cserpico
10-23-2013, 02:54 PM
so i have had anger problems my entire life. now with my PTSD and panic attacks i can sometimes react to certain situations with violence, in fact, just about a week ago i got into a situation where i got smacked across the face with a baseball bat which broke my nose and left a bone deep gash on my cheek. i havent been in therapy for years but i start again nov 4. my old therapist told me that the reason i react so easily with violence is because panic attacks send us into fight or flight mode and given my upbringing i choose "fight".
anyways, someone in the forum gave me the advise to swing my arms around or dance or something when i feel a panic attack coming on and it goes away so i tried that. i kind of jumped around and then shadow boxed for a while and it actually did seem to help, at least until the ativan took effect. but i have been trying this type of meditation that seems to go against that, it tells me to notice my uncomfortable sensations, focus on them, accept them and them let them pass. i guess in theory that should teach my brain in the long term to let those feelings come and go instead of dwelling on them to the point where it dumps adrenaline and turns it into a full blown panic attack. the dancing or whatever, while it seemed to work seems to me like in the long run teaches my brain to ignore the symptoms rather than face them and learn to control them. what if i am out in public, at a bar or something and i start feeling an attack coming on? i certainly cant just get up and start punching the air.
any thoughts?
anyways, someone in the forum gave me the advise to swing my arms around or dance or something when i feel a panic attack coming on and it goes away so i tried that. i kind of jumped around and then shadow boxed for a while and it actually did seem to help, at least until the ativan took effect. but i have been trying this type of meditation that seems to go against that, it tells me to notice my uncomfortable sensations, focus on them, accept them and them let them pass. i guess in theory that should teach my brain in the long term to let those feelings come and go instead of dwelling on them to the point where it dumps adrenaline and turns it into a full blown panic attack. the dancing or whatever, while it seemed to work seems to me like in the long run teaches my brain to ignore the symptoms rather than face them and learn to control them. what if i am out in public, at a bar or something and i start feeling an attack coming on? i certainly cant just get up and start punching the air.
any thoughts?