List Something Positive You Did Today?

[Enduronman]

1. Let some people cut in line at the grocery..nearly regretted it. I made it though..
2. Bought some giant hams for two needy families. Dropped one off.
3. Tried twice to mail a package to London,..failed, but I tried. A for effort.
4. Went to insurance company and picked up a check, because of an insurance error.
5. Thoroughly enjoyed the quick turn around of a couple of our forum members, exciting, exilerating somewhat. Happy for them!
6. Had a good day overall...:)

[Dahila]

I was charming for the last two days, even my anxiety went up to the roof. I did good, I was enjoying the company, especially when I looked at the faces and seen the ones I remembered from 40 years ago. I did the best tarot reading of my life, having trusting and not blocked person across the table , helped. She was happy after that, I calm her worries, it was good thing:)) The most important I could manage my fear opening the Pandoras can:)

[Ponder]

That's Awesome Dahila ... Glad to see you again as well!

[Dahila]

Ponder I missed you and I missed a bunch of other people, you know who? :))

[Ponder]

Yea, I hope they are having a good break.

please forgive my spelling over the next few weeks. I have packed my big computer away. I was going to sell it, however have decided to keep it, as I simply can't aford to get another one. I will just have to ensure that I don't set it up in a small room next time!

I did however acomplish a goal. I packed my trailer and have prepared another room for cleaning.

[Dahila]

I can not understand your selling big computer, my huge computer is my most valuable possession. I would guard it with my body. Do not buy laptop they get hot so easily and start screwing up. Life of laptop is like 3 years. Leter on they are old and out of date and everything starts to break down. I am ok with selling everything but computer. oooooooooooooooo sorry you decided to keep it, that's the best decision. In maybe a year (if I am alive) I will have to pack the house and move to another. My hubby needs the house on one floor, due his difficulties with walking. In the last 8 years we collected so much junk , even typical Canadian would say my house is empty. :)
I am terrified when I think about moving.
I had a break but I end up with my first panic attack in the last 5 months:)) as I said somewhere, it is easier for me to be antisocial:) Have a wonderful day Dave:)

[Ponder]

It is Good to be speaking with you again. That big computer of mine, I did a lot of work to build that. I researched for quite some time to ensure each part was matched perfectly. It was build to be overclocked. I spent over 2 Thousnds doallars in parts alone making the custom build worh 4 grand to anyone who wish to buy off the shelf. It's actually a pinacle to my love in building computers.

Your statements regarding Laptops is quite right. I have been through a number of those and ussually pull them apart to clow them out and re-seat the components that allow for such reinstalation and then apply other cooling methods. At any rate, even if I did have a spare 5 grand, weather a laptop exists that would = my current desktop.
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None the less Dahila, I have packed it away, and will still be giving a great deal of thought as to how I can in future allacate my time more apropiately. Here is a picture of my current Kitchen Set Up:

http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/IMG_20131219_070800_zpslztk201q.jpg (http://s181.photobucket.com/user/davekyn/media/IMG_20131219_070800_zpslztk201q.jpg.html)

It is an Asus Transformer 101 About two years old now. 10inch screen - Runs on the latest Android OS - The keyboard Dock makes for a tottal of aprox 16 hours run time - however less depending on how long I sap the power with uploading and various other applications run. I do however plug it in as I am aware of how to maximise the batteries on such devices to get the most out of the longterm. Most people kill batteries by using them when they could still plug in. bla bla srry can't help rave with this kind of thing. I am able to download pictures from my DSLR if I change the picture settings to the lowest JPG format and use an AP called DSLR Controller. I then just plug in to were you can see the USB stick curretnly pictured and then make the transfer from that app into the gallery, then upload to Photobucket and finally get the image code for this forum post. Perhaps a little more involved, however it allows for my DSLR to be used and uploaded on scene which I like. I have a little mobile router which I can use for the internet when not home, however don't often use it because of high prices in Australia for such mobile services. The speakers pictured are lithum speakers and perform really well! Very loud whilst retaining quality - stereo as well! Last for 10 hours on thier own, but with my 16amp USB battery pack also pictured I get weeks on end out of them. Unfortuanatley this Asus Transformer will not charge of that 5V usb battery pack - it is a 6V device - having siad that though, the ipad will run off it. Not to worry I will have a nice little solar setup soon. I hate being on grid! Power has gone up another 20% in Astralia - for everyone!

Note the little Nexus7 I slid underneath next to the keyboard. That one I take pretty much everywhere. I have a USB dongle for that as well. It will run my wireless keybaord and mouse + also surf from my mobil wi/fi devices(saves having to buy expensive 3G devices!) - Also I can hook up my DSLR and use it for uplaoding as well as an extra display instead of the one on the back of my camera. I have taken it on rides me with and actually sat in the parks to write up posts that I post in here.

Well I think thats enough about my gadgets for now - I will have to look into some kind of spell check no doubt. Hmmmmmmm - I am so saw from the heavy lifting! Another reason to go as light as I can. People just don't help eachother like they used to you know. Hell - I used to get out and help people push thier cars at traffic lights, now all people can be bothered doing, is despising others for breaking down. Grrrr

I really must get on with cleaning all the outside windows today and cleaning whats in the shed to pack some more gear. We have an application for a house being looked out now. In fact I have been using google maps to check out the best bike routes to the beach and also where the good bench spots our to draw and make posts - as well as fish. I can't wait to start fishing again. I use to be good a making friends - hope I can make one whilst out and about.

I am extremely anxious about driving a rental truck up there though! I will have no one with me in the truck as my wife has to drive the car and trailer - my son will be with her, due to her fatuige. I also have to leave earlier - so Lisa can stick around for the carpet clearners and others plus hand in keys. It's going to be a huge day that one . SIGH ... I get really flustered when the road goes from being open and houses start to appear - then more cross roads - I serisouly get sick with worry about such things and cant think where to go. I will be getting a cheap mobile only for this move - I hate mobile phones and detest people who act all Gooey when you tell them you dont have one.

Will try and print out a few pages and have them in some kind of order to get me close to the street adress whatever its going to be. Alas, this is the extent of my Anxiety - People can say - oh yea - we all suffer that, getting confused in a new area, however I will often be on the road lost, with someone having to come get me. It is quite a serious thing with me and it's why I don't work and my therapsit help me get on disability. Quite Ironic how I can build a state of the art gaming system for high end PC users, but can't fucking drive to the next town! When people ring the house phone, I have to get my wife to take the details as I forget by the time they finish thier sentence - I also often ask them to send request in email - which is very good for skirty around the BS and having things in writting. People just sell so much BS over the phone and then when the shit hits the fan, they act like they never said a thing ---

I think with the this whole truck thing, I am going to take one of my camp chairs and pull over when I get dizzy - check my maps and all that as I go. I best get these windows done - pack some more and get things ready.

Thanks for listeing Dahila - I wish you well and have missed very much speaking with you. I know I have others in here to chat with, but you are more my era and understand me well.

Take care - I hope tails spin is OK????????????????

