Olive Yew
11-16-2013, 10:14 AM
My first period since coming off birth control pills and oh my gosh. I'm so depressed and out of it and shakey and Depersonalized and have this like constant knot of fear under my ribs along with this like... Yawning-pit-in-my-chest feeling too. I've didnt get to sleep until 3:30 last night. I've had 5 hours of sleep. I've cried like 3 times just this morning... And we're not talking little tears, we're talking all out bawling, rocking back and forth holding your chest because you feel you'll come spilling out if you dont hold yourself together type crying. My leg muscles shake and tremor when i use them like they're exhausted even though i've not been exercising recently.
On top of that my cramps are SO bad. They weren't even this bad BEFORE i went on birth control. I'm so depressed and so discouraged. I wish they had such a thing as a 24 hr Anxiety Hotline so people can talk you down from being in distress. And the more reading I do on meds, the less i want to take them. I really want to do therapy but my i cant unless my parents okay it first.
On top of that my cramps are SO bad. They weren't even this bad BEFORE i went on birth control. I'm so depressed and so discouraged. I wish they had such a thing as a 24 hr Anxiety Hotline so people can talk you down from being in distress. And the more reading I do on meds, the less i want to take them. I really want to do therapy but my i cant unless my parents okay it first.