting for the next panic attack. The feeling itself is killing me. I am not scared of dieing etc during a panic attack. The strong feeling that sometimes seems dangerous and sometimes appealing is that if I sat an end to this the suffering would finally be over. This feeling is so bad that it actually makes me want to kill myself, how horrible is that?! I just want it to stop. I am taking citalopram and in case of emergency I have ativan but I rearly use it. I am in therapy and working hard with meditation etc but I feel like I hit rock bottom just a bit too often.. The big scary thing for me is pain and my therapist pointed out that I have issues with control (which I need to have all the time)...
Please give me your thoughts and input on what to do..