[Dahila]

I am frigging impressed, I love what I see, I wonder how you keep them cool in such weather. Oh I could listen for another ten hours, if you only know how crazy I am about my computer. I am ready to upgrade even mine is really not that old two years or so. My son build it, I thought about i7 processor. My motherboard is asus and I love it. It works like a charm. My smart son put there a huge fan which keep the temps lower than 50 c. Is that router D-link? Well I coming to Australia and I will look into your computer. Mine is gaming but not that powerful. I do not play because of all the projects I carry on. No time for anything. Dave we are the way we are, not better no worse. I do believe every person has an incredible potential. You can not be everything. Look at the comp you build. Do you still have any doubts how talented you are? For people in middle age (no me though, I am more than middle age, I am kind of ancient) building computer and following the technology is a very difficult task. I am lost sometimes, no I am lost most of the time, it takes a lot of hours to find myway. I knock the door to my best friend google and search for answers. When you know how to search it is easy. Most people in my age panick when they get malware. No explaining works on them, they believe that viruses come to their computer whenever they want and that they can not prevent it.
I stopped explaining how they get it, and what is the different between malware, or virus or worm. Any way you have a time to move, then I need to see some really good picks. Take a moment to sit and just enjoy that something good is in your life:)) Remember how to breath, slowly down there, stop for a sec and let it out slowly.
I will always listen to you:)

[Ponder]

POSITIVE STUFF:

Had a few good rants -

Trailer fully packed and car now packed for the big road trip tomorrow.

Yard mowed and whipper snipped

Kitchen cleaned

Mobile for emergency contact only (HATE MOBILE PHONES!)

Put Bins Out

Had a shower

Drank enough Water

Have absorbed the tension of others in the house " like a passing leaf!" Hahar

May you find yourself tomorrow no more than you have today.

[robotcat]

Today I...

Took a shower.
Gave gifts to my coworkers.
Made it through the work day without too many bumps.
Will go out for a Christmas Eve dinner shortly.

[Dahila]

Got up early, the bread is rising. Snowing, light snow - 8 with a lot of suuuuuuuun.

[BlessedMom]

I received hugs from my children :)

[Dahila]

I received many hugs and happy smiles on my girls faces. That's what made worth the shopping for gifts and slaving at the stove.... My grandchild was very happy with the gift I got for her (santa)\
I wish my son was here, but at least I got my message from him in my mother tongue, which is extremely difficult for him to use it. :)) It was a good positive day:)

[Ponder]

:) .........

[Ponder]

Last night I pulled out an old portable shortwave radio receiver and listening to some of the local ham radio operators as well as some from across the country.

I had fun - and I was off the computer :)

[Ponder]

OH yea - have been doing a lot more walking of late. This is a shot my wife took of me walking along the new place - I was thinking this is going to be a good move. The water when not so many on the bay is quite good for my mind:

http://i181.photobucket.com/albums/x30/davekyn/DSC_0001_zpsjvoi1ldv.jpg (http://s181.photobucket.com/user/davekyn/media/DSC_0001_zpsjvoi1ldv.jpg.html)

The sun is also good for my wifes MS too :)

[Cullingford]

That looks awsome that makes me just want to walk and never turn around.

[Ponder]

Hi cullingford - nice to see your username pop up. I still remember well your own photo you put up! This afternoon, my wife and I pulled out the camp chairs and sat up close to waters edge, on high tide on the other side of that peak -> in front of me there. I am really pleased with how much my wife is talking about walking around the beach - I explained how this was like bushwalking to me and that perhaps we could become beach combers together. Some parts of the bay become calmer waters depending on time and tide ... Lisa even said she might consider a Kayak if we both lose some weight. I can not say how relieved I am to hear my wife talk like this.

It was not too busy considering the time of the year - we made an effort to get away from the crowed. There was like only one other older couple having a salt bath about 50ish meters, two pups splashing about with two families max and a few kids with body boards. Pelicans flew on in to join the dogs as they were jumping about - The were some clouds about which offered up excellent contrast for good seeing. The clouds kind of grew a little thicker with a burst of rays falling out to the side hitting the background of water nearer the horizon side.

One major point I noted out of all this, was how much younger the older couple looked on there way out. He looked over at us sitting and watching as we were and said "Hard Life Hey" - I rolled my head his way, paused but smiled as soon as I saw his - Stunned at how different the man looked compared to when he made his way in, I just said "Yes" and kept my smile for a little more, before returning gaze and pondering on the contrasting views. Lisa says "you sure that's the same couple" - "Absolutely" I replied.

Wish us luck with our rental applications.

Dude .... it's good to see your username again ;)

[Dahila]

I hope you get your rental, place like that helps to get the peace of mind. walking on the beech and listening the waves gives me such pleasure and peace.....send some of that to us Ponder. Fantastic

[Cullingford]

Arrgh i keep losing my post fingers crossed here with your application, Im glad your all so posive about your move.

[Cullingford]

Its got there I was starting to string a really long list of obsenities to call this computer.
I was born and have lived most my life within earshot of the sea, its so nice just to be able to wander down there and look for treasure, a few years back a cargo ship lost alot timber here, there was wood as far as you could see. I managed to collect loads and am still using it to build stuff with, a real bonus.
As Frankie says free therapy, Im still on holiday from work and got another good walk in today. Im feeling so good at the moment must be all this fresh air.:D

I get a good feeling that the move is going to work for you and hopefully it will be the start of a very enjoyable chapter in your life.

[AmberGbenga]

It's a new day for me now, just going to work.

But yesterday.. I went to the docs and discussed my perfect results from my blood, an anxiety group I can attend and free personal training sessions! I then visited a distressed friend, helped her, went to the gym, went to work for a meeting, went to the shops and did some grocery shopping, visited another friend and she vented to me, as I did to her over a cuppa tea, went home had a shower, wrote down buzzing thoughts in my head over a cup of camomile tea, when finally heading to bed, lighting up my lavender candle, meditating.. Then struggling to get to sleep.. Anxiety crept in.. But unlike the last 2 nights.. I've been anle to calm myself down faster, distract myself and finally fall asleep :)

[AmberGbenga]

Thank you Frankie! It was a good day :)

[jessy]

I had a file & polish on my nails today despite being in hellish pain .

[Dahila]

Fall down the stairs....again

[Ponder]

glad it's working for you cullingford :)

What happened Dahila??? That does not sound good?

I got rid of more STUFF!

[Dahila]

I do not know, it seems that I have pressure on femoral nerve, scary, two days on the road, heheh I am blue all over my body. I envy you, getting rid of stuff is good, it makes a space for a new ones , not necessary physical ones....It is so nice to see man :))

[Ponder]

I do hope that settles some time soon Dahila.

