Am I going crazy?

[Monica0331]

Hi,
Im new to this I guess I will start with my story about 4 months ago I had my first panic attack just watching a movie and it hit me like a ton of bricks I thought I was dying....Ever since then its been in and out of emergency rooms. Ive had an mri a chest xray blood work an ekg..but nothing makes me feel better...I just feel like they are missing something and Im doomed to die. I feel like no one takes me seriously even my boyfriend is worn out. Did I mention we have four children..I can barely take care of me somedays. I dont know how to stop this my doctor just prescribed me Paxil and Im so scared why do I feel physically like this if its all in my head...its 24/7 I have no relief. Can this really be anxiety?

[PanicPhobia]

You're not crazy. I have been in psychiatric hospitals before and have met some "really" crazy people. I have learned that those who are crazy typically don't know they are (schizophrenia mostly). Actually I don't like the word "crazy" because I find it to be a slur against people suffering from a disease that is not their fault. Just as schizophrenia is not the fault of the patient, anxiety is not your fault either. It really is something going on with the brain (not physically but chemically). You just need to talk to the right doctor who can get you on the right anxiety medication. Therapy helps too.

[jessed03]

I think Kev said something on here, that was probably the best I've heard it said...

'Its not in your head, but of your head'

Sure, there's a reaction happening in your brain, but not something you can just snap out of. You can't just positive think it away one morning before breakfast (sadly, right?). It's a very very powerful built in survival system that has been activated, and needs to reactivate.

It takes time. Like Kev also said, face and stop feeding the fear. Try not to listen to it. It honestly hasn't got a clue what it's talking about. Just because it says something may be wrong, it doesn't mean it is.

We've all felt that crazy feeling, I swear, and it usually passes with time and knowledge.

Learn about what's happening, so it doesn't scare you. It's a natural, albeit it wrong place wrong time process, that's happening to you. It isn't something to read into or fear, but simply something to understand.

Feel better soon :)