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lannace91
11-05-2013, 03:44 PM
Hello,

(sighs)

My name is Lana (or that's at least the name I'd prefer you called me) and I am 22. I'm a midwestern, United States undergraduate college student who is studying Speech-Language Pathology & Audiology, which I always think of as funny as I rarely ever like to speak (still working on it, however!)

I have always known I struggled with anxiety and often struggle with depression. So much I have missed out on in life and am still not able to experience because of it. For the first time in my life I am on medication (Zoloft, 50mg/day) while regularly going to counseling, but still don't feel any real improvements yet. Time and further therapy and maybe a higher Zoloft dosage will tell... but while I am trying to be optimistic I still constantly worry. (sighs)

I decided to come to this forum to hopefully find support and maybe even some friends? In person, I know I am a likable person, but my real friendships in the past almost always stemmed from some contact on a shared interest web-forum, so I am hoping that after years of trying solely to find friends in person, and not doing very well, I might add, that I can try and make connections this way, build up my confidence, and with medication and counseling, eventually get myself to the point where I know I can make friends through in-person interactions first.

Anywho, my boyfriend saw me writing this and told me not to forget " to annotate 'failure'" in my "anxiety diary" when I failed to turn off his computer after using it as a joke. (Am also hoping I can get relationship advice? LOL. :)

Nice to meet you all!

NeverToo...Fear
11-05-2013, 04:24 PM
Hey, Lana, welcome to the AF forums..

I know it's hard to remain optimistic when we are plagued with constant worry...but we can't help who we are can we?

Anyway, it's great that you joined! No doubt you'll find support and some friends here! ..... :)

PanicPhobia
11-05-2013, 04:29 PM
You're only 22, so there's no a lot you have missed out on yet. Think of it that way because it's true.

And your social anxiety can't be that bad because you do have a BF. Some people with really bad anxiety can't manage relationships at all (or are too shy to even approach someone of the opposite sex).

Not trying to downplay your anxiety, but am just sorta letting you know to keep your head up and focus on the positives of what you do have.

lannace91
11-05-2013, 05:03 PM
Hi again PanicPhobia. Luckily I met him online actually. After awhile we started dating. So that was awesome. I do mostly consider that a positive, but I still feel very lonely. I just can't connect well to others like I want, and as much as my BF loves me, he has little patience for my anxiety and depression... so the sooner I can feel more of a lift with my treatment, the happier I'll be.

lannace91
11-05-2013, 05:04 PM
Hey, Lana, welcome to the AF forums..

I know it's hard to remain optimistic when we are plagued with constant worry...but we can't help who we are can we?

Anyway, it's great that you joined! No doubt you'll find support and some friends here! ..... :)


Thanks a lot. That was very reassuring. I consider this a big step, ad with a meeting tomorrow with my doctor, I'm sure they'll agree when I tell them. Finding good support has been the hardest, I think. :)