Getting rid of stuff makes us feel lighter and ready to move as soon as we can. Things not looking good there. The rental applications now want to know the make and models of our cars - that is not a good sign as such is rather suggestive to the selection of people they choose - With two of us not working - and being evicted at the same time we gave them a remedy breach - Hmmmmmmmm - My wife is getting really upset with having to constantly prove our worth each time we apply - bit like the job hunting for those of us that don't't have the skills -

But that's sad stuff and this thread is about Positive things

POSITIVE _ doing physically well off my meds - Purging all the same, but NOT going to use it as an excuse to give up so early on.
I bought some good food - healthy choices - paid nearly all I got - but its good to be feeling so - hmmm - fuck it all - I'm going to get phsycially well kind of thing! You know - when you make that desicion to just do it and then you do it - I am at that point now!

Side effect, Is I really dont have time for others BS - but I'm feeling great about that for now - I just be careful around my wife - I'll just have a huge smile when she looks at me, then I'll be all googly eyed until she looks my way again --- LOL --- I really laugh to think how that's been - I even think she laughed one or twice when she caught be being highly strung in the shops - when I gave you a belated smile whilst googling the cameras in the aisles ...........

Seriously - it's just stuff that has to come out, whilst I go to work on the toxified body of mine.
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I'm truly wishing you well Dahila --- please excuse me manic posts else where in the forum, not that you have had time to read -------- Be well.

[Dahila]

Thank Dave, Oh it must be tough to smile when you do not feel like doing it. Have been there and it is tough.
We could do everything for the people we love. I am happy you doing the progress. Going of the meds is my plan in future, because maybe they help but they do damage too.
Food; you know how obsessed I am about food choices. I do not want to touch GMO foods so I make everything from scratch. I believe the junk we buy in the stores is what add to our misery.
You spend everything but look at treasures you got :)
The rental is a bitch, is it not? I was renting for so many years, till I met my partner. It was awful, in Canada you have to give them all sources of income, they tried to go on my bank account too., Somehow I did not let them. I was living with my children in rent controlled complex. Gosh it was a nightmare.... It seems that landlords in Australia are the same Ass*****s as Canadian landlords,.
I wish you a happy New year and I hope all the problems will go away :))

[jenmarrrr]

I really enjoyed reading through this thread.. Seeing the positive things people accomplished despite their depression gave me some hope. Hmmm as for me... Today I baked a welcome home cake for my boyfriend (he comes home from vacation on Friday and I it's him terribly) and I worked on a painting I've been doing. Painting is very relaxing for me and helps my depression and anxiety
Hope everyone had wonderful days, continue your positive and triumphant accomplishments.

[Ponder]

Hi jenmarrrr - do you mean like drawing/painting - not painting the walls. I am going to do drawing with the intent later to paint scenery.

Positive today ---- going for another walk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Ponder]

I am so happy you have been able to walk as well frankie, and no matter how much or far you went - I am just so pleased that someone else is putting it up as a postive.

Dahila - so sorry I missed your post this morning. BIG HUG for you Dahila - you have inspire me big time since I have been here. I will soon be back to me nature side! I really really liked how we talked in tune on such things. So sad about MSG - I know about that too. Although it can be hard to avoid such foods whilst out and about, today we did our best by having a "Sumo Sald" it's the best thing I have come across for a fast food outself. I don't do well with rice and glutton so have had to give the sushi the flick. Now I know of the Salad Place - I will make sure if we ever give in and get take away, that we will make the effort to go to this salad place!

Postive today - Ate Salad whilst I was out.

I don't like Subway as too much bread and its bad bread as far as I am think - the cheese is rather cheap as well. This salad place used more natural ingrdiants, however yes, there where a few bad things as well. none the less - we could of done far worse. Again - Big Hugs to you Dahlia (O) - :)

[Dahila]

Thank you Dave, you are my inspiration also.
Mix of romaine lettuce, cheak peas and tuna and garlic, put some lemon on it. It is delicious and very filling. I use any beans i have for it. Unfortunately from the can.
I had a wonderful time here today. In another thread people were posting their birthdays and i was counting their personal number. With some of the characteristics for the sun signs. It was fun, for me, very relaxing, i hope it was fun for them too.
Congratulation Frankie and Dave on your walks.
It is -12 with wind -20, snowing and slippery. No walk is save in this weather. I envy you....:)))
Hugs D.

[jenmarrrr]

Hi Ponder - yes I mean painting as in drawing and painting :)

And hi frankiecfc - glad you went for a walk, and art and painting help me let out my emotions and relax me :)

[Ponder]

please do post any artwork you can - I'm sure your very talented, but all the same, I would love to see anything type of scribble, brush or stroke . Do you have a particular theme, style - still life, people,portraits, and or nature?

My positive for today, was I got a fair amount of exercise throughout the whole day in short intervals here and there. Still eating well too. Plus scored a new set of shoes. :)

[Dahila]

jenmarr I would appreciate to see your works, I finished fine art school in Poland and I still do something from time to time... I love to see some of your paintings. What kind of paint do u use?

[Dahila]

I am happy because you are happy Frankie :)) well done

[Ponder]

Then I too --- I am happy for the both of you :)

[jenmarrrr]

Ponder & Dahila - I'd love to post some photos of my work, I'm glad you're interested I'm seeing it :) also I primarily use acrylic paints, but I have done some experimenting with oils and watercolour

Frankie - I'm happy for you for your walk , :) be proud !!

[Dahila]

I swear I am very interested in it Jen:)

[jenmarrrr]

I'll definitely post some tomorrow :)

[Dahila]

Perfect, thank you will wait for it, I will here on and off tomorrow; weekend:)))

[jenmarrrr]

Actually found a few photos of some things I've done :) hope you enjoy !

[jenmarrrr]

Found some photos of my work :)

[Ponder]

Love the first one - can relate so much! The Second was like ROFL but then it made me think a little more - thankfully many of the self help books I have read, have helped to illuminate such presence of mind. Perhaps a different perception in your view here - none the less, very very creative!!! I love that one the best. The others reveal to me, what a steady hand you have. I can only hope to me so fluid when I start drawing in the near future.

Please do keep posting any more you may wish to share and especially any of your new works of art at they come to be.

Awesome !!!!! Thank You so much for sharing that.
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[Dahila]

Fantastic, thank you so much for sharing with us. I see you use very soft pencil like 7 to draw, good because it allows you to work with shades. How long are you drawing? I like the candle. If you want any advice I could give some, but is it fantastic you do this. Like my son, he draws when he is upset, it helps him... Please share with us some.
something of mine, I need to take better pics though;

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[Dahila]

Well you are not obsessed with it. It takes (anxiety) our lifes away , no doubts we put a lot of attention on it:)

[jenmarrrr]

I'm so happy that you were able to interpret my painting and turn it into a message that fits to your life. I think my positive thing for today would be being able to read your response, I really enjoy when my art speaks to other people. I definitely understand the way you interpreted my painting, I often feel the same way

[jenmarrrr]

Also I agree with dahlia, you aren't obsessing about it. Mine basically controls my life, and it's very hard for me to try and control it instead

[MiST]

I gave someone my last Rolo..

No, i'm not joking, it was actually given to me by someone else but i'm diabetic so passed it on again..

