Alexcambridge
12-27-2007, 08:09 PM
Hi
Well basically I think I have an anxiety disorder. I've never been diagnosed, but maybe I should I don't know. Now that I think about it I've always felt somewhat uncomfortable and anxious, always worried what other people would think of me. But all those symptoms were psychological so to speak, no physical symptoms. That lasted until around 3 years ago, then went away. But recently my symptoms seem to have come back in force.
It started with a strange feeling of confusion which would come and go, which I now understand to be 'feeling detatched from reality'. I never had that before. Over a few months this has sort of evolved into something much bigger. I've also got incredible hypochondria now which I have never had before, it's a new and weird experience and also very scary. I've thought that there's something really serious wrong with my brain - like a brain tumor, encephalitis or meningitis (even though encephalitis or meningitis wouldn't be possible because I haven't died or got better!). I still panic that I have a brain tumor though, because I also get headaches - not really painful ones, just minor aches that seem to shoot through my head sometimes. They seem to be focused behind my eyes anyway. I also have a tense scalp, which is sometimes itchy, and a stiff neck.
Sometimes when I'm in the 'dream world' I suddenly have a moment of realisation like:
"wait a minute...this is actually me here. this is happening to me in real life."
This is incredibly scary and I get a sort of adrenaline rush and i panic. I've managed to bring this under control a bit by realising that it is just detatchment from reality and there is nothing actually to be scared of...it's just me in a room with nothing to distract my anxious mind. I always feel better if I read or watch TV because I get properly distracted.
I also have exams coming up in mid/late January. They are important exams and I really need to knuckle down and revise as I want to go to university next year. But I'm worried that I won't be able to remember anything, my memory seems really leaky at the moment. I'm worried I won't be able to concentrate or think, and it will only get worse when I actually go back to college in January.
And to make matters worse, part of me still thinks that I have a brain tumor. Grrr this is really frustrating.
Well basically I think I have an anxiety disorder. I've never been diagnosed, but maybe I should I don't know. Now that I think about it I've always felt somewhat uncomfortable and anxious, always worried what other people would think of me. But all those symptoms were psychological so to speak, no physical symptoms. That lasted until around 3 years ago, then went away. But recently my symptoms seem to have come back in force.
It started with a strange feeling of confusion which would come and go, which I now understand to be 'feeling detatched from reality'. I never had that before. Over a few months this has sort of evolved into something much bigger. I've also got incredible hypochondria now which I have never had before, it's a new and weird experience and also very scary. I've thought that there's something really serious wrong with my brain - like a brain tumor, encephalitis or meningitis (even though encephalitis or meningitis wouldn't be possible because I haven't died or got better!). I still panic that I have a brain tumor though, because I also get headaches - not really painful ones, just minor aches that seem to shoot through my head sometimes. They seem to be focused behind my eyes anyway. I also have a tense scalp, which is sometimes itchy, and a stiff neck.
Sometimes when I'm in the 'dream world' I suddenly have a moment of realisation like:
"wait a minute...this is actually me here. this is happening to me in real life."
This is incredibly scary and I get a sort of adrenaline rush and i panic. I've managed to bring this under control a bit by realising that it is just detatchment from reality and there is nothing actually to be scared of...it's just me in a room with nothing to distract my anxious mind. I always feel better if I read or watch TV because I get properly distracted.
I also have exams coming up in mid/late January. They are important exams and I really need to knuckle down and revise as I want to go to university next year. But I'm worried that I won't be able to remember anything, my memory seems really leaky at the moment. I'm worried I won't be able to concentrate or think, and it will only get worse when I actually go back to college in January.
And to make matters worse, part of me still thinks that I have a brain tumor. Grrr this is really frustrating.