DKendall
11-21-2013, 11:10 AM
Hey everyone, I'm 29, have smoked pot very occasionally since I was 16. When I was 15 I was diagnosed with bi-polar disorder and an anxiety disorder. Hoping not to be judged because of this, please! (the pot smoking)
In the last few weeks before this incident I should mention that my anxiety was at an all time high. I've been taking Ativan like it's candy just to cope. My boyfriend and a buddy of ours went outside for a smoke. I haven't smoked pot in a LONG time and packed a full bowl in my pipe. Well, I was taking huge tokes and smoked almost the whole bowl, which for me was a lot. I felt fine, went inside and laid down and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I started panicking -very- badly. I was sweating, heart racing, and was convinced I was going to have a heart attack, suffocate or die. Or that I was going insane. It lasted for about four hours, and I finally managed to get down a few handfuls of cereal and pass out. I laid in bed with horrendous full-body tremors before I finally succumbed to sleep. When I woke up the next morning I felt better but my boyfriend left for camp for 20 days and that always sets me off a bit anyway, anxiety wise (my anxiety is very bad, I feel the need to mention.) I didn't feel well enough to be alone so I have gone to stay at my parents house for a few days.
Now it is 2 days later and I am not sure what is going on with me but it's scaring me really badly. I am dizzy, have chest pains, nausea, diarrhea, and the dizziness and chest pains increase when I lay down. My anxiety is out of control. I'm having crying fits, overwhelming feelings of dread that wash over me suddenly without warning. My heart will start racing and I am getting these feelings of not being myself, or fear that something is now permanently wrong with me. I did some Googling about cannabis negative effects and found studies linking them to schizophrenia and some personality/reality disorder. Now I am even more worried.
I am not sure if either a) I am getting sick. Or b) the experience was so awful that I am still traumatized by it and feeling the effects. I hope option c) that something is permanently wrong with me now) isn't an option at all. Hoping you guys can help, please :(
In the last few weeks before this incident I should mention that my anxiety was at an all time high. I've been taking Ativan like it's candy just to cope. My boyfriend and a buddy of ours went outside for a smoke. I haven't smoked pot in a LONG time and packed a full bowl in my pipe. Well, I was taking huge tokes and smoked almost the whole bowl, which for me was a lot. I felt fine, went inside and laid down and then it hit me like a ton of bricks. I started panicking -very- badly. I was sweating, heart racing, and was convinced I was going to have a heart attack, suffocate or die. Or that I was going insane. It lasted for about four hours, and I finally managed to get down a few handfuls of cereal and pass out. I laid in bed with horrendous full-body tremors before I finally succumbed to sleep. When I woke up the next morning I felt better but my boyfriend left for camp for 20 days and that always sets me off a bit anyway, anxiety wise (my anxiety is very bad, I feel the need to mention.) I didn't feel well enough to be alone so I have gone to stay at my parents house for a few days.
Now it is 2 days later and I am not sure what is going on with me but it's scaring me really badly. I am dizzy, have chest pains, nausea, diarrhea, and the dizziness and chest pains increase when I lay down. My anxiety is out of control. I'm having crying fits, overwhelming feelings of dread that wash over me suddenly without warning. My heart will start racing and I am getting these feelings of not being myself, or fear that something is now permanently wrong with me. I did some Googling about cannabis negative effects and found studies linking them to schizophrenia and some personality/reality disorder. Now I am even more worried.
I am not sure if either a) I am getting sick. Or b) the experience was so awful that I am still traumatized by it and feeling the effects. I hope option c) that something is permanently wrong with me now) isn't an option at all. Hoping you guys can help, please :(