How kind of me! http://www.pic4ever.com/images/231.gif

[Dahila]

Mist you are diabetic, now I understand why you are cooking yourself , and the exercising. Do u have to take insulin? My best friend is dealing with it for years. Her pancreas does not produce insulin at all, so the shots. I was trying to change her views on cooking but it does not work.

[reneek]

I think the most important thing to remember with anxiety is that it will always be there; anxiety is normal. The anxiety that most on these forums experience is not normal. It is over the top. Now, with that said, I seem to see a repeating pattern here where too many are allowing their anxiety to control their life, or take over it. I think part of the trick with anxiety is learning to live WITH it, not to allow it control. It is a delicate balancing act. Getting to the proper balance is really the trick. But, once you get there it will take constant awareness to keep it balanced. So yes, it will always be there. Does it have to take over your life? No. You mustn't allow it to. When you concentrate only on the anxiety you feel, you are missing out on everything else in your life. I've read so many self help books, and researched the web, and talked to so many people that I've come to this conclusion. I have times when my anxiety breaksthrough and takes over my mind again. When it does that it feels like it never went away. But, I remember that I have overcome this and although I hate it, I also welcome it. That way I'm not allowing it to take over.

Dahlia, I am also a diabetic and I do make much of my own food. I cannot eat wheat flour, or rice, or potatoes, pasta...I do make my own pasta with Almond Flour, I use a product called Miracle Noodles that are plant based, and I use only whole foods. I do not eat anything processed anymore. If your friend does not produce insulin at all, then she is probably a Type 1. I am a Type 2 which means my pancreas produces some insulin, but not enough to keep my body in homeostatis. I have some great recipes for cookies, cakes, pudding, soups, salads, etc. I eat very well as a diabetic! Just takes a lot of work.

[reneek]

Fantastic, thank you so much for sharing with us. I see you use very soft pencil like 7 to draw, good because it allows you to work with shades. How long are you drawing? I like the candle. If you want any advice I could give some, but is it fantastic you do this. Like my son, he draws when he is upset, it helps him... Please share with us some.
something of mine, I need to take better pics though;

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Beautiful Dahlia! Very talented.

[reneek]

Jenmarrrrr, all I can say is Wow! Very talented.

[Dahila]

Yes thank you reneek, my friend is type 1, I had to learn to recognize when her sugar is low, it is scary. I wish she was careful what she eats, but she loves chocolate..... I understand the way you are explaining about anxiety.

I am dealing it from actually early life, first insomnia then anxiety. My ex-husband bipolar did not help.... In some point I let it ruin my relationship with my ex and my children. Finally I started to meditate, on and off of course, I always get sidetracked.... I have so many passions and hobbies, I should not have any anxiety at all. I do have and I have to take meds. Probably to the end of my life. I stopped believing in miracles, :(
That's fine, I think i function ok now. I have normal family life, started to get a better communication with children, took some canvas out of storage and I am planning to go back to painting, mainly because I want to leave something behind me.
Anxiety is not going to take away what's mine; my life :)))

[reneek]

Good for you Dahila! Glad you are not allowing anxiety to rule you.

Yes, it is difficult to be a diabetic, I'd imagine worse for a Type 1 but your friend can eat chocolate, just eat dark chocolate. It is much kinder to blood sugar.

[Ponder]

Cleaning kitchen NOW and listening to relaxation FM

[Cullingford]

Hi all I was out at sunrise and watched the sun rise from the sea, sometimes I feel so lucky to live in such a wonderfly peaceful part of the world. The pictures in a previous post are very inspiring, It must be so helpful to able to express yourself like this. Im feeling so good at the moment and am back to work tomorrow, after 2 weeks holiday and I refuse to let anxiety spoil my life any more.

I hope you are all well and feeling good today
lots of love Cully.

[Enduronman]

Good to see you Cully and hopes for the new day and upcoming week brah!!

Jessed03 (don't ask, I lost a bet..that I knew I was going to lose)...LOL!!!

E-man. :)

[Dahila]

I went back to work after two weeks and it was not that painful. ;) Did you talk about getting the dog?

[Cullingford]

Hi thanks for all your support, I did ask about the dog again! it was met with a christ dont we have enough on our plate without a dog! which is true I suppose. During that consersation with my wife, she says she thinks I have Autism as well which according to her is the reason why i am so unsociable. To be honest maybe its a age thing I just don't care what people think of me any more, I have'nt conformed in 43 years so I never will.
On that note im going to back to putting everything in lovely straight lines.

[Cullingford]

Hey Eman whats this bet?

[Cullingford]

Dahila, Im so glad going back to work was'nt to bad, im full of fighting spirit I pity the first person or thing that gets my way!.

[Dahila]

oh That's good, It is going to just fine. Best wishes for the first day:))) I am still in love with chicken:))

[Cullingford]

I told the chickens you love them and they love you too.

[Dahila]

Thank you :)) I like that:). I just designed Calendula Shea butter lotion for my granddaughter eczema, which seem to flare up on winter time. I need just two hour of peace and quite to make it:))

[janey]

I went to the park and fed duckies. <3

[Dahila]

I do this all the time, with my grandchild, at least I have the excuse ;)) We have so many ducks here, and still everyone love them, me too:))

[Dahila]

I hope that too, I did not scream at my hubby, he deserve it:)) does it count?
I hope I helped someone too, even a bit...

[Dahila]

no is not that he can not do much, he is disabled, but he is always telling me what to do in kitchen and how to do. I am the one cooking and he does not how to do it:)))

[Ponder]

Thanks for sharing that cullngford! That sunrise felt good :)

Yes Frankie - feeling better getthing things done - ty

So far Pulled apart my bedroom - like Ten loads of washing in a 9kg machine

Pulled matress and bedding all apart - now most if which is outside in the Sun - vacumed and treated with spray as well - still out there aring and getting UV

Filled up a heap of OP shop Bags

Moved funritue around and vacumed then sprayed -

Had to sort through a lot of stuff!

That wan just one room -

Now gind go get more spray - probably 3 containers to fisnish the rest of house -

I think I will still be doing this tomorrow! too many rooms.
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I hope I can keep going - its good to be sweating once again!

[reneek]

Let's see, husband and I went out early and did some errands, went to gas station and fueled up my car, stopped at grocery store, did laundry, cooked dinner (kids came over to eat with us), and now just relaxing. We are expecting some really frigid weather in the next two days, so we made sure everything is stocked and we are hunkering in.

[jenmarrrr]

Jenmarrrrr, all I can say is Wow! Very talented.

Thank you so very much :)

[jenmarrrr]

Today I went to a late New Years dinner with my boyfriend and his extended family. It was really a. Lot of fun and I'm so glad I went even though I was nervous at first. I also finally cleaned my room from prop to bottom :)

[Ponder]

good to hear guys - seems to take a lot of pressure off, when getting things done - hard to get going though with procrastination beating at the door - so good on you guys for sharing that stuff - especially the socialising too jenmarrrrrrrr - that's a big share for many of us. TY - I too am glad it ended well for you.

