M814
10-19-2013, 09:47 PM
Hello,
Im new to the forum. I just googled "anxiety forum" and this was the first one that came up. So Im hoping to get some advice, input, suggestions or anything with my anxiety issues.
I am a 35 year old single mother of a 17 year old girl. My anxiety started in 2004. I finally went to the dr about it in 2005. I now see a psychiatrist and a therapist for it. I am on 60mg Prozac and 30 mg Buspar. The Prozac is once a day and the Buspar is three times a day.
Anyway, on to my issues:
I kind of have "ups and downs" you could call it with my anxiety. Sometimes I feel fine and theres none and other times its through the roof. When I have a few good days, I think to myself, "Great maybe this is a start of something good. Maybe my anxiety will make a turn around and Ill finally start to feel better" then within the next few days, it never fails. My anxiety is back in full force. Lately its been anxiety about my daughters relationship with her boyfriend. Shes only 17 and theyve been together for 3 years. Minus 5 months that they broke up for. But now they are back together. They argue a lot and I cannot stand to see her upset, so when she is upset, I get concerned. So I always ask her if everything is ok with them and stuff. Then today she tells me she feels like I get too involved in her relationship with her boyfriend. She says I interfere. I dont feel that I do but she says I ask too many questions. My daughter and I have always been very close and she literally tells me everything, even if its going to make me mad. So when she said all of this, it upset me. I always constantly have it in my head that he isnt treating her right or theyre going to break up and if that happens I know my daughter will be devastated. Its on my mind almost from the time I wake up til the time I go to bed at night. Its so bad that it makes me nauseous, I get headaches, I feel weak, when I do go to sleep I sleep a long time, It makes me feel shaky. I cant stand the feeling. I just want to feel normal again. I dont want her to think Im too concerned and involved in her relationship but at the same time I cant stand to see her upset and it bothers me. Sometimes I think about it so much that I feel like Im going to lose my mind. Im not bipolar or schizophrenic. I have depression, OCD and anxiety. So in a way I guess you could say I obsess over my thoughts A LOT. I always fear the worst of every single situation. Sometimes the things I do I have to do in 3's, 5's or 7's. Like checking to see if I unplugged something. I know Ive checked but yet I still go back and check again over and over again. I hate it. I hate feeling like this. It seems like the only time Im happy is when I go to bed. I work 20 hours a week so on days I work I am up at 7am. On days I dont work, I can easily sleep from 1am to about 2 - 2:30pm the next day. And another thing, for the last few months my daughter has got progressively mouthier with me. If I tell her to do something she says "It would be nice if youd ask instead of spitting orders out at me all the time" then even when I do ask she doesnt do what I asked anyway. She works, the only bill she helps me with is the cellphone bill. Nothing else. I pay everything else by myself.
Im sorry I feel like Ive gone on and on with my issues but its the only way I know how to explain how I feel and whats going on with me.
Hopefully some of you can give me some kind of input. Like, do you have these same feelings or am I alone on this? What can I do to help relieve this? Why am I obsessing over things that have nothing to do with me? Theres more I could post but I dont want to make this post any longer than I already have so Im going to end it here. Ill add more as the discussion goes on.
Thanks everyone for taking the time to read this.
Im new to the forum. I just googled "anxiety forum" and this was the first one that came up. So Im hoping to get some advice, input, suggestions or anything with my anxiety issues.
I am a 35 year old single mother of a 17 year old girl. My anxiety started in 2004. I finally went to the dr about it in 2005. I now see a psychiatrist and a therapist for it. I am on 60mg Prozac and 30 mg Buspar. The Prozac is once a day and the Buspar is three times a day.
Anyway, on to my issues:
I kind of have "ups and downs" you could call it with my anxiety. Sometimes I feel fine and theres none and other times its through the roof. When I have a few good days, I think to myself, "Great maybe this is a start of something good. Maybe my anxiety will make a turn around and Ill finally start to feel better" then within the next few days, it never fails. My anxiety is back in full force. Lately its been anxiety about my daughters relationship with her boyfriend. Shes only 17 and theyve been together for 3 years. Minus 5 months that they broke up for. But now they are back together. They argue a lot and I cannot stand to see her upset, so when she is upset, I get concerned. So I always ask her if everything is ok with them and stuff. Then today she tells me she feels like I get too involved in her relationship with her boyfriend. She says I interfere. I dont feel that I do but she says I ask too many questions. My daughter and I have always been very close and she literally tells me everything, even if its going to make me mad. So when she said all of this, it upset me. I always constantly have it in my head that he isnt treating her right or theyre going to break up and if that happens I know my daughter will be devastated. Its on my mind almost from the time I wake up til the time I go to bed at night. Its so bad that it makes me nauseous, I get headaches, I feel weak, when I do go to sleep I sleep a long time, It makes me feel shaky. I cant stand the feeling. I just want to feel normal again. I dont want her to think Im too concerned and involved in her relationship but at the same time I cant stand to see her upset and it bothers me. Sometimes I think about it so much that I feel like Im going to lose my mind. Im not bipolar or schizophrenic. I have depression, OCD and anxiety. So in a way I guess you could say I obsess over my thoughts A LOT. I always fear the worst of every single situation. Sometimes the things I do I have to do in 3's, 5's or 7's. Like checking to see if I unplugged something. I know Ive checked but yet I still go back and check again over and over again. I hate it. I hate feeling like this. It seems like the only time Im happy is when I go to bed. I work 20 hours a week so on days I work I am up at 7am. On days I dont work, I can easily sleep from 1am to about 2 - 2:30pm the next day. And another thing, for the last few months my daughter has got progressively mouthier with me. If I tell her to do something she says "It would be nice if youd ask instead of spitting orders out at me all the time" then even when I do ask she doesnt do what I asked anyway. She works, the only bill she helps me with is the cellphone bill. Nothing else. I pay everything else by myself.
Im sorry I feel like Ive gone on and on with my issues but its the only way I know how to explain how I feel and whats going on with me.
Hopefully some of you can give me some kind of input. Like, do you have these same feelings or am I alone on this? What can I do to help relieve this? Why am I obsessing over things that have nothing to do with me? Theres more I could post but I dont want to make this post any longer than I already have so Im going to end it here. Ill add more as the discussion goes on.
Thanks everyone for taking the time to read this.