truth

[mikecole114]

i have problems admiting what im going through
i cant tell anyone because its so selfish and would be attention seeking
i dont wanna die but i dont want pain no more
i wish i could just sleep for a while
how can i tell a friend whats in my head
ive got no real friends left
i trust no one hide from everyone

[mike98t]

I'm with ya and feel for you, I've let all my friendships go an am in the same boat. I put on a strong face so my family does not know! Suffering all alone is no fun

[littleone123]

Nooooo tell someone. It was the best thing Iv ever done. Remember that if people don't suffer it they may find it hard to understand and be a bit confused by it because u may look "ok" on the outside right? But just because they can't see the damage it don't mean it's not there

And

It's not selfish at all :) its a very hard and brave thing to over come and deal with.

[mikecole114]

Nooooo tell someone. It was the best thing Iv ever done. Remember that if people don't suffer it they may find it hard to understand and be a bit confused by it because u may look "ok" on the outside right? But just because they can't see the damage it don't mean it's not there And It's not selfish at all :) its a very hard and brave thing to over come and deal with.

I don't want anyone to know I'm feeling this way as that in itself is admitting I'm weak and thus not good enough. How do things get so much worse

I constantly see myself as the victim the unlucky one or just plain feel sorry for myself. When I don't wanna anymore I want out but have no exit

[DodgingRain]

I know how you feel. Telling people has not really helped me. Some people say they will help you but they never really do. Other people treat you like your fragile and hide things from you. Because of those reactions you trust people even less. Other people say they feel bad for you and that's it, which obviously doesn't solve anything at all and you might as well have said nothing.

Personally I have not had anyone help in any way that matters, if anything it's the opposite and I trust people even less than I used to.

[mikecole114]

I know how you feel. Telling people has not really helped me. Some people say they will help you but they never really do. Other people treat you like your fragile and hide things from you. Because of those reactions you trust people even less. Other people say they feel bad for you and that's it, which obviously doesn't solve anything at all and you might as well have said nothing. Personally I have not had anyone help in any way that matters, if anything it's the opposite and I trust people even less than I used to.

You speak exactly how I feel sometimes I wish I carried on hiding it

[littleone123]

Depends who u tell. My bf has been understanding supportive and even coming to my CBT to carry on supporting me.

[jessed03]

If you're really really close to someone, like little one, or the person has some experience with this, I guess telling them would be helpful. It would release some pressure.

For me it never achieved anything. People will lose patience with you whether you have this or not. They'll think you're weird, whether you tell them the truth or not. I told my workplace I had this, eventually, after some degree of failure, they let me go. It never really got me any favours or even that much understanding from anyone.

Life isn't a charity. People (not all) kinda don't care about your problems, unless they are easily fixable. Not to say they don't want you well and healthy, it's just that, when they are healthy, they don't wanna reroute their lives.

So many studies out there now suggest people go a long way to avoid the sick. One of the biggest types of sickness they try to avoid is mental illness. Most of this is subconscious.

My experience is similar to dodging rains, the people I expected to be there, weren't when it came down to it. Now I just keep things kinda secret. If I feel bad, just say I'm in pain cos of an old sports injury or something.

I had to let my old life before anxiety go. Friends, gfs, work etc... It all changed, I couldn't hold onto any of it in the end. I had to let it all go, get healthy, and rebuild a new one. Trying to manage my old one was a massive failure.

It's upto you whether you want to do so or not, I just wanted to share some experience, as someone further down the line to you. I hope it doesn't ultimately sway your decision, and you just treat it as an anecdotal story. Hope you feel better soon.

[mikecole114]

If you're really really close to someone, like little one, or the person has some experience with this, I guess telling them would be helpful. It would release some pressure. For me it never achieved anything. People will lose patience with you whether you have this or not. They'll think you're weird, whether you tell them the truth or not. I told my workplace I had this, eventually, after some degree of failure, they let me go. It never really got me any favours or even that much understanding from anyone. Life isn't a charity. People (not all) kinda don't care about your problems, unless they are easily fixable. Not to say they don't want you well and healthy, it's just that, when they are healthy, they don't wanna reroute their lives. So many studies out there now suggest people go a long way to avoid the sick. One of the biggest types of sickness they try to avoid is mental illness. Most of this is subconscious. My experience is similar to dodging rains, the people I expected to be there, weren't when it came down to it. Now I just keep things kinda secret. If I feel bad, just say I'm in pain cos of an old sports injury or something. I had to let my old life before anxiety go. Friends, gfs, work etc... It all changed, I couldn't hold onto any of it in the end. I had to let it all go, get healthy, and rebuild a new one. Trying to manage my old one was a massive failure. It's upto you whether you want to do so or not, I just wanted to share some experience, as someone further down the line to you. I hope it doesn't ultimately sway your decision, and you just treat it as an anecdotal story. Hope you feel better soon.


Thankyou all for your posts it's good to hear this is not just me people are changing coz of me but it is my illness

But I have to say I do understand where and why people respond in this way. A couple of years back a friend of mine had really bad OCD and I helped her out what I thought was a lot I had to walk her to school every day and conform too all of he rituals but over time I got less and less interested in helping out something that put me at loss. For example she had a fear of walking a certain way to school so we had to walk a much longer less direct route. Eventually I stopped helping which I feel guilty for now more then ever as I now know what she went through. I recently contacted her and apologised but she held no bad feelings and assured me it was the normal action. I can't help but blame the people in my life doing it to me