Now I will go hang out another load - I have been using the dryer for far too long. I should really make use of doing chores like this to keep moving and exercising. Hanging clothes on the line is yet another good opportunity for me to get some sun.

Then must clean another room.
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what others positives can some of you list?

[Ponder]

OK Day is Done - Very productive Day -

Just have to flea the kitchen and one more room out the back. BIG JOB!

Got call to confirm our worth, as beings to house!

Now the pressure to get more things done is increased, but given I started getting active about a week ago, I'm feeling a little more up to the challenge.

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[Dahila]

Just upload some pics Dave, we all are happy for you. Finally some kind of security:))

[jenmarrrr]

I'm so happy for you Dave ! Be proud of yourself , I know all of us are :)

[jenmarrrr]

Had a tough day today. I got an assignment back from one of my classes that I worked on for weeks and thought I did well on, and turns out I didn't. I'm so upset. When I got my assignment back I had to leave my class and go home because I started to panic. I feel so discouraged. I'm trying so hard to do well in school and I can't seem to do it. Ugh. Not many positive things were accomplished today like I had hoped

[jenmarrrr]

You're right. I know I gotta get back up and Try again, just very difficult sometimes fighting the "I wanna give up" feelings, as I'm sure everyone has experienced. Hmm well as for positive.. My good friend spent some extra time with me today to cheer me up. Which I appreciated :)

[jenmarrrr]

I'm so grateful for this forum too.. And for you all to be so helpful and responding to me regularly. It really helps me to cheer up.. So thank you

[Ponder]

Thanks for the kind words earlier jenmarrrr - hope this find you feeling better today.

Today I finished cleaning the walls, floors, roof, windows, sills, doors, and edgings + skirtings in the back room -
Now going to repeat procedure in the hallways.

[Dahila]

jarmar I think that forum helps me with anxiety as well. Fantastic inspiring people with inspiring stories. I feel addicted to it:)

[jjh333]

I like this positive board! Today is my third snow day because of the crazy weather in St. Louis, and I was scared to have nothing to do and I was going to panic, so I ran a lot of errands with my dad. This might sound small, but it was nice to spend time together and accomplish some tasks.

[jenmarrrr]

Great job everyone! Wow Dave you're on a role! That's some serious motivation!

I'm all about the small things as well. today I worked up the courage to ask my teacher about how I could improve my assignment that I did so poorly on and how I can boost my mark. With anxiety.. Avoidance is a big issue for me, so it was difficult to get myself to get past my embarrassment and anxiousness and speak with her. But I'm happy that I did

Oh also, you all can call me Jenna or Jen, I'm sure my user name is annoying to type out :)

[Dahila]

“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.”

― Nelson Mandela

[jjh333]

Good for you. I'm all about the small things we do. They are all adding up and will make such a difference to us. I have just bought a little book to write little things in a to do list to keep me motivated every day and get little things done that help me through my day. As I cross them off, by the end of the day I will be content. Well done.

Ponders get up and go is inspiring me into action.
That's a really good idea! Sometimes I will make small lists of things to accomplish and I love highlighting them as I finish, but a book is an even better idea because you can look back and see everything you have finished previously when you feel like you can't do anything.

[Ponder]

Disowned my Drug Addict Son ... long time coming!

[Dahila]

Did not yell at my hubby in the morning:))

[Ponder]

Thanks Dahila . I can really appreciate that. HUG.

Much more positive than I - I go finish dog fence and not react to my other children - and treat them with as much respect, TY :)

[Dahila]

Just tell me Dave how to treat children with respect, when we get none from them?
On positive, came home in one piece, very slippery road, and snowing:)

[Dahila]

Put all the visualization and relaxation on my brand new hipster and ready to go :)) Have a nice day people

[Ponder]

Thanks Dahila. You too.

[KittenTrans]

Today I brushed my teeth :)

[Zena]

I hugged my mom and wished her a happy birthday

[MainerMikeBrown]

Today I volunteered at a local library, as I stocked shelves for them.

[The Intolerable Kid]

Got out of bed.

[KittenTrans]

Just planted some pretty flowers..:)

[MainerMikeBrown]

I volunteered at a food pantry today.

It's nice to give out food for those who don't have the money to keep their kitchen at home stocked with healthy food.

[Ponder]

Baby sat for my Daughter & passed over some movies and TV series for a friend.

[Anne1221]

I wrote a nice note to an elderly lady who is a neighbor who doesn't have anyone in her life.

[Ponder]

Went to the movies.

[brooklyn3383]

Had a nice walk on the trail with my Sister!

[iurod]

Sundays are always the worst for me (going through a break up). It's hard to get out of bed and do anything. But I called an old friend I haven't spoken to in years and called my mother and also went on a little walk while listening music. Haven't eaten anything all day which makes me more anxious, but one day at a time.

[salvator here]

Today is the first day in weeks I forced myself to stay up for more than a few hours without going back to bed to cope (not good at all)

[J. Ans]

I cooked something in a relaxed way without becoming stressed about it. Also, I woke up early and stayed awake all day, no naps, which is good, because it will make me go to sleep early tonight and wake up early tomorrow morning and feel more wide awake. Thank you for suggesting that we share something positive. It helps.

[gypsylee]

Today is the first day in weeks I forced myself to stay up for more than a few hours without going back to bed to cope (not good at all)

Wow, other people do this kind of thing? This is why I love this forum!

I've gone without a nap or even a lie down ALL DAY too (and I'm 800ks from home in a motel so way out of my comfort zone).

[J. Ans]

I am always so proud of myself when, on days off and nothing scheduled, I make myself go to sleep early, make myself wake up early (relatively), and then make myself stay up all day, no naps, no going back to bed to cope, etc. And then when I do go to sleep at night (early again), I sleep more soundly. Having said this, it is a huge thing to get me to stay awake all day. Sometimes I fall asleep on the couch in the afternoon for 1 hour. But, I try not to beat myself up too much about it. I'm always so grateful when I can put some structure into my life, even on "non productive" days (for lack of a better phrase).

[xUnknown]

I exposed myself to my trigger (loud rain and thunderstorms.) Basically I got anxious again and I got flashbacks of my first panic attack. I just let the anxiety be there, take over me, accepting it, and I felt like it couldn't stop me anymore. I fell asleep pretty fast even with the awfully loud rain and thunder. Which is unbelievable for me. So I successfully faced my trigger and didn't even get a panic attack. I'm pretty proud. :)

[J. Ans]

I'm proud of you, too. :) I'm learning to accept it and just let it be there and just float through it, too. Glad you successfully faced a trigger and I would be proud, too.

[J. Ans]

I persistently reminded myself to stay on "my side of the street" and did not get involved in a loved one's stresses. I stayed to the side and worked on my own little projects. I told the person that being around stressed people who have anxiety is not good for me. It hurts my health. Eventually they went off and became a bit calmer. That was a triumph. I didn't "join the fight." I did not engage.

[BlessedBackyard]

I made decorations for my niece's birthday party. I've always enjoyed crafts but haven't done anything crafty in many months, so I enjoyed it.

