MoreCowbell
01-03-2008, 03:42 PM
Hi Everyone,
I'm new to this site obviously. Wanted to find a site where I can talk to others who are suffering from anxiety.
I'm married and we have a 3 year old boy. I come from parents who divorced when I was 3, and my dad really wasn't that good. So I think that I've had anxiety since I was very young. I didn't want to go with my dad when it was his turn to take me every other weekend, but instead wanted to go with my Grandparents. So I would stress out about it because he would never tell me where I was going. When I would find out I was going to my grandparents, I was overcome with relief. I think that up and down and all the other stuff that went on by me being in the middle, created this anxiety.
I didn't start taking anything until 2004 (paxil), but at a very low dosage. When my wife and I had our boy, I went full on into him and devoted all my attention to him because I didn't want to be like my dad. Well, I'm a very good dad, but I've totally neglected my wife. She was affraid to say anything to me because she thought my anxiety would get out of control again. I just burried all my other emotions except for with my son, and as a result I've neglected her. It all came to a head over Christmas, and since then my anxiety has been off the charts bad.
I'm nervous we'll get a divorce, and because of the anxiety, I'm snowballing things and just getting all over the place. She's said she loves me, but still doesn't know how she's feeling about everything. We're going to a marriage counselor on Sat, so I'm holding out hope that things can get better.
I've already started to make changes, and open up to her and to other people, but these issues we have as a result is looming, and not allowing me any comfort.
I hate anxiety and it's so hard to deal with. Sorry this is so long, but I just wanted to get stuff off my chest to people who understand.
Thanks for reading.
I'm new to this site obviously. Wanted to find a site where I can talk to others who are suffering from anxiety.
I'm married and we have a 3 year old boy. I come from parents who divorced when I was 3, and my dad really wasn't that good. So I think that I've had anxiety since I was very young. I didn't want to go with my dad when it was his turn to take me every other weekend, but instead wanted to go with my Grandparents. So I would stress out about it because he would never tell me where I was going. When I would find out I was going to my grandparents, I was overcome with relief. I think that up and down and all the other stuff that went on by me being in the middle, created this anxiety.
I didn't start taking anything until 2004 (paxil), but at a very low dosage. When my wife and I had our boy, I went full on into him and devoted all my attention to him because I didn't want to be like my dad. Well, I'm a very good dad, but I've totally neglected my wife. She was affraid to say anything to me because she thought my anxiety would get out of control again. I just burried all my other emotions except for with my son, and as a result I've neglected her. It all came to a head over Christmas, and since then my anxiety has been off the charts bad.
I'm nervous we'll get a divorce, and because of the anxiety, I'm snowballing things and just getting all over the place. She's said she loves me, but still doesn't know how she's feeling about everything. We're going to a marriage counselor on Sat, so I'm holding out hope that things can get better.
I've already started to make changes, and open up to her and to other people, but these issues we have as a result is looming, and not allowing me any comfort.
I hate anxiety and it's so hard to deal with. Sorry this is so long, but I just wanted to get stuff off my chest to people who understand.
Thanks for reading.