Calli
11-16-2013, 04:09 AM
I new to the group, but not new to anxiety. I have been dealing with severe anxiety, panic attacks, bipolar, depression and OCD for longer then I ever wanted to, and now I feel like I am spiraling out of control and I'm not sure if I am scared just starting to feel comfortable with it. For the past 2 months life has been completely different...my husband decided that it was really hard for him to deal with my anxiety...I so bad wanted to scream at him, if its this hard for you, live in my shoes for just a month...but I stayed nice. He told me that he just didn't know how to handle me anymore....this broke my heart. We have been married for 8 years, together for 10...so this just did things to my heart I could not understand. I started pulling away from him, building up walls that I didn't want anyone to climb or break through. He has starts taking counseling, coping skills tying to deal with me, but there was a lot of damage done in my heart when he said he could no longer handle me.
He has a "mancave" that he tends to run to and spend all his time, so even if he is home, he isn't home with me, he is home with his computer and his video games. He spends all his time there and I spend all my day alone upstairs, until my kids get home, then I get communication, someone to hangout with, human interaction. I used to want to be around him...but now I am thinking I am getting used to not being with him. Wonder if I need him at all, or if he needs me.
He has a "mancave" that he tends to run to and spend all his time, so even if he is home, he isn't home with me, he is home with his computer and his video games. He spends all his time there and I spend all my day alone upstairs, until my kids get home, then I get communication, someone to hangout with, human interaction. I used to want to be around him...but now I am thinking I am getting used to not being with him. Wonder if I need him at all, or if he needs me.