[Justaspekt]

I may have finally gotten myself a job with animals and a good one.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I went out to eat today for my lunch. I had a cheeseburger at a local diner.

Going out to eat at local diners is therapeutic for me.

[Kirk]

I went out to dinner with 2 friends of mine.

[Anne1221]

Wow! All of these are great and inspiring to me. I helped a friend tonight who is a neighbor and English is her second language. Someone stole her cash card and I helped her file a report. Helping others is therapeutic for me and when I'm helping someone I'm not worrying!

[Ponder]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LsvrsC_tnqA

[Teafrenzy]

I fixed my laptop today!

I was watching the election 2 days ago and I fell asleep trying to await the election result. I must have accidentally knocked my laptop off my bed and knocked something loose. I ended fixing it today.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I ordered new tires for my car for the upcoming winter today, so it's one less thing I don't have to worry about at the present time.

[Anne1221]

I took Snickerdoodle cookies to a neighbor who did something really nice. If you've never had those, they are delicious cinnamon sugar cookies. I used the Krusteaz box mix and they came out great.

[Kirk]

I treated 2 people to Starbucks drinks tonight.

[columbia123]

Just started my day, woke up feeling beaten down and terrified, but seeing your post gave me some fight. I am now blasting music and working on a project that I had been procrastinating with. Thank you for posting this, I know it's a simple thing to do but on some days it's a powerful thing to shift your thoughts the other way.

[sarsaparilla]

Texted a friend. Ate some healthy food. Remembered my positive experiences in movement therapy and danced to my favorite music. Baby steps :)

[zhoirudin]

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm, i think something positive that i do today is just wake up earlier, -_-

[BlessedBackyard]

I walked farther this morning than I've gone in the last year.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Today I volunteered at a local library, as I stocked book shelves, took out the trash (which the librarian appreciated since she has an arm in a cast), and swept the floors.

[Anne1221]

BB and MMB....GREAT for both of you!!! Keep up the good work.

Today I put a note for my neighbor who is elderly and lonely.

[MainerMikeBrown]

The thing I did today that was positive was submitting an application to a local health center so I can see the dentist that they have.

I'm glad I got that over with.

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did that was positive today was not purchasing junk food such as twinkies, cookies, and jelly rolls when I went to the grocery store today.

[salvator here]

I've been getting up everyday and showering and trying to take care of myself physically even if I've feel like death inside. Yesterday I got a haircut (for the first time since November of last year) and shaved. I am eating breakfast now and drinking tea. I've been really cutting back on watching the news on TV (huge trigger for me) and its helped a lot.

Yeah, I know, that was more than 1 thing LOL :)

[salvator here]

Today I donated some (a lot actually) old cloths to the goodwill. It was satisfying in 2 ways. 1) I feel like I donated to a good cause. 2) I lost weight and I was more than happy to rid myself of the pants 2 sizes larger than I am now. YAY!!

[Kirk]

I treated 2 women I know from Trader Joe's to Starbucks tonight.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Today I volunteered at a local agricultural farm (which is funny since it's the dead of winter here in Maine).

I did indoor work there, as I bagged dried herbs, such as catnip.

[Kirk]

I treated a girl to Dunkin Donuts in the morning and another woman to Starbucks at night. I did not know either of them.

[salvator here]

Got up, stayed up and enjoyed a cool but sunny day here. Walked around a bit and enjoyed an iced coffee. Usually I'm a night owl, but being up during the day has been a refreshing change.

[Spider666]

I did laundry today!

[IsabelaMA]

I was able to comfort and help my patients (I'm a nurse) many times during my shift even though they have dementia...I love helping people.

[agimagi]

I was riding the bike in the morning, then slowed myself down (sometimes I rush myself for no reason) and spent 1,5 hrs soaking in the sun by a golf course. Also, subscribed to Headspace and continued my journey of meditation...I felt so inspired that I moved around some of the furniture in my living room. Haha!

[agimagi]

I've been getting up everyday and showering and trying to take care of myself physically even if I've feel like death inside. Yesterday I got a haircut (for the first time since November of last year) and shaved. I am eating breakfast now and drinking tea. I've been really cutting back on watching the news on TV (huge trigger for me) and its helped a lot.

Yeah, I know, that was more than 1 thing LOL :)

Watching tv is a huge trigger for me. I can only do `filtered` Netflix :D I am cutting back on social media too...can`t deal with all these things.

[Kirk]

Met a friend of mine at Starbucks tonight.

[Zena]

Discovered some dope tunes

[agimagi]

I cooked, baked, cleaned, walked today..sprinkled with some work..haha I feel good today.

[Teafrenzy]

Drove from Toronto to Fort Wayne Indiana (6 hour drive).

[Kirk]

Got a lot accomplished at work today.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I shoveled some snow today and got the runner's high as a result.

[salvator here]

^I read you got about 18 inches of snow over in the Northeast - Merry Christmas ... (in February lol) :)

I watched Suicide Squad on DVD today for the first time and really enjoyed it; now I'll have "Heathens" stuck in my head all day..

[Kirk]

I bought a homeless person some food and gave him a couple of bucks.

[Zena]

^ That's awesome.

I made a trip to the store I had been putting off for a minute

[ScreamPheonix]

My grandfather is terminally ill and hospitalized. I try to visit him as much as possible. I visited him today. He has always been good to me and he needs all the support I can give him.

[MainerMikeBrown]

This morning I did something positive, as I didn't oversleep. I got up early.

After all, too much sleep can be bad for you.

[Kirk]

Thursday night while in the parking lot going to Starbucks, saw a nurses aid standing to the side of a parked car with the rear passenger door open. Their was a woman in the back seat. I asked if they needed any help and the aid said yes. I went over and helped the aid ( I did most of the work) get the woman out of the car into a wheelchair. The woman told me she had MS and I must say, she was heavy to lift up and put into the wheelchair and I am no spring chicken myself anymore.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Nice job, Kirk! I'm sure everyone involved appreciated your help.

[Ponder]

Well done Kirk. I'm impressed.

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did today that was positive was this morning I went out for a walk around my neighborhood in order to take in some nice weather and fresh air. I also walked to get the runner's high. And I succeeded.

[Jull]

I had a fun talk to my mom :) It's one of my greatest motivation ;D

[Ponder]

I took time out and did up a Budget Gaming PC Build for a friend that needed some advice.

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did that was positive today was commenting onto online forums such as this one. Doing so is often therapeutic for me, which is why I think me commenting on forums is something that's positive.

After all, hobbies do matter.

[Kirk]

Bought 2 attractive young girls who work at Trader Joe's and who I am friendly with drinks at Starbucks.

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did that was positive today is staying in my house, as I have a cold. I didn't want to leave my house and spread my cold to everyone else.

[Ponder]

Went out and bought a pipe.;)

[Kirk]

Gave money to a charity.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Today I had a good time volunteering inside a greenhouse at an agricultural farm. Their were several others working there too and they played nice music at a reasonable volume.

[Daisy_Love]

Hi Dave,

Procrastination happens to the best of us. Routines are what I like to fall back on when I am anxious or depressed so I understand you when you are talking about that. I wish you the best.

And: Something positive I did today was going above and beyond to help a coworker out at work when they didn't ask for my help.

Best,
Daisy_Love

[salvator here]

Stayed up for a change and actually left the house for the first time in weeks. Was rough.. at times I felt like going home and back to bed, but I managed to eat (another problem all in itself). No plastic silverware so had to eat with my bare hands and could not wash them. I was with somebody and didn't want to make a scene. Luckily the guy I was with already knows me well and I didn't have to worry about being visibly shaken. He even asked me a few times I wanted to leave.. I said no. The only thing he said was I always walk around with either a really fake wide smile or a huge grimace. He said would be best to have no expressions during these times...trouble is, its unintentional.

Was out for 3 hours (longest in a really long time) and overall I'm glad I did it. However I feel completely wrecked from it all.

[MainerMikeBrown]

One positive thing I did today was that I went out to eat at a local diner for the first time in a couple of weeks.

[salvator here]

Got up and stayed up instead of staying in bed YAY!! Might take a walk today as the weather is nice for November :)

[Ponder]

Took in, interacted, and supervised my grandson.

[Ponder]

Actively got involved in seeking out mental health supports in the local community. Is good to do more than simply bitch about society. :)

[MainerMikeBrown]

One positive thing I did today was watch a documentary on TV about the attack on Pearl Harbor.

It's good to catch up on history, I think. That way we'll never forget about the good as well as the not so good events that have happened in history.

[Ponder]

To further add enrichment and encouragement:
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pearl_Harbor_advance-knowledge_conspiracy_theory

[salvator here]

Walked today about 3/4 mile, was cold but sunny, it really woke me up I'll say though. Listened to my mp3 player while walking enjoyed the fresh air.

[Dahila]

bought salt and put some on my driveway, My grandaughter slipped and fall down on Car , I am thankful nothing happened to her. then I put it on my ice covered driveway :)

[salvator here]

I hope everything is alright with your granddaughter; Lucky!

[Ponder]

That sounds quite problematic. Glad nothing more serious happened.

I looked after my grandson overnight and saw a sensory Santa with him that day. It was a special one on one apointment. First time the little one was able to get so close to a Santa. He made a good connection and got a whole 15 minutes all to himself. It was awesome to watch.

[Dahila]

Hi guys, she is ok, as a dancer her muscles are really strong and even she get hurt dancing (often) she recovers in hours, I am not sure she should dance 12 hours a week but she loves it, so granny gives her food then take her to dance. I had wonderful day on Market . Last week I had an event still behind 20 dollars, I sold 17 dollars worth, on this event , never again any school. They take money from vendors and do not provide anything.
So I am very happy on today sales on market I had uploaded the pics on FB on my page but maybe i will put the kids corner here
No I can not upload it here,
if you want to see what I do I can share my page with you :) I mean the link

[Ponder]

Share away D :) Glad your grand grand daughter is doing well and the you had a better day at the markets. I will visit soon enough ... sorry I have been self absorbed. Always love seeing you in here on the forum.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I went out for a short walk late this morning. I felt that I should since I knew I'd be indoors for much of the afternoon watching NFL football on TV.

[salvator here]

Visited a relative I'd not seen in a while.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Purchased two pairs of blue jeans earlier today.

My other jeans are getting too old.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I was supposed to volunteer at an agricultural farm today. But winter weather had other ideas. Hence, I called my supervisor up to tell her that I couldn't make it in today. And that ended up being a positive thing because if I had tried to drive to the farm today with my car, it may have been too dangerous. I don't think the roads were in good condition near where I live today.

I felt that it would be better to be safe than sorry. I made the right decision.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Today I volunteered at a library and went out for a walk afterwards with a little bit of running involved.

It was a pretty good day for me.

[MainerMikeBrown]

This morning, I went out for a walk/run around my neighborhood. And it's a good thing that I did so when I did because it's raining out here now.

I timed it right.

[Ponder]

Genuinely pleased for you Mike - I got up and posted the forum. ;)

[MainerMikeBrown]

Something positive that I'll be doing later this afternoon is shoveling snow that's on my driveway, as we've received a few inches of snow here today.

It has to be done, after all.

[MainerMikeBrown]

One positive thing I did today was see my eye doctor. It went well. He told me that my eyes are healthy and that I don't need new eye glasses.

[Kuma]

I managed to get a decent night's sleep.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I hear you there, Kuma.

[Dahila]

I sold airplane model for my neighbor on Market. He was very happy about it :)

[MainerMikeBrown]

One positive thing I did today was avoiding the heat outside. It got up past 90 F here in southern Maine today.

I spent the morning at a library which was air conditioned. Then I went home and had three fans on, which kept me cool.

[salvator here]

Got up today and stayed up and posted here. Stayed in bed all day yesterday though, while not good, only way to cope sometimes.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Salvator, I agree with you that while staying in bed all day isn't good, it is the only real way to cope at times.

Years ago when I was in the mental hospital, at first during one stay there, I stayed in bed much of the time because I was afraid that if I got up and out of bed, it would make me feel even worse.

[Ponder]

I got up this morning and went for long walk. Somewhere in between the hours playing on my PC, I did the kitchen, washed and hung out everyone's clothes and made dinner for both myself and the little one. I also went out to give assistance during the day by way of moral support. The thing is ... I mostly just remember playing on my computer regardless of the list. :)

[Dahila]

pickles for winter a bushel of cucambers I am taking care of small dog and this is nice

[salvator here]

Thanks Mike for saying that. Did you ever notice how hard is becomes to get out of bed the next day and outside after even 1 day of laying in bed stuck in the house.. can easily compound the problem and worsen and snowball into full on agoraphobia for me if I let it. 1 day turns into 2 - into a week or more if not careful. I also don't usually do very well going inpatient either. I understand that very well.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I sometimes have a hard time getting out of bed if I think I'm going to have a bad day.

If I think I'm going to have a rough day, I often want to sleep in instead. Not all day, but still.

[Kuma]

I often have the same reaction. I force myself to get up, do some exercise, and go to work -- because I know that is good for me, instead of lying around. But sometimes it is VERY hard.

Maybe it would be easier if lived in Maine -- Mike I an envious of you living in such a nice place -- of course, I don't know where in Maine you live -- but the places I have been were great -- at least in the nice weather!

[MainerMikeBrown]

I like Maine as well, Kuma. I also like living in Maine. Although our winters are harsh, I generally like the weather we have here, the crime rate is low, and it's a beautiful state, I think.

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did today that was positive was purchasing a can of cream of celery soup at the grocery store. Then I went home and had soup and sandwich for lunch. Yum!

Having a good tasting meal can be therapeutic to me.

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did that was positive today is volunteer at the food pantry this morning and then a library later in the morning.

Now I'm home and am just relaxing.

[Dahila]

Positive, I asked my partner; nicely asked to stop pissing me off in the morning

[MainerMikeBrown]

Today I saw my psychiatrist. It was good talking to him.

[salvator here]

Wish I could say that, I feel worse after seeing my therapist and psychiatrist, I'm very defensive apparently come across as difficult. In fact.. I've been told that by them both. I don't open up well enough, I hold back. They don't know what to make of me and I'm aware of the clock ticking.

Anyway, positive..

Drank a nice iced coffee today and that was about all I can say. Otherwise, just going through the motions I guess.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Sorry to hear that you don't like meeting with your therapist and your psychiatrist, Salvator.

[salvator here]

Thanks Mike, its not that I don't think I have the *right* therapists, they are a good match for me, wouldn't trade them, just I have serious trust issues and I admit it. They can only go by what they seen a what I tell them.. I give off mixed signals I suppose. I'm very honest with them though, hard to explain I guess. I'm awkward I think. Sorry for not making sense.

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did that was positive today was volunteering at a local library, then listened to music on one of their computers, then walked around a farmers market, then went out to eat.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I hung out with my dad today.

As a child and teenager, my dad and I spent a lot of time together. And all these years later, we're still close. He's a good guy.

[salvator here]

That's truly nice to hear mike :)

Sometimes what I wouldn't give just to hear his voice again on the phone. He was good man and accepted me for whom I am unconditionally.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I'm glad you're father was a good man who accepted you for who you are as a person, Sal. Many people didn't have fathers who were like that.

One thing I did that was positive today was walk around a nearby village...after I found a place to park my car, that is.

[salvator here]

Went out to eat for breakfast.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Today I went to an agricultural fair. I walked around the grounds and ate lunch.

[Dahila]

Nice it was probably very educational adventure Mike ;) I finished working on my formula; face wash for sensitive skin. Printed out and now I can make a huge batch. It took me making three 100 grams batches to get the desired result

[MainerMikeBrown]

This morning I volunteered at the food pantry and the library.

And this afternoon I'll just be chilling out.

[Dahila]

I made the face wash green color scented with Lemon Verbena, waiting right now for the solution to clear out :) Should pack the showers steamers but I feel so lazy today

[MainerMikeBrown]

I think chilling out this afternoon is a positive thing to do, as we all need a rest from time to time.

[salvator here]

Waled about a mile to the dollar store today and bought a soda.

[Dahila]

good think but you should get the juice not the soda Sal sweetheart

[salvator here]

Lol.. Yeah I know the soda is not healthy, I think its my guilty pleasure so to speak. Sometimes I get the iced tea though.

[Dahila]

Sal we all have some guilty pleasure :) All of us :)

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did that was positive today was not go out to eat for lunch. Hence, I saved some money by eating lunch at home instead.

A penny saved is a penny earned.

[Dahila]

I was working, and took my grandchild to dance school , i do it three times a week, It is 40 minute drive both ways, and very stressful, but it is good to see her happy that she can follow her passion ;) I thing good.
Mike thank you for keeping this forum alive, thank you

[salvator here]

That's nice to hear, Dahila - that you support your granddaughter and her dancing.

[Dahila]

I do I also support my daughter she is very wise young woman, I wish I was as smart as she is when I was her age.
Now Olivia dances 4 times a week; including Saturday
4 times a week she has volleyball practice, the school is like 100 meters from my house, she comes after school sweating and exhausted, I have a blanket and the pillow for her and she takes a power nap while I drive her to dance :) She does keep busy sometimes I think she does not have enough time to rest

[MainerMikeBrown]

Thanks, Dahila. I try to help keep this forum alive when I can.

[Dahila]

Thanks, Dahila. I try to help keep this forum alive when I can.

I am trying too so does Sal, I do not want to lose this place, it is a shelter
for me

[MainerMikeBrown]

AnxietyForum.net is a cool place to hang out, I think.

[salvator here]

Yeah I would miss this forum. Mostly the people that post here, I feel attached to the members. I don't open up well elsewhere for some reason.

[MainerMikeBrown]

I'd miss it too, Sal.

[salvator here]

I won't give up on AF :)

[MainerMikeBrown]

I'm not giving up on AnxietyForum.net anytime soon either, Sal.

[Dahila]

Me either, it is a home for me

[MainerMikeBrown]

I think this forum can help people.

[salvator here]

Glad I made it through my appointment today without freaking out as I usually do and come unglued. I have white coat syndrome. Now I don't have to worry for another 6 months till I see him again. Glad its over.

[MainerMikeBrown]

Glad it went well, Sal.

[salvator here]

Thanks, Mike, Overall.. it did go well and I have refills of Gabapentin to last.

[Dahila]

oh Gabapentin such good medication. I was on it for 3 years but had a massive weight gain so I slowly weened of it
The weight stayed on

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did that was positive today was ordering a double cheeseburger for lunch at a local variety store.

I've consumed a fair amount of cheeseburgers lately. However, it's been a long time since I've eaten a double cheeseburger.

It was good and tasty. It hit the spot for me.

[salvator here]

Thus far I've been hovering around 172 which is roughly 10 pounds higher from the beginning of the year. I'm prescribed 900 MG but only take 600 a day so long as things aren't that bad, sometimes only 300 MG. I stop eating by 8 PM now and that seems to keep the heartburn away as well. I'm not a muscular guy so I am overweight. I crave sweets for some reason and give in to the temptation.

Today I walked to the dollar store. Was tough coming back but worth it, I think.

[Dahila]

I was on 900 mg and my daughter partner has some problems with nerv pain and he is taking it, I told him you are going to get a lot of weight and he did, Even he is working up. Gabapentin caused in me such hunger I had to eat all the time

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did that was positive today was think about how much progress I've made over the years with my mental health issues.

[Dahila]

I was working in my dream world today , because of busy Saturday I am low on facial moisturizers . Working downstairs make me so positive, My first meal was a 4 pm I tend to forget about food when I am busy

[salvator here]

Today was cleaning day for me. I feel like I accomplished something. The least I can do is keep my room clean, I guess.

[Dahila]

Voted for a better country .............

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did that was positive today was not going to the store and purchase goodies. I resisted the urge.

[Dahila]

offered someone help with problems, it feels pretty good :)

[salvator here]

I got out today and ate out for dinner - it was nice. Turkey Chili.

[Dahila]

nothing good yet, but I am so irritated , I am going to go to workshop to take my mind of problems ;)

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did today that was positive was walk around a mall for the first time in a long time.

Where I live, the nearest mall is about an hour's drive.

It was good.

[MainerMikeBrown]

What I did today that was positive was go to the food pantry as a volunteer.

Last night, I wasn't so sure that I would be able to go there this morning or not because I was afraid we'd get ice and snow last night and this morning. However, that didn't happen, as we just got rain instead. The roads were just fine, fortunately.

[Dahila]

Welll I had not react to nonsense people say, so I kept my temper in check , it is a good thing

[MainerMikeBrown]

I helped out at a local arts center today. Today a big truck stopped on by, and about a half a dozen men, including me, unloaded like one hundred new chairs for the center.

It was good. I like manual labor.